Saturday, December 29

My Love for Books

I love that seeing this made someone think of me. 
It's true. 
Books to me are worlds, universes, gateways to other realms.

Thursday, December 27

The Love You Are Ready To Live

Be a servant to your heart’s inner truth, and your life in turn will bow to you as its Master.  - Richard Bartlett

Whatever comes into your life is about the love you are ready to live.
Whatever leaves your life is about the love you are ready to live.
What never comes into your life is about the love you are ready to live.

Everything every which way you turn is demonstrating to you the love you are ready to live. This is all it is ever about.

I find the greatest test to our vulnerability really is not in extending love, but in receiving it, in letting it in. Receiving love, letting it all flow in to the center of your being, requires that your walls are down - it requires that you put down all the reasons, justifications, excuses for why you don't deserve, aren't enough, or not ready to be in the space of love.

Can you imagine what it would be like to be in the constant awareness of how loved you are in the world, in the Universe, in your life?

That's not an awareness many of us are in active or constant perception of.

I remember once I was in a mess of a something with a guy. And there was a moment we were talking standing close to each other and he was about to tell me what he felt. I felt the energy turn, I felt the extension, and re-actively took a step back. Like, whoa there horsie. I don't want to receive this amount of love. I watched myself do it. It was a moment of awakening for me.

I know we have a culture that says change or things unfolding differently than your conscious mind expected are unlovely moments, moments to hang your head, slump your shoulders down and question the blessing that's in the guise of change.

What I have come to know is this:

Everything working out is about the love you are ready to live.
Everything not working out is about the love you are ready to live.

I've been paying attention to this so that the next love interest, mate, significant so and so, that shows up is not blocked by any kind of shield I put in front of me. I've been destroying my shields and my shells for almost two years of being unattached now. And I feel the difference within me. It's like spring cleaning happened inside my heart and I feel the lightness of the effort.

And I know, this too is about the love I am ready to live.

What I also noticed is how much started flowing in once I started doing my clean up. When you open yourself up to not only loving fully but being loved fully, it's like you become this natural magnet, spinning votex, that has no cap on the amount of love that can flow in.

What if you were willing to receive Infinite Love, unending Love, limitless Love into your Heart right now?

Live inside of this question. Sit yourself right inside of this question and watch as it flushes out all the walls you've put up to receiving love.

You are loved, much more and much deeply than your conscious expectations can hold. Let all of your expectations go into your willingness to be loved and let that willingness construct your world.

Are you willing to be loved fully right now?
And now?
And now?

Monday, December 24

Marriage of the Dragon

With the Pheonix

Together, the dragon and phoenix symbolize Yin and Yang together: perfect balance. Standing alone, each symbol is hugely powerful. Together they represent a power- packed union of success, prosperity, friendship, love, and enlightenment. The union of these two highly symbolic creatures at wedding festivities suggests a match that is blessed with money and incredible luck. Furthermore, it denotes the beginning of a dynastic family with the dragon symbolizing the patriarch and the phoenix signifying the matriarch.

Let the fire burn? 


Friday, December 21

Living the Dream in 2013

I repeatedly kept hearing and reading about the usefulness of creating a theme for your year ahead, your life in 2013. Every story book has a theme, every song, every movie - there's always a theme, an overall tone and message. So this is one of those other things that makes sense to do for your own life story - to choose a theme that holds all that will unfold as your life together in 2013.

At the same time I was seeing these blogposts and articles on the topic, I saw a brief interview on youtube about what one of my favorite hearts on the planet was casting ahead as his 2013. From the same mouth that gave me "2008 will be great" I heard "living the dream in 2013" - and there it was all wrapped up and delivered. I like it, I thought. I'll take it. I'm in!

And then I got to work - mainly just by doodling this theme-mantra on pages and creating a print out that I colored to post on one of the most frequented spots in my home - the refrigerator. Now it's there, and reminds me at ever trip for food, or snacks, or drinks, or cooking, or doing the dishes that this is what I've cast ahead and this is the space I'm working and living in now - the space of living the dream, living those silent wishes, out in 2013.

It's when you've chosen a destination that you can gather all of yourself, your attention, your focus, and cast it altogether in that direction. When you've decided on where you're going, getting there is that much easier.

Monday, December 17

Dragon Totem

Being born on a Saturday lands me this incredible zodiac sign (Burmese) and totem.

