Be a servant to your
heart’s inner truth, and your life in turn will bow to you as its Master. - Richard Bartlett
Whatever comes into your life is about the love you are ready to live.
Whatever leaves your life is about the love you are ready to live.
What never comes into your life is about the love you are ready to live.
Everything every which way you turn is demonstrating to you the love you are ready to live. This is all it is ever about.
I find the greatest test to our vulnerability really is not in extending love, but in receiving it, in letting it in. Receiving love, letting it all flow in to the center of your being, requires that your walls are down - it requires that you put down all the reasons, justifications, excuses for why you don't deserve, aren't enough, or not ready to be in the space of love.
Can you imagine what it would be like to be in the constant awareness of how loved you are in the world, in the Universe, in your life?
Together, the dragon and phoenix symbolize Yin and Yang together: perfect balance. Standing alone, each symbol is hugely powerful. Together they represent a power- packed union of success, prosperity, friendship, love, and enlightenment. The union of these two highly symbolic creatures at wedding festivities suggests a match that is blessed with money and incredible luck. Furthermore, it denotes the beginning of a dynastic family with the dragon symbolizing the patriarch and the phoenix signifying the matriarch. Let the fire burn? :)
I repeatedly kept hearing and reading about the usefulness of creating a theme for your year ahead, your life in 2013. Every story book has a theme, every song, every movie - there's always a theme, an overall tone and message. So this is one of those other things that makes sense to do for your own life story - to choose a theme that holds all that will unfold as your life together in 2013.
At the same time I was seeing these blogposts and articles on the topic, I saw a brief interview on youtube about what one of my favorite hearts on the planet was casting ahead as his 2013. From the same mouth that gave me "2008 will be great" I heard "living the dream in 2013" - and there it was all wrapped up and delivered. I like it, I thought. I'll take it. I'm in!
And then I got to work - mainly just by doodling this theme-mantra on pages and creating a print out that I colored to post on one of the most frequented spots in my home - the refrigerator. Now it…
Being born on a Saturday lands me this incredible zodiac sign (Burmese) and totem.
Zodiac animal sign: Dragon Day of Week Born: Saturday Ruling Planet: Saturn Ruling Direction: Southwest Personality/Attributes of the Dragon: You are philosophical and understanding. People are naturally attracted to you because you have an easy confidence about you and you have a great sense of humor. You prefer to work alone because you believe you are the master of your own destiny and do not like depending on others to get the job done.
What I love most, is how whatever field of focus I dwell on brings with it gifts that re-affirm and support my intentions. DRAGON Protection Elemental Magic Powers of Change and Transformation
Dragon represents the supernatural, infinity itself and the spiritual powers of change and transformation. It is a fierce protector and adds extra power to any magic you may perform. Fire Dragon Transmutation, Mastery, Energy This powerful totem brings vitality, enthusiasm and courage. He wil…
"It's been so long since I've had an actual partner that I don't even know what I would do with that kind of support. Someone to actually talk to, reflect and collaborate with? The idea of even touching on a regular basis sounds a bit like heaven to me, much less kissing and actually making love. And not the kind of Heaven I need someone else to lead me to or show me, but the one I have found deep in my own heart, reflected exponentially when love looks me in the eyes. The hand on my heart that wants to go deeper and deeper still. The hand on my body that sees who I am and is in awe of both of us, that calls up magic we are not even aware of yet, that brings in something I don't even know yet that I need, that receives all that I have to offer, which is more than I can even calculate.
I've polished every hall in this temple, every sacred relic while you've been away. The Wholy Grail lies within. The god is in the goddess. The sacred heart is aflame as it…
For at the gates of the Mighty, She hath taken a seat,and at the entrance thereof chanteth Her song: "In the beginning, before the Lord made the EarthWhen He furnished the Heavens, I was with Him;and when He set apart His throne on the windsWhen He set to the sea its bound,and the waters passed not the word of His mouthI was harmonizing with Him. I was the one in whomHe delighted, and I was daily gladdened by Hispresence on all occasions." - Septuagint
Awakening into Wholeness is the destiny of every heart.
