Saturday, December 29

My Love for Books

I love that seeing this made someone think of me. 
It's true. 
Books to me are worlds, universes, gateways to other realms.


Thursday, December 27

The Love You Are Ready To Live

Be a servant to your heart’s inner truth, and your life in turn will bow to you as its Master.  - Richard Bartlett

Whatever comes into your life is about the love you are ready to live.
Whatever leaves your life is about the love you are ready to live.
What never comes into your life is about the love you are ready to live.

Everything every which way you turn is demonstrating to you the love you are ready to live. This is all it is ever about.

I find the greatest test to our vulnerability really is not in extending love, but in receiving it, in letting it in. Receiving love, letting it all flow in to the center of your being, requires that your walls are down - it requires that you put down all the reasons, justifications, excuses for why you don't deserve, aren't enough, or not ready to be in the space of love.

Can you imagine what it would be like to be in the constant awareness of how loved you are in the world, in the Universe, in your life?

That's not an awareness many of us are in active or constant perception of.

I remember once I was in a mess of a something with a guy. And there was a moment we were talking standing close to each other and he was about to tell me what he felt. I felt the energy turn, I felt the extension, and re-actively took a step back. Like, whoa there horsie. I don't want to receive this amount of love. I watched myself do it. It was a moment of awakening for me.

I know we have a culture that says change or things unfolding differently than your conscious mind expected are unlovely moments, moments to hang your head, slump your shoulders down and question the blessing that's in the guise of change.

What I have come to know is this:

Everything working out is about the love you are ready to live.
Everything not working out is about the love you are ready to live.

I've been paying attention to this so that the next love interest, mate, significant so and so, that shows up is not blocked by any kind of shield I put in front of me. I've been destroying my shields and my shells for almost two years of being unattached now. And I feel the difference within me. It's like spring cleaning happened inside my heart and I feel the lightness of the effort.

And I know, this too is about the love I am ready to live.

What I also noticed is how much started flowing in once I started doing my clean up. When you open yourself up to not only loving fully but being loved fully, it's like you become this natural magnet, spinning votex, that has no cap on the amount of love that can flow in.

What if you were willing to receive Infinite Love, unending Love, limitless Love into your Heart right now?

Live inside of this question. Sit yourself right inside of this question and watch as it flushes out all the walls you've put up to receiving love.

You are loved, much more and much deeply than your conscious expectations can hold. Let all of your expectations go into your willingness to be loved and let that willingness construct your world.

Are you willing to be loved fully right now?
And now?
And now?


Monday, December 24

Marriage of the Dragon

With the Pheonix


Together, the dragon and phoenix symbolize Yin and Yang together: perfect balance. Standing alone, each symbol is hugely powerful. Together they represent a power- packed union of success, prosperity, friendship, love, and enlightenment. The union of these two highly symbolic creatures at wedding festivities suggests a match that is blessed with money and incredible luck. Furthermore, it denotes the beginning of a dynastic family with the dragon symbolizing the patriarch and the phoenix signifying the matriarch.

Let the fire burn? 

:)

Friday, December 21

Living the Dream in 2013

I repeatedly kept hearing and reading about the usefulness of creating a theme for your year ahead, your life in 2013. Every story book has a theme, every song, every movie - there's always a theme, an overall tone and message. So this is one of those other things that makes sense to do for your own life story - to choose a theme that holds all that will unfold as your life together in 2013.

At the same time I was seeing these blogposts and articles on the topic, I saw a brief interview on youtube about what one of my favorite hearts on the planet was casting ahead as his 2013. From the same mouth that gave me "2008 will be great" I heard "living the dream in 2013" - and there it was all wrapped up and delivered. I like it, I thought. I'll take it. I'm in!

And then I got to work - mainly just by doodling this theme-mantra on pages and creating a print out that I colored to post on one of the most frequented spots in my home - the refrigerator. Now it's there, and reminds me at ever trip for food, or snacks, or drinks, or cooking, or doing the dishes that this is what I've cast ahead and this is the space I'm working and living in now - the space of living the dream, living those silent wishes, out in 2013.

It's when you've chosen a destination that you can gather all of yourself, your attention, your focus, and cast it altogether in that direction. When you've decided on where you're going, getting there is that much easier.

Monday, December 17

Dragon Totem

Being born on a Saturday lands me this incredible zodiac sign (Burmese) and totem.


Zodiac animal sign: Dragon
Day of Week Born: Saturday
Ruling Planet: Saturn
Ruling Direction: Southwest
Personality/Attributes of the Dragon: You are philosophical and understanding. People are naturally attracted to you because you have an easy confidence about you and you have a great sense of humor. You prefer to work alone because you believe you are the master of your own destiny and do not like depending on others to get the job done.



What I love most, is how whatever field of focus I dwell on brings with it gifts that re-affirm and support my intentions. 

DRAGON

Protection
Elemental Magic
Powers of Change and Transformation


Dragon represents the supernatural,
infinity itself and the spiritual powers of change and transformation.
It is a fierce protector and adds extra power to any magic you may perform.

Fire Dragon
Transmutation, Mastery, Energy
This powerful totem brings vitality, enthusiasm and courage.
He will help you overcome obstacles
and give you qualities of leadership and mastery.
He can fuel your inner fires.
He can be a powerful protector.

Air Dragon
Inspiration, Insight, Vitality
This totem must be treated with great respect.
Great flashes of illumination in intellect and psyche
are possible with this totem.
The air dragon brings insight and clarity to all problems.
Trust your inner voice.

Earth Dragon
Power, Potential, Riches
This totem shows us our potential, our riches: what we are capable of.
With his help, we can discover the beauty and power that lies in all of us.
He lives deep within the Earth and can help you ground scattered energies.
When you call him, think of a slow moving, heavy Dragon pulling himself toward you.
Feel his weight around you.  He will nurture you as Mother Earth does.

Water Dragon
Passion, Depth, Connection
A water dragon totem brings memories and wishes,
perhaps long hidden, to the surface.
By facing painful past experiences,
we can achieve a sense of peace and balance in our lives.
This totem gives us the courage and compassion
in this challenge.



