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Showing posts from March, 2012

Love Fills

There was a spike in the love meter in my life last week. Toward the end of my day, I felt my heart opening wide and ripples coursed through me like the waves of the sea. I felt like myself again. I had gone to see a massage therapist the week prior and knew on first entry that I had not been present to myself for quite some time. I had gotten lost in my own mental spinning, giving hallucinations primacy and letting my state of being in presence fall to the background. I always recognize this state. I'm unfocussed. I imagine if you were looking at me as a painting on a wall, I'd show up blurry and without clear lines in those moments. And there I was, as my session went on laughing and re-connecting to who I am in my center. She told me there was a lot of tension around my heart and all down my back. I knew this. It was the very reason I'd gone to see her. I felt the tension of where I was holding myself and had spun my own mind into knots everywhere. As I came undone o

Om-elettes and Latte

Sometimes I forget how solitary I create myself to be. I'm at home in the quietness in myself, withdrawn, collected, at rest. It's when I'm out with friends, reconnecting, laughing and sharing that I remember that giggly part of myself that loves to play tag with the stars and slow dance with the sun in the brightness of daylight. I love play. I love laughter, I love the sparkles that dance like fireworks in the eyes of those in communion with me. Omelettes from John's Place = GOOD Re-connecting with old friends = GOOD Sharing stories with my Matimba over tea = LOVELY Feeling my heart dance from the connections = PRICELESS Life is alive in me always ~

I See You

I forget just how much I see and take in about everything and everyone around me until someone reveals something they want me to know, and I've already known it for some time either because of a dream or an insight or this inner thought-less knowing that just bubbles up when I look at them. I don't see the usefulness of terms like clairvoyance and precognition anymore. Nor do I see the usefulness in believing that verbal disclosure is the way human beings get to know one another. From what I notice, we are constantly disclosing who we are through every thought that radiates outward, through every physical posture we hold, through every gaze we meet or avoid, through our every pore. We are an endless stream of bits and bites that is constantly communicating where we are, who we are, and where we are going. There are no hidden motives or movements in consciousness. Everything is out in the open. Life is total transparency. It is the illusion of fragmentation and divided-ne

Out in the Open

I kind of love the way it all makes sense when you just take a step back and look at everything one more time. Suddenly, it's like life has been whispering everything you needed to know to you since the very beginning. And yet, it's only when you're really ready to receive what you've been asking for, when you've released all of your resistance to it, that the whole picture becomes clear to you. go in your mind as the very pieces you've been blocking out so the picture remained incomplete suddenly reveal themselves. Words only reveal what's already been out in the open the whole entire time. Every answer is already in plain sight. Turns out, sometimes you don't even need to say what you think you need to say...because you've been saying it all since the very beginning. I love this life, and I love even more the way the loving is echoed back to me in a thousand and one different forms ~