It starts with a spark at the center of your chest and we are ignited into a heart remembrance of sorts. I remember the start back in the fall of 2005, though I know there's no real start to all this, that's how it all appears. The feeling comes on strong, like things have just been snapped in place by a cosmic chemist, the lights all turned on by some celestial electrician, and all the reactions already under-way and all the bonds in your being completely rearrang…
Someone mentioned to me that today begins the 9 day count down to 12-21-12 which in the world of spirituality and consciousness awakening (and cosmology, astronomy etc.) is a significant date. Let's not even mention the numerology at play here.
Numbers to me are significant. Everything is energy after all, and all of it precise and freakishly exact.
Now the suggestion was to treat today as the door before the bridge into the once-in-every 26,000 years planetary alignment right along the plane of the entire galaxy. That's a pretty exact and gigantic alignment happening across a vast amount of space. And with planetary alignment always comes some movement of energy. Everything is everything affecting everything so setting your tone, your own unique contribution into the mix here to me makes sense.
So I woke up, after waking up in the middle of the night and falling asleep, and just wondered what the perfect tone would be for me. What did I want to emit into this doorway? What…
When I feel into the year ahead, all I feel is an abundance of LOVE flowing through me and to me from every direction.
Oh what a feeling!
2012 was really a year of stepping into my own and a year of many firsts:
~ the first time I ever drove a pallet jack (or even learned what it was), ~ the first time I worked with plants and felt the power of the energy they hold day after day (holy heavenly bliss of serenity just remembering myself standing in the garden center, alone, with plants, butterflies and the occasional bird) ~ the first time I didn't travel anywhere all year ~ the first time I merchandised and put an abundance of products on display on shelves, ~ the first time I ever saw what a warehouse full of stock looks like (holy consumerism madness) ~ the first time I ever broke down crying at work (ever), ~ the first time I worked in property management, ~ the first time I ever worked for a computer software company, ~ the first time I was floored by a gift from a job (Dear iPad,…
We were born before the wind
Also younger than the sun
Ere the bonnie boat was won as we sailed into the mystic
Hark, now hear the sailors cry
Smell the sea and feel the sky
Let your soul and spirit fly into the mystic
And when that fog horn blows I will be coming home
And when that fog horn blows I want to hear it
I don't have to fear it
I want to rock your gypsy soul
Just like way back in the days of old
Then magnificently we will float into the mystic
And when that fog horn blows you know I will be coming home
And when thst fog horn whistle blows I got to hear it
I don't have to fear it
I want to rock your gypsy soul
Just like way back in the days of old
And together we will float into the mystic
- Van Morrison
The company I work for part time just gifted every employee with an iPad. I went into work on Monday only to spend my morning squealing with delight over the gift. The next morning I thanked the owner of the company and just loved how he took gracious joy in our joy.
I love working for a company that extends itself in that way - I was already sold on the place over the free weekly lunches offered for employees and the unlimited tea, hot chocolate, and lattes dispenser. It has been such a great month being in an environment like it - and in the time I've been there, there have been two fundraisers for local charities and before I got there the company had donated $20,000 to build schools in Kenya and Haiti. I wish for nothing but unlimited growth for a space that gives back like that, both internally within the organization and externally to the local and global community!
Now follow that up with what I picked up from the post office today, and call this entire week a marvellous Gi…
What's that thing you most want in the world?
What's that thing that's just "too good to be true"?
What's that thing that's everything you dream of with everything you have?
What's that thing that writes itself into every thought you have?
Life gifts you moments and a lifetime that's greater than you can imagine, that contains not only all of the elements that you dream of in the depths of your heart, but so much more too.
When you love yourself enough to look at those things and know they're all for you, when you love yourself enough to look at the display and the offering and open yourself up to receive, when you love yourself enough to accept the love inside these things you dream of, you'll see clearly the deep regard with which life is constantly looking at you.