Sunday, December 16

Ode to the Illumined Moon

"It's been so long since I've had an actual partner that I don't even know what I would do with that kind of support. Someone to actually talk to, reflect and collaborate with? The idea of even touching on a regular basis sounds a bit like heaven to me, much less kissing and actually making love. And not the kind of Heaven I need someone else to lead me to or show me, but the one I have found deep in my own heart, reflected exponentially when love looks me in the eyes. The hand on my heart that wants to go deeper and deeper still. The hand on my body that sees who I am and is in awe of both of us, that calls up magic we are not even aware of yet, that brings in something I don't even know yet that I need, that receives all that I have to offer, which is more than I can even calculate. 
I've polished every hall in this temple, every sacred relic while you've been away. The Wholy Grail lies within. The god is in the goddess. The sacred heart is aflame as it approaches the holy of holies. Let's light this whirled on fire. She wants to glow for all to see."
~ Illumina (http://minabastphotography.com/http://www.illuminabast.com/)

Saturday, December 15

A Request


Olive Trees
Yes Please




The Golden Balance


For at the gates of the Mighty, She hath taken a seat,
and at the entrance thereof chanteth Her song:

"In the beginning, before the Lord made the Earth
When He furnished the Heavens, I was with Him;
and when He set apart His throne on the winds
When He set to the sea its bound,
and the waters passed not the word of His mouth
I was harmonizing with Him. I was the one in whom
He delighted, and I was daily gladdened by His
presence on all occasions." 
- Septuagint



Awakening into Wholeness is the destiny of every heart.

It starts with a spark at the center of your chest and we are ignited into a heart remembrance of sorts. I remember the start back in the fall of 2005, though I know there's no real start to all this, that's how it all appears. The feeling comes on strong, like things have just been snapped in place by a cosmic chemist, the lights all turned on by some celestial electrician, and all the reactions already under-way and all the bonds in your being completely rearranged. Your eyes grow wider and you feel a lot more even if it's just for the blink of an eye. You have no idea what you're in for then, but you know it's something. And the next morning you wake up feeling incredibly sad for coming back down into your forgetting. You don't know why, you don't know what you remembered, what it was that brought you into a height you'd never dreamed of, but you've felt it and it's left its imprint on you. You're completely changed. You've woken up a part of yourself that was asleep to the miracle of the wholeness within you.

As the scenes unfold you discover this magickal alchemy that's at work every step of the way. You are hand in hand with wizards  and alchemists who teach you the ways of the invisible world, the ways of transformation, the ways of turning all the compressed energy inside of you into the transparent spectrum of higher worlds. You are taught the ways of not only giving but receiving a deeper love, a boundless love that fills all the spaces of creation. You are invited to open your eyes to your whole self, to no longer see and know yourself as half of anything, as just a man or as just a woman, but as a being that contains both. No man or woman is ever on the outside of your being. This is the unification of your own heart, the awakening to a truth that has always been.

And as you learn to look with open eyes, you'll try to keep to the moment while your mind keeps running away to the home your heart has already awakened to. You look at the fragments trying to make it make sense while your heart reels in the feeling of all that is revealed.

Conditioning teaches us one thing. Awakening shows us another. Getting to experience the total reality of your whole self is a waking realization like no other.

I don't just remember you. I'm fully awake to you. I'm fully awake in you. Just as you are in me. Just as you are awake to me. My eyes have readjusted and my mind has grown to hold the full sight of this truth this Heart has always known. I in you, you in me, we have always been whole.  

This is what you say to the part of your being you had been asleep to.

The secret to receiving all of this, the secret to knowing your whole balanced self, is always going to be about your willingness to be loved. Are you willing to be loved by the Allness of your Real Self? Are you willing to feel and receive the depth of your whole self? Are you willing to awaken to what you've always contained inside of you?

I recently participated in a visioning journey with my Heart Storming sisters, and for my part of the visionary quest, I beheld two golden rings that were not two, nor were they one. They were neither two nor one, they acted like two but they merged fluidly, like a magicians rings coming together and dangling off each other and then angling to reveal apparent separateness. It was beautiful to watch them dance in this way.

The journey, whatever it turns out to be and how ever long it takes to come into visibility through you, it will always be worth it because in the end how you unfold and what unfolds in you, how you awaken and what awakens in you, is the greatest of everything you could ever come to know.

We are each created in the heart of a very Great Love.

Wednesday, December 12

A Very Playful 12-12-12

Someone mentioned to me that today begins the 9 day count down to 12-21-12 which in the world of spirituality and consciousness awakening (and cosmology, astronomy etc.) is a significant date. Let's not even mention the numerology at play here.

Numbers to me are significant. Everything is energy after all,  and all of it precise and freakishly exact.

Now the suggestion was to treat today as the door before the bridge into the once-in-every 26,000 years planetary alignment right along the plane of the entire galaxy. That's a pretty exact and gigantic alignment happening across a vast amount of space. And with planetary alignment always comes some movement of energy. Everything is everything affecting everything so setting your tone, your own unique contribution into the mix here to me makes sense.

So I woke up, after waking up in the middle of the night and falling asleep, and just wondered what the perfect tone would be for me. What did I want to  emit into this doorway? What sound did I want to sound and what beam did I want to send out from within me?

I pondered it and moved through my moments feeling the space of this intent to just extend something that was perfect for what I'm stepping into and onto. What came through and formed around me was a day of play and a day of love. I spent the whole day at work laughing, putting up Christmas decorations, getting my hours extended, and then coming home to skype with my brother and his lovely wife together for the first time. It was a day of such satisfaction that my heart is still thumping from all of it.

So that's the bridge that's forming here. One of play and one of love. A playful love. A laugh-filled dance. A giggle-invoking sparkly shiny bridge into....mmhmmm...into that!

This is good!

Sunday, December 9

Carving Out 2013

When I feel into the year ahead, all I feel is an abundance of LOVE flowing through me and to me from every direction.

Oh what a feeling!

2012 was really a year of stepping into my own and a year of many firsts:

~ the first time I ever drove a pallet jack (or even learned what it was), 
~ the first time I worked with plants and felt the power of the energy they hold day after day (holy heavenly bliss of serenity just remembering myself standing in the garden center, alone, with plants, butterflies and the occasional bird)
~ the first time I didn't travel anywhere all year
~ the first time I merchandised and put an abundance of products on display on shelves, 
~ the first time I ever saw what a warehouse full of stock looks like (holy consumerism madness) 
~ the first time I ever broke down crying at work (ever), 
~ the first time I worked in property management, 
~ the first time I ever worked for a computer software company, 
~ the first time I was floored by a gift from a job (Dear iPad, I love you a lot),
~ the first time I ever actually wanted to own a kitten
~ the first time I actually accepted what was really being extended to me (oh so many scenes of unconditional love to reflect on for a lifetime)
~ the first time I really woke up to the feeling of my wholeness (you can't separate what has always been One)

The end of 2012, basically from September onward has been exceptionally heart widening. For the first time in my life, I truly feel as though I'm being snugly held in the arms of a Universal parent. And I know that we all are. I know for a fact that God most definitely loves me beyond any and all understanding.