Zodiac animal sign: Dragon
Day of Week Born: Saturday
Ruling Planet: Saturn
Ruling Direction: Southwest
Personality/Attributes of the Dragon: You are philosophical and understanding. People are naturally attracted to you because you have an easy confidence about you and you have a great sense of humor. You prefer to work alone because you believe you are the master of your own destiny and do not like depending on others to get the job done.

What I love most, is how whatever field of focus I dwell on brings with it gifts that re-affirm and support my intentions. 


Elemental Magic
Powers of Change and Transformation

Dragon represents the supernatural,
infinity itself and the spiritual powers of change and transformation.
It is a fierce protector and adds extra power to any magic you may perform.

Fire Dragon
Transmutation, Mastery, Energy
This powerful totem brings vitality, enthusiasm and courage.
He will help you overcome obstacles
and give you qualities of leadership and mastery.
He can fuel your inner fires.
He can be a powerful protector.

Air Dragon
Inspiration, Insight, Vitality
This totem must be treated with great respect.
Great flashes of illumination in intellect and psyche
are possible with this totem.
The air dragon brings insight and clarity to all problems.
Trust your inner voice.

Earth Dragon
Power, Potential, Riches
This totem shows us our potential, our riches: what we are capable of.
With his help, we can discover the beauty and power that lies in all of us.
He lives deep within the Earth and can help you ground scattered energies.
When you call him, think of a slow moving, heavy Dragon pulling himself toward you.
Feel his weight around you.  He will nurture you as Mother Earth does.

Water Dragon
Passion, Depth, Connection
A water dragon totem brings memories and wishes,
perhaps long hidden, to the surface.
By facing painful past experiences,
we can achieve a sense of peace and balance in our lives.
This totem gives us the courage and compassion
in this challenge.

Sunday, December 16

Ode to the Illumined Moon

"It's been so long since I've had an actual partner that I don't even know what I would do with that kind of support. Someone to actually talk to, reflect and collaborate with? The idea of even touching on a regular basis sounds a bit like heaven to me, much less kissing and actually making love. And not the kind of Heaven I need someone else to lead me to or show me, but the one I have found deep in my own heart, reflected exponentially when love looks me in the eyes. The hand on my heart that wants to go deeper and deeper still. The hand on my body that sees who I am and is in awe of both of us, that calls up magic we are not even aware of yet, that brings in something I don't even know yet that I need, that receives all that I have to offer, which is more than I can even calculate. 
I've polished every hall in this temple, every sacred relic while you've been away. The Wholy Grail lies within. The god is in the goddess. The sacred heart is aflame as it approaches the holy of holies. Let's light this whirled on fire. She wants to glow for all to see."
~ Illumina (

Saturday, December 15

A Request

Olive Trees
Yes Please

The Golden Balance

For at the gates of the Mighty, She hath taken a seat,
and at the entrance thereof chanteth Her song:

"In the beginning, before the Lord made the Earth
When He furnished the Heavens, I was with Him;
and when He set apart His throne on the winds
When He set to the sea its bound,
and the waters passed not the word of His mouth
I was harmonizing with Him. I was the one in whom
He delighted, and I was daily gladdened by His
presence on all occasions." 
- Septuagint

Awakening into Wholeness is the destiny of every heart.

It starts with a spark at the center of your chest and we are ignited into a heart remembrance of sorts. I remember the start back in the fall of 2005, though I know there's no real start to all this, that's how it all appears. The feeling comes on strong, like things have just been snapped in place by a cosmic chemist, the lights all turned on by some celestial electrician, and all the reactions already under-way and all the bonds in your being completely rearranged. Your eyes grow wider and you feel a lot more even if it's just for the blink of an eye. You have no idea what you're in for then, but you know it's something. And the next morning you wake up feeling incredibly sad for coming back down into your forgetting. You don't know why, you don't know what you remembered, what it was that brought you into a height you'd never dreamed of, but you've felt it and it's left its imprint on you. You're completely changed. You've woken up a part of yourself that was asleep to the miracle of the wholeness within you.