There is only total love and absolute adoration waiting to kiss your everything.
A single moment in time can show up to reveal only to your eyes the meaning of how events will align to bring about that thing you've been waiting for. In my literature classes, foreshadowing was taught to only be a literary device employed by authors, writers, people who like to play with words.
I imagine, like everything else we bring into our expressions, such a concept was born from direct observation of how life itself hints at things to come through brilliantly poetic moments. Because it does. It's incredible just how every answer is already shown to us, given to us, we just might not be awake enough to understand it when it does.
Our destinies are so elegantly engraved in our own hearts and then displayed on the screen space and stage we call waking life. Every detail of the immense love that is ours to breathe and live is already all around us. Our make-belief life, the dreamy "is this really happening to me" life, only feels that way because we've yet t…
It's when someone asks me if I have any travel plans that I remember this fact. I haven't had any big travel adventures since I've been here. Vancouver Island is its own world. I have the ocean. I have ancient forests. And living in Victoria, I have the city life. It has everything I like and love in coastal living, the serene quietness I so often crave and the bustle of a small city that I enjoy, so I haven't felt the need to venture off very far. Seattle is the farthest I've gone in the past few years and that was just by ferry/bus. I've yet to step into Victoria International Airport but living on an island, there's usually an extra few hours added to your travel plans.
I also have my dog and at the thought of leaving her with anyone I seem to create a good deal of anxiety in myself. It'd be a good idea to get a handle on that since my passport is renewed now and the Universe is showing me suitcases le…
I'm blogging like everyday. Someone seems to be demanding that I do so through the ethers and I gratefully oblige half giggling and half cross-eyed and a little be-wilder-ed at the way this magick lays itself all out. After the love flows out and the words are laid, I sit and I stare and I tell myself this is going to have to be my last entry for the week. This is just much to much running to my computer to dump out the words that start to swirl when the feeling comes like a flood through my heart. I can't lie and say I don't enjoy every moment of it.
And then the next day rolls around and the words are back with another stream, another story, another bubbling up of goodness that just has to flow out onto the screen. And it has to be a blog my heart insists 'cause the pages upon pages I send to recycling just won't do for the type of recording this energy demands. And so I blog.
As much as I love the telepathic rendez vous this stage affords us and enjoy just how wild it all really is, I'm equally fond of hugs, mouths, hands, skype, love mail, email, texts, instagram love fests and all the ways of communing this physical world has to offer.
My conscious mind gets suspended in moments when those glimmers of unity come through from direction-less spaces. I love the feeling of that broader seeing. I can almost see the conscious part of me, or the left brain in me, float about like a wide eyed tranced-out balloon head. To my left brain the formed world (and so it thinks the "real" world) consists of things it can see with the solid instruments of the body. So when that expanded seeing becomes your perception, it almost wipes out all of the boundaries of your conscious mind, boundaries that usually define the realm of realness you often inhabit.
Perception is so malleable. The moment you expand out of the bubble of physicality you just see so much …
I was noticing today how a lot of my "change my world completely" shifts happen around this time of year.
It was November 25 when I left Toronto after dropping out of a Masters program (and ran away to southern California for two weeks).
It was September 30 when I packed things up in Ottawa and moved to the west coast.
It was December when I moved into my own apartment for the first time.
There is something about this season that gets me to complete some stage and move into a new one. And I think it's useful to notice what the cycles of your own being are.
I was awakened early this morning by a warmth that came over me. It felt like another shift. It was like climbing into a warm bath but from the inside of my being and it left me feeling slightly different but in a good way. And if what I've been noticing of late is any indication, I am grateful for this warmth and all that it is carrying into my world.
Was it always meant to be this easy and satisfying? Let me rephrase that. It was always meant to be this easy and satisfying. I've stepped into a completely new world. Though my world looks exactly like it did, the feel of it, the energy of it and who I am in it is dramatically different. I'm here now. Smack dab in the middle of (I love saying that) the heart of my paradise.