I am given life, I am given love, I am given light, I am given creativity, I am given God. 

I've always recognized the blessings that flow into my life and the Grace that's in all things, but I had never before this point really felt the hand that's behind them like this, the immense love that's so present in every direction and so being extended to me endlessly in the most beautiful offerings I could have ever dreamed of. My heart has been stretching to receive for days on end and there is just no end to the flow, no end to the widening of my being. Gratitude doesn't even begin to cover or touch how I feel in this reception.

I feel like the whole entire space and the whole entire ether of this world, of this Universe, is embracing me and holding me up into an ocean of pure love and pure support and pure acceptance all manifesting in ways that is uniquely streaming and being streamed just for me. This has been the ongoing feeling for several months now, and with it came a deeper understanding of my own wholeness. When I look at my wholeness now, it's not at all something I ever conceived I would see. When I look in the mirror, I no longer see just me, or at least the me I thought I was. Now I'm Me, Us, We - words can't break it down the way I see it, feel it, and live it now. I didn't know that this was what I had to know. I am no longer looking at myself partially, and I didn't even know that I was until the end of this year.

So when I look ahead, all I can see is a deepening and extending of this into every avenue of my life, every channel of my world and being.

♥ 2013 is the year of True Love and True Loving for me.
♥ The year that my own heart feels the unmistakable hand of love directly day in and day out.
♥ The year that I exclaim, God/Love/Life/the Universe is Good over and over again.
♥ 2013 is the year of demonstrating this Love and expressing it in every way.
♥ 2013 is the year of more Ocean and more sand.
♥ Even some palm trees on the land.
♥ It is the year of more peace and more space.
♥ It is the year I really fall in love with everything I have always been.
♥ 2013 is the year I share more, extend more, touch more, feel more.
♥ It is the year I reveal more.
♥ It is the year I see more and live more.
♥ It is a year of more yoga and really being in this body of mine.
♥ 2013 will have more firsts.
♥ And more plants, definitely more plants.
♥ There will be walking bare feet in the grass and grilling veggies under a clear blue sky.
♥ I see swimming in the mix, and I don't mind it.
♥ There will be a lot of gazing into eyes that shine.
♥ And a lot of communing with like hearts and like minds.
♥ Community is you, me, and everyone under the sun.
♥ More skype sessions and clients, more writing and recording, more doodling and more of even more inspiring.

And of course there will be even more than this right here.
Moments and scenes I see and feel that I'll never put to words on this screen.
Maybe in pictures though, we'll see.
Because some of those moments are really just for me.



I don't know what all the content of it looks like, or what every detail of it will be like, and I don't really need to know.

Because I feel these feelings and they are amazing.

And this is how you carve out the whole thing.
You start with the feeling and let that build your every scene.
Set it into motion with the snippets of your vision.
And then let it grow itself into a moment, a day, a month, a full year.
Light it with your love and vision, then set it free into full expression.
Feel it. Feel it. Feel it.

You are loved.
Dream.
Feel.
Believe.

Happy 2013

Saturday, December 8

Let's Sail Into The Mystic



We were born before the wind
Also younger than the sun
Ere the bonnie boat was won as we sailed into the mystic
Hark, now hear the sailors cry
Smell the sea and feel the sky
Let your soul and spirit fly into the mystic

And when that fog horn blows I will be coming home
And when that fog horn blows I want to hear it
I don't have to fear it
I want to rock your gypsy soul
Just like way back in the days of old
Then magnificently we will float into the mystic
And when that fog horn blows you know I will be coming home
And when thst fog horn whistle blows I got to hear it
I don't have to fear it
I want to rock your gypsy soul
Just like way back in the days of old
And together we will float into the mystic

- Van Morrison 

Promise Yourself


Wednesday, December 5

Gifted

The company I work for part time just gifted every employee with an iPad. I went into work on Monday only to spend my morning squealing with delight over the gift. The next morning I thanked the owner of the company and just loved how he took gracious joy in our joy.

I love working for a company that extends itself in that way - I was already sold on the place over the free weekly lunches offered for employees and the unlimited tea, hot chocolate, and lattes dispenser. It has been such a great month being in an environment like it - and in the time I've been there, there have been two fundraisers for local charities and before I got there the company had donated $20,000 to build schools in Kenya and Haiti. I wish for nothing but unlimited growth for a space that gives back like that, both internally within the organization and externally to the local and global community!

Now follow that up with what I picked up from the post office today, and call this entire week a marvellous Gift From God.


I'm a huge supporter of Jon Marro. I loved his creativity even before we sat down to do the radio shows that we did together. And what's come after that is this growing gratitude for who he is and what he brings through in so many ways. If you haven't already, go visit and be blessed by the extensions of such a Divine Heart: http://shop.jonmarro.com

Blessed are we who get to witness that Greatness that forms itself all around us.

Tuesday, December 4

Yours

What's that thing you most want in the world?
What's that thing that's just "too good to be true"?
What's that thing that's everything you dream of with everything you have?
What's that thing that writes itself into every thought you have?

Life gifts you moments and a lifetime that's greater than you can imagine, that contains not only all of the elements that you dream of in the depths of your heart, but so much more too.

When you love yourself enough to look at those things and know they're all for you, when you love yourself enough to look at the display and the offering and open yourself up to receive, when you love yourself enough to accept the love inside these things you dream of, you'll see clearly the deep regard with which life is constantly looking at you.

There is only total love and absolute adoration waiting to kiss your everything.

I dream for every heart to live this.

Saturday, December 1

A Very Loved Heart

A single moment in time can show up to reveal only to your eyes the meaning of how events will align to bring about that thing you've been waiting for. In my literature classes, foreshadowing was taught to only be a literary device employed by authors, writers, people who like to play with words.

I imagine, like everything else we bring into our expressions, such a concept was born from direct observation of how life itself hints at things to come through brilliantly poetic moments. Because it does. It's incredible just how every answer is already shown to us, given to us, we just might not be awake enough to understand it when it does.

Our destinies are so elegantly engraved in our own hearts and then displayed on the screen space and stage we call waking life. Every detail of the immense love that is ours to breathe and live is already all around us. Our make-belief life, the dreamy "is this really happening to me" life, only feels that way because we've yet to understand the depth of love that brought us into being to begin with. Is this for real? Yes, this is the realest thing you've ever let into your heart. This is the closest you've come to really seeing what it is that birthed you and what it is that unfolds you. This is the closest you've come to kissing God right on His cosmic mouth.