As the scenes unfold you discover this magickal alchemy that's at work every step of the way. You are hand in hand with wizards  and alchemists who teach you the ways of the invisible world, the ways of transformation, the ways of turning all the compressed energy inside of you into the transparent spectrum of higher worlds. You are taught the ways of not only giving but receiving a deeper love, a boundless love that fills all the spaces of creation. You are invited to open your eyes to your whole self, to no longer see and know yourself as half of anything, as just a man or as just a woman, but as a being that contains both. No man or woman is ever on the outside of your being. This is the unification of your own heart, the awakening to a truth that has always been.

And as you learn to look with open eyes, you'll try to keep to the moment while your mind keeps running away to the home your heart has already awakened to. You look at the fragments trying to make it make sense while your heart reels in the feeling of all that is revealed.

Conditioning teaches us one thing. Awakening shows us another. Getting to experience the total reality of your whole self is a waking realization like no other.

I don't just remember you. I'm fully awake to you. I'm fully awake in you. Just as you are in me. Just as you are awake to me. My eyes have readjusted and my mind has grown to hold the full sight of this truth this Heart has always known. I in you, you in me, we have always been whole.  

This is what you say to the part of your being you had been asleep to.

The secret to receiving all of this, the secret to knowing your whole balanced self, is always going to be about your willingness to be loved. Are you willing to be loved by the Allness of your Real Self? Are you willing to feel and receive the depth of your whole self? Are you willing to awaken to what you've always contained inside of you?

I recently participated in a visioning journey with my Heart Storming sisters, and for my part of the visionary quest, I beheld two golden rings that were not two, nor were they one. They were neither two nor one, they acted like two but they merged fluidly, like a magicians rings coming together and dangling off each other and then angling to reveal apparent separateness. It was beautiful to watch them dance in this way.

The journey, whatever it turns out to be and how ever long it takes to come into visibility through you, it will always be worth it because in the end how you unfold and what unfolds in you, how you awaken and what awakens in you, is the greatest of everything you could ever come to know.

We are each created in the heart of a very Great Love.

Wednesday, December 12

A Very Playful 12-12-12

Someone mentioned to me that today begins the 9 day count down to 12-21-12 which in the world of spirituality and consciousness awakening (and cosmology, astronomy etc.) is a significant date. Let's not even mention the numerology at play here.

Numbers to me are significant. Everything is energy after all,  and all of it precise and freakishly exact.

Now the suggestion was to treat today as the door before the bridge into the once-in-every 26,000 years planetary alignment right along the plane of the entire galaxy. That's a pretty exact and gigantic alignment happening across a vast amount of space. And with planetary alignment always comes some movement of energy. Everything is everything affecting everything so setting your tone, your own unique contribution into the mix here to me makes sense.

So I woke up, after waking up in the middle of the night and falling asleep, and just wondered what the perfect tone would be for me. What did I want to  emit into this doorway? What sound did I want to sound and what beam did I want to send out from within me?

I pondered it and moved through my moments feeling the space of this intent to just extend something that was perfect for what I'm stepping into and onto. What came through and formed around me was a day of play and a day of love. I spent the whole day at work laughing, putting up Christmas decorations, getting my hours extended, and then coming home to skype with my brother and his lovely wife together for the first time. It was a day of such satisfaction that my heart is still thumping from all of it.

So that's the bridge that's forming here. One of play and one of love. A playful love. A laugh-filled dance. A giggle-invoking sparkly shiny bridge into....mmhmmm...into that!

This is good!

Sunday, December 9

Carving Out 2013

When I feel into the year ahead, all I feel is an abundance of LOVE flowing through me and to me from every direction.

Oh what a feeling!

2012 was really a year of stepping into my own and a year of many firsts:

~ the first time I ever drove a pallet jack (or even learned what it was), 
~ the first time I worked with plants and felt the power of the energy they hold day after day (holy heavenly bliss of serenity just remembering myself standing in the garden center, alone, with plants, butterflies and the occasional bird)
~ the first time I didn't travel anywhere all year
~ the first time I merchandised and put an abundance of products on display on shelves, 
~ the first time I ever saw what a warehouse full of stock looks like (holy consumerism madness) 
~ the first time I ever broke down crying at work (ever), 
~ the first time I worked in property management, 
~ the first time I ever worked for a computer software company, 
~ the first time I was floored by a gift from a job (Dear iPad, I love you a lot),
~ the first time I ever actually wanted to own a kitten
~ the first time I actually accepted what was really being extended to me (oh so many scenes of unconditional love to reflect on for a lifetime)
~ the first time I really woke up to the feeling of my wholeness (you can't separate what has always been One)

The end of 2012, basically from September onward has been exceptionally heart widening. For the first time in my life, I truly feel as though I'm being snugly held in the arms of a Universal parent. And I know that we all are. I know for a fact that God most definitely loves me beyond any and all understanding.