I took the last of the curtains down yesterday, the one's I'd been using to keep hidden from sight. What else was I going to do on my days off from work but trample through the boundaries I had declared were true.
I don't even know how I came to that point of noticing it, the last of the veil I'd used to remain out of sight while I did all my work of returning to this seat of Grace. This is what I've always wanted and this is how I would have always wanted it to be - to walk in through this world fully awake to what and who I am in every facet. There is no space left now in which I don&…
I don't think I ever understood what growth was until I started digging on my self.
So much of the world shows us that growth is the nature of everything. Everything around us grows. It expands. It becomes more intricate, more detailed, more everything. It becomes so fantastic in its variety and unity. And our own beings grow. They grow through stages awkwardly and beautifully, every part of us morphing and remolding itself into form - and all of this I've always been able to see. I never understood it though - I saw it, I accepted it, but I never really understood it. Not until I went within.
The view from the inside of what growth is, is so arresting and so mesmerizing. Watching myself move through fuzzy, wobbly, and unclear states, watching myself go from being unfocused, unsure, uncertain, to this level of clarity and stability...witnessing that involved process of my own self come into focus, I have come to have a tremendous appreciation for all facets of growth.
I sit in a dimly lit room looking for the words that will tell you everything. I want to tell you everything. I want to tell you all that I’ve uncovered in these dream pages we call our life. I want to tell you the treasures and delights of this stage we've been trampling on for days on end. And our feet have still yet to tire. I have danced with you through lifetimes before this. I will have loved you into worlds after this. And my words they trip and fumble as they make their way out, willing only to let themselves fall ungracefully at your feet. I want to lay myself at your feet. I'm grateful for how far we've come. I'm grateful for how deep we've journeyed. I'm grateful for all that's fallen away as we fell and rose in the furnace of this divine loving. It didn't burn. It only made us yearn for more. Burning in Love is our only way now. I thought I had to wait to tell you, I couldn't wait to tell you, until I realized it was you telling me all o…
I question my self constantly. I'm a little neurotic about the whole thing. My motivations, my angle of view, my position in the vastness of this ocean of consciousness - I question all of it with immense pleasure. Mostly out of the observation that a big part of the world still lives from the outside in. Meaning, the apparent outside of circumstance and condition is made to be the decider of our moods, our place, our fates. Really? Is that so? For much too many folks, it is.
It's weird to watch around you when you've so committed yourself to the inner asylum of self awareness. The fact that I can change and modify my location inside myself, and intuit things, feel the hidden waves and undercurrents of what's happening in the inter-web of all life, by simply having this internalized location tells me pretty matter-of-factly just how much of an intimate presence we each are to the field of all things living. And that alone to me has become the essence of freedom. There…
OH MY GOODNESS GRACIOUS
I squeaked, clapped, and squealed today when I noticed what universe I had stepped into as of late...or rather realized what universe I had always been in. The recognition was so vividly awesome that it filled me with spontaneous fits of giggles and cackles throughout the day. Even the people I met with today were filled with giggles after only moments of conversation allowing me to conclude that even my contained inner giggling was contagious. Bonus!
I love this. I really really really love this.
I often see things before they happen. I've probably written about this before. Somewhere along the way, must be between taking up meditation and diving deeper into the rabbit hole of our holographic world-scapading (*non-word* alert), my third eye opened wide, and I started experiencing vivid scenes of things not yet seen. After the first few instances, I started recognizing the prophetic montages that would download into my seeing as I emerge from sleep. It was …
Climbing into bed with curiosity still turned on has some really interesting effects.
My dreams have been ultra vivid lately so much so that remembering them causes some serious stirrings inside while walking with my groceries outside in the rain. It a-muses and interests every part of me. That we can feel so much of the Universe inside our own being, this is the incredible thing.
I have learnt that the secret to everything in this play is to make up my mind like I make up my bed everyday. A clean decisive arrangement of my mind and my world is woken up with laughter and amusement at 2 o'clock in the morning. What a ride.