When it starts to feel like a fairytale, when it starts to feel like a blissful dream, when it starts to feel like our hearts are sparks that keep transforming themselves into fireworks, this is when we've truly opened ourselves to what we really are. We are made of bliss and ecstasy, a form of pure love that flows to create the most lighted scenes we could ever let ourselves walk into again and again to a never-ending end.

I didn't know it then, in the moment I'm recalling as my reference for this entry. It's one thing to have visions and invisible intuitive insights. It's a whole other thing when you walk into a scene whose sole purpose is to serve as a living hint, a living glimpse into the details of your hearts unfolding. It was one of those moments where everything around me was readjusting itself and reorganizing itself just so I can walk into this moment.

I saw that part of it then, in awe of the abundance of synchronicity, I just banked the whole sequence in my mind simply spellbound by the precise adjustments my universe had made to have me standing where I was standing. And now, things that didn't make sense then in that moment in space and time, from where I stand now on this wonderful first of December day, having grown myself, having let in more of my  Self, are seen as clear exact simplified displays of what was to come. They were simplified in that there wasn't elaborate stories attached to every movement like there are now. Now, this is happening because of that, and that is happening because of that, and so on - there's more detail to fill in the movements, but the movements are the same movements I was a part of then.

That our waking life is a brilliant story being told by a most magnificent deeply loving invisible story teller, is clearer to me today than ever before. This right here, where I'm standing and what's coming this way, this is my favourite part of my movie.

This is the dream life of a very loved heart. And as all hearts are loved in this way, I wish for nothing but the whole world to awaken into this ocean of endless blessings. Life adores us immensely and eternally. This is the simplest truth I Now whole-heartedly know.

Friday, November 30

I live on an Island

Fact: I often forget that I live on an island.

It's when someone asks me if I have any travel plans that I remember this fact. I haven't had any big travel adventures since I've been here. Vancouver Island is its own world. I have the ocean. I have ancient forests.  And living in Victoria, I have the city life. It has everything I like and love in coastal living, the serene quietness I so often crave and the bustle of a small city that I enjoy, so I haven't felt the need to venture off very far. Seattle is the farthest I've gone in the past few years and that was just by ferry/bus. I've yet to step into Victoria International Airport but living on an island, there's usually an extra few hours added to your travel plans.

I also have my dog and at the thought of leaving her with anyone I seem to create a good deal of anxiety in myself. It'd be a good idea to get a handle on that since my passport is renewed now and the Universe is showing me suitcases left right and centre.

And I still get the questions from friends and family I haven't seen in almost three years. Are you coming home to visit any time soon? Are you going anywhere? Do you have travel plans this year?

I'm really content with where my feet have landed right now that I've yet to go very far. I'm here. Grounded. Happy. And good. If anything, my answers now often are: well, you can totally come out here and visit me!

That's not to say I'm not up for the adventure of travel and new scenes, the opportunity to fill my senses with new smells and sounds, it's more that I'm not chasing adventure like I used to. Adventure is all around me in so many small and unbelievably magnificent ways. It's just a delicious life all around that leaves me feeling so effortlessly connected to everything, to everywhere, and to everyone.

Tuesday, November 27

You Brighten Me

I'm blogging like everyday. Someone seems to be demanding that I do so through the ethers and I gratefully oblige half giggling and half cross-eyed and a little be-wilder-ed at the way this magick lays itself all out. After the love flows out and the words are laid, I sit and I stare and I tell myself this is going to have to be my last entry for the week. This is just much to much running to my computer to dump out the words that start to swirl when the feeling comes like a flood through my heart. I can't lie and say I don't enjoy every moment of it.

And then the next day rolls around and the words are back with another stream, another story, another bubbling up of goodness that just has to flow out onto the screen. And it has to be a blog my heart insists 'cause the pages upon pages I send to recycling just won't do for the type of recording this energy demands. And so I blog.

What do you know in your heart for sure?

That feeling right there, that's where all the magick begins.

I feel like I'm walking around in a love-trance induced by what I now know is God's commitment to having me swoon all over Him. Dear God, you win. You know exactly what you're doing. You are the Casanova of creation. Check mate. And home run. And you take home the gold. Good job.

I don't know what else to say. Except that I know this intoxication is just the entry gate into this new universe.
The truth is, indeed, that love is the threshold of another universe. Beyond the vibrations with which we are familiar, the rainbow-like range of its colours is still in full growth. But, for all the fascination that the lower shades have for us, it is only towards the "ultra" that the creation of light advances. It is in these invisible and, we might almost say, immaterial zones that we can look for true initiation into unity. The depths we attribute to matter are no more than the reflection of the peaks of spirit. - Teilhard de Chardin
My how we've brightened up through these pages.

I am Initiated.

Monday, November 26

My Love for Balloon Heads

As much as I love the telepathic rendez vous this stage affords us and enjoy just how wild it all really is, I'm equally fond of hugs, mouths, hands, skype, love mail, email, texts, instagram love fests and all the ways of communing this physical world has to offer.

My conscious mind gets suspended in moments when those glimmers of unity come through from direction-less spaces. I love the feeling of that broader seeing. I can almost see the conscious part of me, or the left brain in me, float about like a wide eyed tranced-out balloon head. To my left brain the formed world (and so it thinks the "real" world) consists of things it can see with the solid instruments of the body. So when that expanded seeing becomes your perception, it almost wipes out all of the boundaries of your conscious mind, boundaries that usually define the realm of realness you often inhabit.

Perception is so malleable. The moment you expand out of the bubble of physicality you just see so much more. And this seeing is an incredible seeing. It sees whole events, it can take them all in, and present them to your senses which if are relaxed enough can see that whole picture, before that whole picture is completed by the sequence of events that are meant to make it.

Where the conscious mind comes in to make the experience digestible in an incredible way is in the physical details. No matter how well you've perceived the big picture, there's no accounting for the beauty of living it bit by bit, bite by bite, word by word, touch by touch.

I am totally fond of the whole spectrum of experience this whole dream life thing offers me. Every level of it is delicious beyond explainable degree.

Naturally Beautiful

I'm in love with these series of photos: Colors of Harar Ethiopia girl at henna. Harar. Ethiopia

Sunday, November 25

Here You Come, I Hear You Come

I was noticing today how a lot of my "change my world completely" shifts happen around this time of year.