I am given life, I am given love, I am given light, I am given creativity, I am given God. 

I've always recognized the blessings that flow into my life and the Grace that's in all things, but I had never before this point really felt the hand that's behind them like this, the immense love that's so present in every direction and so being extended to me endlessly in the most beautiful offerings I could have ever dreamed of. My heart has been stretching to receive for days on end and there is just no end to the flow, no end to the widening of my being. Gratitude doesn't even begin to cover or touch how I feel in this reception.

I feel like the whole entire space and the whole entire ether of this world, of this Universe, is embracing me and holding me up into an ocean of pure love and pure support and pure acceptance all manifesting in ways that is uniquely streaming and being streamed just for me. This has been the ongoing feeling for several months now, and with it came a deeper understanding of my own wholeness. When I look at my wholeness now, it's not at all something I ever conceived I would see. When I look in the mirror, I no longer see just me, or at least the me I thought I was. Now I'm Me, Us, We - words can't break it down the way I see it, feel it, and live it now. I didn't know that this was what I had to know. I am no longer looking at myself partially, and I didn't even know that I was until the end of this year.

So when I look ahead, all I can see is a deepening and extending of this into every avenue of my life, every channel of my world and being.

♥ 2013 is the year of True Love and True Loving for me.
♥ The year that my own heart feels the unmistakable hand of love directly day in and day out.
♥ The year that I exclaim, God/Love/Life/the Universe is Good over and over again.
♥ 2013 is the year of demonstrating this Love and expressing it in every way.
♥ 2013 is the year of more Ocean and more sand.
♥ Even some palm trees on the land.
♥ It is the year of more peace and more space.
♥ It is the year I really fall in love with everything I have always been.
♥ 2013 is the year I share more, extend more, touch more, feel more.
♥ It is the year I reveal more.
♥ It is the year I see more and live more.
♥ It is a year of more yoga and really being in this body of mine.
♥ 2013 will have more firsts.
♥ And more plants, definitely more plants.
♥ There will be walking bare feet in the grass and grilling veggies under a clear blue sky.
♥ I see swimming in the mix, and I don't mind it.
♥ There will be a lot of gazing into eyes that shine.
♥ And a lot of communing with like hearts and like minds.
♥ Community is you, me, and everyone under the sun.
♥ More skype sessions and clients, more writing and recording, more doodling and more of even more inspiring.

And of course there will be even more than this right here.
Moments and scenes I see and feel that I'll never put to words on this screen.
Maybe in pictures though, we'll see.
Because some of those moments are really just for me.

I don't know what all the content of it looks like, or what every detail of it will be like, and I don't really need to know.

Because I feel these feelings and they are amazing.

And this is how you carve out the whole thing.
You start with the feeling and let that build your every scene.
Set it into motion with the snippets of your vision.
And then let it grow itself into a moment, a day, a month, a full year.
Light it with your love and vision, then set it free into full expression.
Feel it. Feel it. Feel it.

You are loved.

Happy 2013

Saturday, December 8

Let's Sail Into The Mystic

We were born before the wind
Also younger than the sun
Ere the bonnie boat was won as we sailed into the mystic
Hark, now hear the sailors cry
Smell the sea and feel the sky
Let your soul and spirit fly into the mystic

And when that fog horn blows I will be coming home
And when that fog horn blows I want to hear it
I don't have to fear it
I want to rock your gypsy soul
Just like way back in the days of old
Then magnificently we will float into the mystic
And when that fog horn blows you know I will be coming home
And when thst fog horn whistle blows I got to hear it
I don't have to fear it
I want to rock your gypsy soul
Just like way back in the days of old
And together we will float into the mystic

- Van Morrison 

Promise Yourself

Wednesday, December 5


The company I work for part time just gifted every employee with an iPad. I went into work on Monday only to spend my morning squealing with delight over the gift. The next morning I thanked the owner of the company and just loved how he took gracious joy in our joy.