So this was all I had to do? I think this to myself often now. This is it, just this simple flip of a switch inside my own head, this is it? Yep. This is all it will ever take to get you from where you are now to where you've wanted to be for minutes, hours, days, months, years...
What I've noticed is, the only obstacle there ever is, is you. Everything …
I wondered what to call you in this letter, and the name Naveed presented itself, it means the bearer of good news and good wishes. How fitting since that's what you are.
I dreamt of whispers in the night that told stories of how I came to be. Fashioned out of heavenly things and lighted by the spark of celestial stars, I travelled from further than the highest of your dreams to get to you.
And while you're asleep I tell you this in a language only you will understand: I'm not made for you. I'm made from you.
I just have to look at my life to see clearly the amazing synchronisitic flow of events that continuously presents itself. All of our moments are made with love, literally put together by this hidden power that blesses us with itself.
Whatever step I take, I seem to always be met with this graceful orchestration of circumstance to carry me into whatever direction I've chosen to go, whatever experience I've chosen to have. I recognize it only when I take a step back though. I recognize it only when I pause, take a breath, and look with awakened eyes. Moments are moments, they are beads strung together around the neck of a creative beautiful wonder I will only call God.
When I decided to move out to the west coast over three years ago, it was a step in the dark. I knew I wanted to be near the water. I knew I wanted to break out of the complacent binds I had created for myself. I knew I wanted west. Pacific ocean. Milder weather. Different. I had no idea what it would entail or w…
I'd like to think I've been blessed to have been amongst people who were amazing leaders in the various organizations and companies I've worked in. I've also had the opportunity to witness the opposite, the toxic dissonant type of leader that disperses and puts people into negative emotional rhythms, that literally brings the energy down.
The success of any endeavor and the growth potential of any system, is strongly influenced by the effect those in the position of leadership have on those being led.
To me, this is one of the best examples of leadership I've seen to date!
"Forward to what" is a really great question, one everyone has to ask. We each have to begin to contemplate the answer to that question. We can't put the vision of and for the future we're an intricate part of in the hands of one individual. That's careless. Do we elect leaders to be the solitary holders of the fate of our country, our world? That seems irresponsible. The part of every citizen of any country is constantly active whether we're aware of it or not. Our inaction and our action is contribution, but our action or inaction isn't just in voting. Must we vote? Absolutely. Is our jobs as citizens done once we've cast our vote, once we've ticked off a little box? Never. We have to engage every part of ourselves in the process of change. So Forward to what? We each have to answer that individually. What kind of state do you want to live in? What kind of country do you want to live in? What kind of world do you want to live in? What do you wa…
Do you remember when I told you to stop looking for tokens of love outside of yourself? You smiled knowing you were doing that exact thing as you searched my eyes for answers. You are your own answer, and when you know that, you'll find what you're looking for in my eyes.
I wrap myself up in this indescribable feeling that comes from knowing every ending.
Every ending is love.
Every beginning is desire.
And every desire is for more love.
It's this infinite loop of love and loving that grows itself, that deepens itself, that folds into itself.
I'm pretty sure this is how life is supposed to unfold, with perks and benefits filling your every moment. Everywhere I look lately, I'm being handed comfort, if not luxury. Everything is aligning not just to support and provide nurture, but to shower me with it every step of the way.
It's like life is constantly saying, "relax, put your feet up, I got this. I got your back."
I smile and allow it more often now. I thank it and acknowledge it.
Comfort. Luxury. Ease. Flow. These are the innate perks of being.
Life naturally comes with full benefits if we open ourselves up to experiencing it in that way.
Let us be like Two falling stars in the day sky. Let no one know of our sublime beauty As we hold hands with God And burn Into a sacred existence that defies -
That surpasses Every description of ecstasy And love.