It was November 25 when I left Toronto after dropping out of a Masters program (and ran away to southern California for two weeks).
It was September 30 when I packed things up in Ottawa and moved to the west coast.
It was December when I moved into my own apartment for the first time.

There is something about this season that gets me to complete some stage and move into a new one. And I think it's useful to notice what the cycles of your own being are.

I was awakened early this morning by a warmth that came over me. It felt like another shift. It was like climbing into a warm bath but from the inside of my being and it left me feeling slightly different but in a good way. And if what I've been noticing of late is any indication, I am grateful for this warmth and all that it is carrying into my world.

This life is the flow of such beautiful dreams.


Friday, November 23

The Rise

this is a true beginning
of a world never before seen
so let your breath go
and let it in
feel the rise
deep in your being
I am rising
deep in your being

you've knocked on the door
and have seen it closed
you've looked for windows
and lived through the echoes
now you've come again
and everything is left open
for you to move on in
for you to rise within

let your breath go
let your arms fall
let yourself rise, like never before
this is the part
you keep yourself standing tall
this is the part, you take it all

this is where we start
a thousand miles
but never apart
a million pictures
of all one heart
this is how we start




Into All Your Senses

Was it always meant to be this easy and satisfying? Let me rephrase that. It was always meant to be this easy and satisfying. I've stepped into a completely new world. Though my world looks exactly like it did, the feel of it, the energy of it and who I am in it is dramatically different. I'm here now. Smack dab in the middle of (I love saying that) the heart of my paradise.

I took the last of the curtains down yesterday, the one's I'd been using to keep hidden from sight. What else was I going to do on my days off from work but trample through the boundaries I had declared were true.

I don't even know how I came to that point of noticing it, the last of the veil I'd used to remain out of sight while I did all my work of returning to this seat of Grace. This is what I've always wanted and this is how I would have always wanted it to be - to walk in through this world fully awake to what and who I am in every facet. There is no space left now in which I don't recognize the power of That which looks through my eyes. Everything is as this seeing decides.

If we pay enough attention, all of our tricks undo themselves out of our being. I sat with this last of the last steps into my heaven. I sat and felt into it as I lovingly watched it show itself, offer itself, and lovingly dissolve itself. Thank you, I said. Thank you for keeping my seat warm.

I do all my work while sitting now, with eyes closed and with only feeling as my guide and my bridge.I recognize how most of the time, we're not even aware of how we're keeping ourselves out of the very spaces we dream of living in. But it's only us doing it all, never some other force keeping us where we don't want to be kept.

I needed to see it like this. I needed to witness it like this. I needed to take it all in just like this. Before I could with any confidence say what I was born to say. My purpose and my paradise can only know and recognize me in this way, as I was meant to be from before the beginning.

This gift is the greatest gift of all.

Thursday, November 22

Steady. Stable. Strong.

I don't think I ever understood what growth was until I started digging on my self.

So much of the world shows us that growth is the nature of everything. Everything around us grows. It expands. It becomes more intricate, more detailed, more everything. It becomes so fantastic in its variety and unity. And our own beings grow. They grow through stages awkwardly and beautifully, every part of us morphing and remolding itself into form - and all of this I've always been able to see. I never understood it though - I saw it, I accepted it, but I never really understood it. Not until I went within.

The view from the inside of what growth is, is so arresting and so mesmerizing. Watching myself move through fuzzy, wobbly, and unclear states, watching myself go from being unfocused, unsure, uncertain, to this level of clarity and stability...witnessing that involved process of my own self come into focus, I have come to have a tremendous appreciation for all facets of growth.

What must be happening to all the particles that make me up to organize and reorganize themselves in this way, through this change? What must the consciousness of a tree go through as it keeps reaching upward into space?  What's bubbling up behind the curtains of every city and town we walk into for it to be as alive and as developed as it is? These inner workings have my attention now because my own inner workings have revealed to me so much. We are so entranced by the visible that we often play ignorant to the invisible movements that bring all things into view. I can't live on the surface any more. Not when there is so much beauty deep inside all of the processes that make us who we are and that make our world all that it appears to be.

I am so awake to the steadiness, the stability, and the strength of looking at the world from the back-stages of creation. What. A. View.

Thank you Life!

Monday, November 19

How You've Suited Me Well

I sit in a dimly lit room looking for the words that will tell you everything. I want to tell you everything. I want to tell you all that I’ve uncovered in these dream pages we call our life. I want to tell you the treasures and delights of this stage we've been trampling on for days on end. And our feet have still yet to tire. I have danced with you through lifetimes before this. I will have loved you into worlds after this. 

And my words they trip and fumble as they make their way out, willing only to let themselves fall ungracefully at your feet. 

I want to lay myself at your feet. 

I'm grateful for how far we've come. I'm grateful for how deep we've journeyed. I'm grateful for all that's fallen away as we fell and rose in the furnace of this divine loving. It didn't burn. It only made us yearn for more. Burning in Love is our only way now. 

I thought I had to wait to tell you, I couldn't wait to tell you, until I realized it was you telling me all of this through my own fingertips. 

So this is where we are now. You as me, me as you, us as either and neither. Everything makes sense now. Everything is us now. Everywhere and no where we turn only to meet each other. There's no telling what love intends to do through us. But look what it's done to us. It's melded and fused every joint and every opening until all we know and all we could know is one thing. That we are love. That we are one. That we are born again and again into each other and formed from each other. 

I went looking for you having forgotten I was already expressing you. And in that moment I realized you've been expressing me all along too. 

And this all suits me just fine. 

Yours,
Mrs. October 05

Sunday, November 18

I Am Inside Out

I question my self constantly. I'm a little neurotic about the whole thing. My motivations, my angle of view, my position in the vastness of this ocean of consciousness - I question all of it with immense pleasure. Mostly out of the observation that a big part of the world still lives from the outside in. Meaning, the apparent outside of circumstance and condition is made to be the decider of our moods, our place, our fates. Really? Is that so? For much too many folks, it is.

It's weird to watch around you when you've so committed yourself to the inner asylum of self awareness. The fact that I can change and modify my location inside myself, and intuit things, feel the hidden waves and undercurrents of what's happening in the inter-web of all life, by simply having this internalized location tells me pretty matter-of-factly just how much of an intimate presence we each are to the field of all things living. And that alone to me has become the essence of freedom. There's this unconditional setting free of my being in the recognition that the relativity of where I am and who I am in the grand life stage is guided by something completely internal. 