I love working for a company that extends itself in that way - I was already sold on the place over the free weekly lunches offered for employees and the unlimited tea, hot chocolate, and lattes dispenser. It has been such a great month being in an environment like it - and in the time I've been there, there have been two fundraisers for local charities and before I got there the company had donated $20,000 to build schools in Kenya and Haiti. I wish for nothing but unlimited growth for a space that gives back like that, both internally within the organization and externally to the local and global community!

Now follow that up with what I picked up from the post office today, and call this entire week a marvellous Gift From God.

I'm a huge supporter of Jon Marro. I loved his creativity even before we sat down to do the radio shows that we did together. And what's come after that is this growing gratitude for who he is and what he brings through in so many ways. If you haven't already, go visit and be blessed by the extensions of such a Divine Heart:

Blessed are we who get to witness that Greatness that forms itself all around us.

Tuesday, December 4


What's that thing you most want in the world?
What's that thing that's just "too good to be true"?
What's that thing that's everything you dream of with everything you have?
What's that thing that writes itself into every thought you have?

Life gifts you moments and a lifetime that's greater than you can imagine, that contains not only all of the elements that you dream of in the depths of your heart, but so much more too.

When you love yourself enough to look at those things and know they're all for you, when you love yourself enough to look at the display and the offering and open yourself up to receive, when you love yourself enough to accept the love inside these things you dream of, you'll see clearly the deep regard with which life is constantly looking at you.

There is only total love and absolute adoration waiting to kiss your everything.

I dream for every heart to live this.

Saturday, December 1

A Very Loved Heart

A single moment in time can show up to reveal only to your eyes the meaning of how events will align to bring about that thing you've been waiting for. In my literature classes, foreshadowing was taught to only be a literary device employed by authors, writers, people who like to play with words.

I imagine, like everything else we bring into our expressions, such a concept was born from direct observation of how life itself hints at things to come through brilliantly poetic moments. Because it does. It's incredible just how every answer is already shown to us, given to us, we just might not be awake enough to understand it when it does.

Our destinies are so elegantly engraved in our own hearts and then displayed on the screen space and stage we call waking life. Every detail of the immense love that is ours to breathe and live is already all around us. Our make-belief life, the dreamy "is this really happening to me" life, only feels that way because we've yet to understand the depth of love that brought us into being to begin with. Is this for real? Yes, this is the realest thing you've ever let into your heart. This is the closest you've come to really seeing what it is that birthed you and what it is that unfolds you. This is the closest you've come to kissing God right on His cosmic mouth.

When it starts to feel like a fairytale, when it starts to feel like a blissful dream, when it starts to feel like our hearts are sparks that keep transforming themselves into fireworks, this is when we've truly opened ourselves to what we really are. We are made of bliss and ecstasy, a form of pure love that flows to create the most lighted scenes we could ever let ourselves walk into again and again to a never-ending end.

I didn't know it then, in the moment I'm recalling as my reference for this entry. It's one thing to have visions and invisible intuitive insights. It's a whole other thing when you walk into a scene whose sole purpose is to serve as a living hint, a living glimpse into the details of your hearts unfolding. It was one of those moments where everything around me was readjusting itself and reorganizing itself just so I can walk into this moment.

I saw that part of it then, in awe of the abundance of synchronicity, I just banked the whole sequence in my mind simply spellbound by the precise adjustments my universe had made to have me standing where I was standing. And now, things that didn't make sense then in that moment in space and time, from where I stand now on this wonderful first of December day, having grown myself, having let in more of my  Self, are seen as clear exact simplified displays of what was to come. They were simplified in that there wasn't elaborate stories attached to every movement like there are now. Now, this is happening because of that, and that is happening because of that, and so on - there's more detail to fill in the movements, but the movements are the same movements I was a part of then.

That our waking life is a brilliant story being told by a most magnificent deeply loving invisible story teller, is clearer to me today than ever before. This right here, where I'm standing and what's coming this way, this is my favourite part of my movie.

This is the dream life of a very loved heart. And as all hearts are loved in this way, I wish for nothing but the whole world to awaken into this ocean of endless blessings. Life adores us immensely and eternally. This is the simplest truth I Now whole-heartedly know.

Baby Smiles as Meditation

You know when you're having a frazzled day and something pops up in your face to get you to slow down, get back to earth, and just remem...