Sunday, July 21

Forever In Your Heart

I never left
I kept telling you
I crawled into your skin
And became one with you
I'm not just yours
I'm only ever you
Where ever you go
There I am too

I came freely into your sight
To remind you that you are the light
Forever lit, I am with you
There's nothing for me to leave on for you
I never left
I keep telling you

We crawled, we walked
We shred the shackles around the heart
And now we glide side by side
You are the dream I live inside
You are the flight into new heights
You're not standing alone anymore
You are flying inside the love you adore


We don't have to hold anything
We don't have to remember
We are forever here in this present
As lover and beloved
Always one down in the heart
Darling, I'm forever in your heart
I'll never leave
I'll always remind you

~ (c) 2013 Kidest M.

Thursday, July 11

Wonder Not Wander

I realized something recently - I stopped searching "out there" for things, for everything. I caught myself having interest only in the magic of being and having completely got over the wandering into thoughts of "what's happening over there." This to me is the beginning of trusting life completely, trusting that come what may and whatever comes this way, it is all so absolutely perfect that you can't help but just know that life is on your side, that it is life that's got your back. The things that come and the things that don't come are blessings equally, and for as long as you keep yourself in alignment with the higher energies of the unseen realms, your waking world unfolds in ways to continue fueling the journey of your heart.

It feels freeing to throw away your cares, your wanderings, your what if's, in favor of this knowing that all is well, all was well, and all will be well. You can know that, you know? You can feel into that reality thread and let it be what leads you into your next moment and the one after that and the one after that. There is no deadline, there is no rush, there is no holding back - there is only the affirmation that YES, you are indeed powered and supported by an invisible Super Being every which way you turn. You can give yourself permission to deeply let go into that recognition.

When you focus on how life is doing you, how life is being you, when you allow the marvel of existing in all the ways you do come into your awareness, every other care in the world dissolves away and you are absorbed in the full bliss of being here, being you, right now. This is the integrated journey of being that will allow you to access resources beyond the reach of the wandering mind. Neither here nor there, neither yesterday or later, matter.

It's just you and this pulse of life that lives you in this moment. Look at that. Feel into that. Delve into that. And then whisper your dreams into it. This is the communion of being alive. To be still, to feel, to connect to the life that is being you and that is doing you in this very moment, that is orchestrating everything to do with you in this instant. When you do this, when you get still and connect like this, your are speaking to the current of life itself. And when you've developed your ability to commune with this, you will let yourself be carried trustingly by it into the worlds your heart has always dreamed of.

Life is epic, every second of every day.

Sunday, July 7

Immortal Fame

Entertainment is a funny culture to me - and not at all the arts and crafts of movies, the genius and coordination that goes into filming a story or putting on a great concert - the culture I'm writing about is all the fan-dom pandemonium that surrounds movies, their actors, musicians and their music. There's true appreciation and then there is freak-me-out crazy obsession. It's a very strange range of human behavior to witness in action. I've been physically present watching someone totally flip out because someone "famous" was in their sight. And for as much as I love observing, decoding, and understanding human behavior, this part of the reaction to someone "famous" is one that still leaves me to scratch my head. Like what is that person seeing in that moment? How are they perceiving this person and translating it in their minds eye?

Because in those moments, and there have been enough for me to repeatedly study this, what I see and what that person freaking out sees are two completely different realities. I see another human, who eats and shits like everyone else, but who also happens to have either an incredible voice I love or a talent to bring some character to life and make me believe in it. But I've still seen them as a human being. I've yet to meet someone that I've looked at and gone screaming crazy jumping up and down, and better yet, completely losing all consciousness over. It's not that I want to have that experience really, I doubt I ever will, but more so I want to understand what's behind that reaction - what stories, definitions, concepts, reactions are being internally cycled for someone to look at another human being, a complete stranger most of the time, and lose their shit? Sometimes to the point of over-accelerating their heart rate and cutting off the oxygen flow to their system and passing out? It intrigues me. Completely. Like, why would you put your nervous system through that and then lose out on an actual connection or conversation with your idol in the process? A reaction is never a reaction. A reaction is always a self-imposed state of being you throw your nervous system into.

So it's really one of those patterns that makes me wonder: who was the first famous person on our planet? Who was the first paparazzi? Who was the first person, caveman, cave woman, village person, to even care about what that famous person was doing with his lunch? When did that first star struck dumb-founded out-of-the-skin-freaking-out reaction take place on this planet of ours? In what century and under what circumstances? Did the play writers and performers from centuries ago evoke the same reactions in their audience? Did the first man or woman to ever hum like an angel have followers that went to his or her show in every village he or she traveled to on the back of a donkey or a caravan of camels? Who coined the term celebrity?

When did we get like this? When did we collectively accept that it was normal and an every day occurrence to go bat shit insane screaming crazy over another human being?

This whole culture of celebrity and billions of dollars made on the coming and going's of screen and stage gods and goddesses is one that absolutely fascinates me. That we have erected an entire industry of "news" and magazines, that we have mass consumerism around it, that we have rituals and practices in response to gaining the attention of some celebrity - all of these things and the wide-spread nature of them, scratches my curiosity. The concepts of fame and celebrity and the way so many human beings relate to them...its something I totally love looking at under a microscope.


Monday, July 1

Catch A Feeling

I want to grab this feeling and write it down.

Today is all about laughter - the kind where you throw your head back, open wide and let it out loudly from deep within your belly. Laughing without reservation with the volume set to high - 'cause this is when we're high.

This is when you and I are the real you and I, this is when we find ourselves back to the real dance of being what we really are. The look, the sound, the feel of laughter...this is us.

And thank god for that.

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