And it's this awareness, it is this relationship to my awareness that has so vividly revealed to me how life always moves from the inside out. It does, everything about me, everything about life is coming into view from a hidden world. You can be so tuned in to see and witness directly how the creative energy of the universe moves through you and out into the world while appearing to be moving you inside of it. Everything about life moves from the hidden to the visible, from the unknown to the known, from the inside to the outside. And you can be awake enough to see this movement in action. Nothing is out of the blue. Nothing. I not only see this now, I feel it and watch myself in the movement of it, and rejoice in the living of it.

So I often come back to questioning everything to dig through an apparent manifestation and into the hidden current that's pushed itself out as that manifestation. Not just with my experiences but with the experiences of those around me, friends and clients alike. And since the cause is always an invisible one, I always find what I'm looking for, the creative string and invisible pathway of the movement. This is what gives you leverage over the known world, that you have access to the unknown hidden creative sectors of creation.

You can plop yourself down on any point of the manifestation string. If you're on the outer end, you'll think manifestations matter, that appearances have meaning, and you let yourself get pushed around by the temporary shadows of hidden currents. To you located at that point, the world is where the power is, and you are at the mercy of the props on the cosmic stage. If you're on the inner end, you'll know that it's you that matters. It's you that carries the meaning, that is the meaning. And you know that it's how you organize yourself in these inner hidden spheres of life that ultimately sets into motion the pictures that display themselves on the spatial screen of your waking world. To you located at this point, the world is your reflection and nothing more. In one form you are outside in, in the other, you are inside out.

It's such an extraordinary design this whole field of awareness thing.

Saturday, November 17

Laugh. Giggle. Wow.

OH MY GOODNESS GRACIOUS

I squeaked, clapped, and squealed today when I noticed what universe I had stepped into as of late...or rather realized what universe I had always been in. The recognition was so vividly awesome that it filled me with spontaneous fits of giggles and cackles throughout the day. Even the people I met with today were filled with giggles after only moments of conversation allowing me to conclude that even my contained inner giggling was contagious. Bonus!

I love this. I really really really love this.

I often see things before they happen. I've probably written about this before. Somewhere along the way, must be between taking up meditation and diving deeper into the rabbit hole of our holographic world-scapading (*non-word* alert), my third eye opened wide, and I started experiencing vivid scenes of things not yet seen. After the first few instances, I started recognizing the prophetic montages that would download into my seeing as I emerge from sleep. It was always on the verge of waking up that they'd preoccupy my inner lens and parade through my awareness, showcasing some event or sequence of events that would later make itself known in my three-dimensional experience. Knowing things before they happen is normal now.

I don't always know the details of what it is I'm looking at though, and I don't know the how or when, just the theme of this what. But I know the feel and I know the general theme. And days would roll on, or months, or in some cases years. And then the montage I had witnessed in my heart-mind's eye would begin to display itself before my waking eyes. And I'd know it. I'd look at it going...hey I know you, I've met you, I've seen you, I've lived you in another dimension.

And it's spectacular when it happens. Every time something I'd seen in a vision materializes itself into form, I'm floored. How I see it in that other dimension is different, the energy and the shapes are there, but it's like looking at mists rather than the hard solid stuff of waking experiences  And then when I live it in waking experience, the solidity of it, the hardness of it, the color of it, it always astounds me.

The only conclusion experiences like these bring you to is this: you've been here all along, it's all been here all along.

Thursday, November 15

Sleeping with Curiosity

Climbing into bed with curiosity still turned on has some really interesting effects.

My dreams have been ultra vivid lately so much so that remembering them causes some serious stirrings inside while walking with my groceries outside in the rain. It a-muses and interests every part of me. That we can feel so much of the Universe inside our own being, this is the incredible thing.

I have learnt that the secret to everything in this play is to make up my mind like I make up my bed everyday. A clean decisive arrangement of my mind and my world is woken up with laughter and amusement at 2 o'clock in the morning. What a ride.

So this was all I had to do? I think this to myself often now. This is it, just this simple flip of a switch inside my own head, this is it? Yep. This is all it will ever take to get you from where you are now to where you've wanted to be for minutes, hours, days, months, years...

What I've noticed is, the only obstacle there ever is, is you. Everything is a layer of smoke you're adding on to the scenes to keep yourself from being curiously whisked away into bliss by Life and the Love inside of it. Life's always in love with you, it never says 'no' to anything you're pulled toward because it's the one pulling you there. When you let go of the bars, when you let go of holding onto the world you're being moved out of, it's a smooth effortless carriage ride into where your heart has already decided to live - into where your heart was born to live.

You spend so many moments watching everything from the outside like a spectator, then from the side, then from the other side, considering every angle but the one inside. The heart knows. You put all sorts of reasons in front of what's had your attention for hours, months, years and convince yourself it's not about you, it's not for you, it has nothing to do with you. And the moment you make up your mind about all of it, the moment you wake your mind up out of it, the moment you see through your own deceptions, you're thrust into the centre of everything you'd been silently watching. Your own heart comes to face you in ways only God can orchestrate.

And you realize, this is it. This was all you ever had to do.

Make up your mind. Say YES fully and with unwavering commitment to whatever's inside your heart. Decisively. Unquestioningly. Then get out of the way and let God, the Universe, Love fill in the details.

This is all you ever have to do.

Monday, November 12

seriously.

If you're not going around using superhero catch phrases throughout your day, then I just don't know what you're doing with your life (yes inspector gadget counts)
seriously. get it together.

Sunday, November 11

Whispers in the Night Sky

I wondered what to call you in this letter, and the name Naveed presented itself, it means the bearer of good news and good wishes. How fitting since that's what you are.

I dreamt of whispers in the night that told stories of how I came to be. Fashioned out of heavenly things and lighted by the spark of celestial stars, I travelled from further than the highest of your dreams to get to you.

And while you're asleep I tell you this in a language only you will understand:
I'm not made for you. 
I'm made from you.

Saturday, November 10

How We're Blessed

I just have to look at my life to see clearly the amazing synchronisitic flow of events that continuously presents itself. All of our moments are made with love, literally put together by this hidden power that blesses us with itself.

Whatever step I take, I seem to always be met with this graceful orchestration of circumstance to carry me into whatever direction I've chosen to go, whatever experience I've chosen to have. I recognize it only when I take a step back though. I recognize it only when I pause, take a breath, and look with awakened eyes. Moments are moments, they are beads strung together around the neck of a creative beautiful wonder I will only call God.