The evolution of the human, as I see it, is really about transcending the bounds of identity, identification with the body, and expressing in the world as the creative consciousness of the universe. In this way, you are not ruled by the conditions and circumstances of your world, of your entry way into form. You are not confined by the boundaries of a seemingly separate single identity. Rather you rule your world from within, from the space of wholeness, from the ever expanded spaces of an all-inclusive consciousness that can only be reached inside the realms of awareness, of being aware. Mastering matter rather than apparently being confined by it. Having loosed the psychological attachment to form, you are free to direct the creative course of any lifetime, designing, molding, and unfolding new patterns of life through the technology of being human. You become the edge of the universe that's pushing itself further forward into new creativity. You become a doorway to a greater i…
Too many mouths are preoccupied with the mind and not with the spaciousness of their own essence. Of all the things to let live on your tongue, you choose all the flavors that create havoc in your own being. Stop that.
You do much more through the world when you are that you that you are beyond the stories of your waking experience. Stripped, bare, and naked of all your personal narratives you are a focused force of nature. Truly. You are a vastness that can't be spoken of, a presence that can't be conveyed in words, you are an unfathomable power beyond the reach of symbols and sounds.
A mind congested with stories goes on and on about the things that were, the things that weren't, and the things that will never be. It's ceaseless in its travels, unrelenting in its constant motion as it carries on the mythology of a hallucination that is experiencing things other than itself.
To delude yourself that there is anything other than the majesty of your own being happening h…
Of course we all come from God. It's all that ever sources our every moment and our very existence. If you want to understand the mysteries of the universe, just go look in the mirror, into your own eyes. Suspend all concepts and definitions you hold and look at what it is that's doing the looking.
Question: where did you come from?
The shower head = a mental microphone.
“Nature loves courage. You make the commitment and nature will respond to that commitment by removing impossible obstacles. Dream the impossible dream and the world will not grind you under, it will lift you up. This is the trick. This is what all these teachers and philosophers who really counted, who really touched the alchemical gold, this is what they understood. This is the shamanic dance in the waterfall. This is how magic is done. By hurling yourself into the abyss and discovering its a feather bed.”-Terence McKenna
This is what I'm awake to right now - every moment of being alive has within it so much JUICE that it no longer makes sense for me to believe that "the best is yet to come". What nonsense! The best is already here. The best is already a living reality right here and now.
It's in everything. It's remarkable and inescapable in its beauty, the dawning of an inner sun ten thousand times brighter than the one peaking through my windows right now. Apparent circumstances and conditions veil this, and we, entranced by temporary things forget. Remember. Forget.
The best, if you can let yourself feel it, is what's in you right now. It's in the energy that you are. It's in the consciousness that you are. It's in the living, breathing, creative force with a pulse that you are. THIS is the best. All of what follows as manifestation, all of what follows as condition and circumstance is ONLY a reflection of THIS that you are. Wake yourself up to that. Stop wait…
Is a suspended blue ocean.
The stars are the fish
The planets are the white whales
I sometimes hitch a ride on,
And the sun and all light
Have forever fused themselves
Into my heart and upon
There is only one rule
For every sign
Hafiz has ever seen
Reads the same.
They all say, "Have fun, my dear; my dear, have fun, In the Beloved's Divine
Game, O, in the Beloved's Wonderful
"don't allow the one's before
to make you lose sight
past is past
leave it all behind
you've just been given a chance
you just saw an angel
fall from the skies
in her eyes you see the morning
and you know there's no ignoring
intentionally, I differentiate between...
here, is where you've never been. here is the ever new kaleidoscope of phenomena in which we find ourselves smack dab in the middle of. SPLAT. it's all around us. seemingly familiar, seemingly known. and yet it isn't either. this moment is unrepeatable. a changeling mingling dance of infinite possibilities collapsing in and out of view just for you. there are as many dimensions to it as you can allow yourself to awaken to. think in terms of infinity and you' haven't even begun to touch upon the possibilities for newness and unimaginable-ness that it carries within it. as many new ways of living it as you can and can't imagine, it holds it all alive before you. you've never been here before and you'll never be here again. its uniqueness blinks on and off and makes way for its own fast evolving vibrancy to come alive again. here, it is the dance of ever changing light.