When I decided to move out to the west coast over three years ago, it was a step in the dark. I knew I wanted to be near the water. I knew I wanted to break out of the complacent binds I had created for myself. I knew I wanted west. Pacific ocean. Milder weather. Different. I had no idea what it would entail or what would unfold. I had no plan or purpose outlined, no job lined up, nothing. Then it all happened. Someone I knew at a distance had a room to rent on the island. I got picked up by her in her daughters truck, we tossed all my things into the back, and I spent some amazing moments on a farm, with horses and lamas, chopping firewood and hanging out with bails of hay. My dog and I were in spacious heaven. It wasn't what I envisioned. And yet it was beyond my expectation in terms of the beauty and blessings it brought into my world. Experiences I would have never had were it not for that step came into my world, and I was changed. I ended up finding a job, where I met and made some good ties.

One of these ties would end up being my ride to work everyday for the next year. Saved me hundreds of dollars in transportation costs. Blessing. The other's would end up not only helping me move into my new apartment in the city and later down to where I am now, but would provide me with gifts only my heart can understand.

I've never had to strain or strive. I'm awake to how unnecessary the game of struggle is in the way our moments are capable of assembling themselves. Again though, I only realize this when I take a step back and watch the bridge of incidents that have moved me into my chosen destinations  Every step of the way, where ever I have gone, whatever direction I've taken, whatever environment I've stepped into, support, comfort, and love have always show up. It's a necessity to reflect on this, to reflect on this ever continuous thread of love that's present in my moments, in your moments.

Because it's then that I feel the constant hand of God the most. And it's then that I realize that no matter where my attention is cast now, no matter what my next step is, no matter what experiences I've chosen to invite into my world, that hand will meet and carry me into all of them. Because it always has. And I see it so clearly and repeatedly in all that I have lived to date.

This Love is all that moves us, meets us, and lives us. I know it's like this for all beings. I know this is how events unfold, that there is this hand of grace moving us all through our chosen paths and into the experiences that will fill us in ways we never expected or anticipated.

It's a blessings to wake yourself up to the recognition frequently.

Friday, November 9

This is what a leader looks like...

I'd like to think I've been blessed to have been amongst people who were amazing leaders in the various organizations and companies I've worked in. I've also had the opportunity to witness the opposite, the toxic dissonant type of leader that disperses and puts people into negative emotional rhythms, that literally brings the energy down.

The success of any endeavor  and the growth potential of any system,  is strongly influenced by the effect those in the position of leadership have on those being led.

To me, this is one of the best examples of leadership I've seen to date!


Sunday, November 4

Forward to what?

"Forward to what" is a really great question, one everyone has to ask. We each have to begin to contemplate the answer to that question. We can't put the vision of and for the future we're an intricate part of in the hands of one individual. That's careless. Do we elect leaders to be the solitary holders of the fate of our country, our world? That seems irresponsible. The part of every citizen of any country is constantly active whether we're aware of it or not. Our inaction and our action is contribution, but our action or inaction isn't just in voting. Must we vote? Absolutely. Is our jobs as citizens done once we've cast our vote, once we've ticked off a little box? Never. We have to engage every part of ourselves in the process of change. So Forward to what? We each have to answer that individually. What kind of state do you want to live in? What kind of country do you want to live in? What kind of world do you want to live in? What do you want to see around you? You have to ask yourself those questions and bring the answers to life in yourself. The changes we seek to see in the world come faster when we're all plugged into the process.

Saturday, November 3

All you have to do is feel, feel, feel

Do you remember when I told you to stop looking for tokens of love outside of yourself? You smiled knowing you were doing that exact thing as you searched my eyes for answers. You are your own answer, and when you know that, you'll find what you're looking for in my eyes. 

I wrap myself up in this indescribable feeling that comes from knowing every ending.

Every ending is love.
Every beginning is desire.
And every desire is for more love.

It's this infinite loop of love and loving that grows itself, that deepens itself, that folds into itself.

This is what we are.

All you have to do is feel it all...inside.


Wednesday, October 31

A life of perks

I'm pretty sure this is how life is supposed to unfold, with perks and benefits filling your every moment. Everywhere I look lately, I'm being handed comfort, if not luxury. Everything is aligning not just to support and provide nurture, but to shower me with it every step of the way.

It's like life is constantly saying, "relax, put your feet up, I got this. I got your back."

I smile and allow it more often now. I thank it and acknowledge it.

Comfort. Luxury. Ease. Flow. These are the innate perks of being.

Life naturally comes with full benefits if we open ourselves up to experiencing it in that way.


Tuesday, October 30

The Day Sky ~ Hafiz

 Let us be like 
 Two falling stars in the day sky. 

 Let no one know of our sublime beauty 
 As we hold hands with God 
 And burn 

 Into a sacred existence that defies 
- That surpasses 

 Every description of ecstasy 
 And love.

Sunday, October 28

best halloween costume idea

the easiest and best halloween costume idea i've come up with = treasure map.

just put an x anywhere on your body with lines leading to it. and you're good to go. :)


you can get as adventures with this as you like!

Saturday, October 27

We're Not Done Yet

The evolution of the human, as I see it, is really about transcending the bounds of identity, identification with the body, and expressing in the world as the creative consciousness of the universe. In this way, you are not ruled by the conditions and circumstances of your world, of your entry way into form. You are not confined by the boundaries of a seemingly separate single identity. Rather you rule your world from within, from the space of wholeness, from the ever expanded spaces of an all-inclusive consciousness that can only be reached inside the realms of awareness, of being aware. Mastering matter rather than apparently being confined by it. Having loosed the psychological attachment to form, you are free to direct the creative course of any lifetime, designing, molding, and unfolding new patterns of life through the technology of being human. You become the edge of the universe that's pushing itself further forward into new creativity. You become a doorway to a greater intelligence beyond what the confines of self-hood allow. You knowingly express the Allness of the Whole.

- Kidest AUM

Stop Talking

Too many mouths are preoccupied with the mind and not with the spaciousness of their own essence. Of all the things to let live on your tongue, you choose all the flavors that create havoc in your own being. Stop that.

You do much more through the world when you are that you that you are beyond the stories of your waking experience. Stripped, bare, and naked of all your personal narratives you are a focused force of nature. Truly. You are a vastness that can't be spoken of, a presence that can't be conveyed in words, you are an unfathomable power beyond the reach of symbols and sounds.

A mind congested with stories goes on and on about the things that were, the things that weren't, and the things that will never be. It's ceaseless in its travels, unrelenting in its constant motion as it carries on the mythology of a hallucination that is experiencing things other than itself.

To delude yourself that there is anything other than the majesty of your own being happening here is to miss out on the greatest feast of the cosmos.

Like cloaks, we wear our stories veiling the essence that brings it all to light. We are that essence, the light, the animator. Yet we forget ourselves through this subtle self-deception of "the things that have happened to me so far". Who's "me"? Look.

Stillness is the only point that will show you the true Reality upon which you cast fantastic shadows born of the outer fringes of your very self. You clap and you clamor,  you squeal and you spiral, riding the only roller coaster ride contained in your own mind.

You can't enjoy a good movie if you don't know that's what it is. You can't direct a great production if you forget to see the play for what it is. Stop losing yourself in the story so you can actually enjoy it, direct it, ingest it, and consume it for the sheer pleasure of IT ALL being your own creative foreplay with the vastness of your Self.

You are everything. And everything is playing the exact and precise part you have given to it.

Own it.
Love it.
Forget about it.

Be Here.
Now.

Tuesday, October 23

To take one whole heart home

“A thousand half-loves 
must be forsaken 
to take one whole heart home.” 
- Rumi

Sunday, October 21

Thoughts I have in the shower

Of course we all come from God. It's all that ever sources our every moment and our very existence. If you want to understand the mysteries of the universe, just go look in the mirror, into your own eyes. Suspend all concepts and definitions you hold and look at what it is that's doing the looking.
Question:  where did you come from?
Answer: God

The shower head = a mental microphone.



Saturday, October 20

Malleable Reality

"We have no right to assume that any physical laws exist, or if they have existed up to now, that they will continue to exist in a similar manner in the future."
- Max Planck

Thursday, October 18

Up

“Nature loves courage. You make the commitment and nature will respond to that commitment by removing impossible obstacles. Dream the impossible dream and the world will not grind you under, it will lift you up. This is the trick. This is what all these teachers and philosophers who really counted, who really touched the alchemical gold, this is what they understood. This is the shamanic dance in the waterfall. This is how magic is done. By hurling yourself into the abyss and discovering its a feather bed.”
-Terence McKenna

Monday, October 15


The Best Happens Every Moment!

This is what I'm awake to right now - every moment of being alive has within it so much JUICE that it no longer makes sense for me to believe that "the best is yet to come". What nonsense! The best is already here. The best is already a living reality right here and now.

It's in everything. It's remarkable and inescapable in its beauty, the dawning of an inner sun ten thousand times brighter than the one peaking through my windows right now. Apparent circumstances and conditions veil this, and we, entranced by temporary things forget. Remember. Forget.

The best, if you can let yourself feel it, is what's in you right now. It's in the energy that you are. It's in the consciousness that you are. It's in the living, breathing, creative force with a pulse that you are. THIS is the best. All of what follows as manifestation, all of what follows as condition and circumstance  is ONLY a reflection of THIS that you are. Wake yourself up to that. Stop waiting for some temporary appearance to tell you that "the best is happening" and move yourself into the realization, into the feeling, that THIS being you thing that the whole entire Universe is doing, IS the best thing to ever happen. Where ever you are, there the BEST is already happening.

We have so many time-based cliche's that skew the reality of full on immediate blissful fulfillment. We are Here right Now. There's no waiting. There's no prolonging. There is being awake, open, and being in feeling right now. And all of the aliveness of the Universe, all of the vibrancy of creation, all of the billions of years of evolution and expansion, all of the power of galaxies and stars, courses through us making us quite a magickal spectacle of light and wonder. What happens when you awaken yourself to that? You stop waiting for something to happen, you stop living in your time-based mind, and start living inside the best happening ever. You. In this immediate alive moment. You.

How do we ever succumb to beliefs that diminish the astonishing reality of being here right now? How do we push off this living realization in favor of hoping to feel this over fleeting future manifestations?

Let's stop that. Let's Be Here Now. Awake and alive to being this movement of life. Let's FORGET about temporary things. Let's let go of letting manifestations dictate our sense of fulfillment and declare: I Am fulfilled here and now, for I am here, existing, living, taking in the wonder of being what life is doing. I Am!


Sunday, October 14

"Have fun, my dear; my dear, have fun"

The sky
Is a suspended blue ocean. 
The stars are the fish 
That swim.
The planets are the white whales 
I sometimes hitch a ride on, 
And the sun and all light 
Have forever fused themselves 
Into my heart and upon
My skin. 
There is only one rule 
On this 
Wild Playground, 
For every sign 
Hafiz has ever seen 
Reads the same. 
 They all say, 
 "Have fun, my dear; my dear, have fun, 
 In the Beloved's Divine Game, 
 O, in the Beloved's 
Wonderful Game."

~ Hafiz


Saturday, October 13

In Her Eyes

Cosmic miracles...this is all I know to see ~

"don't allow the one's before
to make you lose sight
past is past
leave it all behind
you've just been given a chance
for tomorrow
you just saw an angel
fall from the skies
in her eyes you see the morning
and you know there's no ignoring
her now..."

Friday, October 12

You’ve Never Been here, You’ve Always Been Here

intentionally, I differentiate between...
here...
and Here.

here, is where you've never been. here is the ever new kaleidoscope of phenomena in which we find ourselves smack dab in the middle of. SPLAT. it's all around us. seemingly familiar, seemingly known. and yet it isn't either. this moment is unrepeatable. a changeling mingling dance of infinite possibilities collapsing in and out of view just for you. there are as many dimensions to it as you can allow yourself to awaken to. think in terms of infinity and you' haven't even begun to touch upon the possibilities for newness and unimaginable-ness that it carries within it. as many new ways of living it as you can and can't imagine, it holds it all alive before you. you've never been here before and you'll never be here again. its uniqueness blinks on and off and makes way for its own fast evolving vibrancy to come alive again. here, it is the dance of ever changing light.

and the other Here is where you always are. the best seat before the grand universal movie screen of waking life. no yesterday. no tomorrow. no today. the only Space is Here. the only Point is Now. it is the seat of Creation that gives you the most incredible view of how nothing has ever happened, and how it is all ever the constant fabrication of your own beautiful mind.

sameness is an illusion
continuity is an illusion
familiarity is woven by the stories in our own mind

we are forever dangling on the edge of the unknown, and it's when we're awake to that, that we allow ourselves to be creative doors, opening to let in the untouched magnificence of infinite depths and of infinite heights.

in light of that awareness we go, as guru buzz lightyear says, to infinity and beyond!

the end!

Baby Smiles as Meditation

You know when you're having a frazzled day and something pops up in your face to get you to slow down, get back to earth, and just remem...