Friday, May 28


If you listen carefully, you can feel all of existence spread out across this expanse breathing in this moment. In breath. Out breath. In breath. Out breath. Every living thing, big and small, seen and microscopic, near and far, pulsing in and to the same rhythm.

Feel that. Know that it's all YOUR body.


- kidest

Thursday, May 27


I'm thinking I'll have the whole "how can I show you how powerful you are" thing figured out by blog #500 - that's in 67 entries from now!

No matter where I look, no matter what I hear, all that I want to do is remind and mirror to whatever face the enormity of who and what he or she truly is. Conversations in limited-ness take too much effort to pay attention to, to hold up, to participate in. Conversations and words built around the idea of struggle, of separation, of anything of the sort are so difficult to focus on or give any kind of reality to. It's like my radio antenna experiences static when senseless expressions try to form themselves around me. Yet the role play carries on...

Reality beckons you to remember your power, remember who you are in every single Now-moment you experience. You are so much more than you'll ever know. You are so much more than the definitional toys and ideas you right now play with.

Whatever it is, whatever you feel you're here to do, be, or have, let that be IT. Let everything else your mind wants to create stories and drama around GO. It is such a waste of creative energy, creative focus, and creative space to make time for thoughts, words, and deeds that in no way support your chosen destination, no matter what that destination is, no matter how big or small your mind has made that desired outcome. Let this outcome be all that you see, and let go of wanting to participate in things and happenings that are just such a royal waste of your light. Let's not engage in any other conversation but the Love that supports and empowers every aspect of your reality u n c o n d i t i o n a l l y. Let's not make up any other story than the story that tells of the brilliant outcomes you want to experience, how valid they are, how valid YOU are, and how everything about you in this life will show up to support you should you but choose to keep yourself open to ask, and open to receive.

Whatever it is you want to see in this world - speak it, express it. Share the reality of the outcome in your heart. What does the world you want to experience look like, feel like? What does the home you want to experience feel like? Speak the vision that is born within you rather than the old worn out movie that birthed this desire. Let go of wanting to waste time making up excuses for why it may not be possible. Let go of wanting to waste energy focusing on the non-existent past and whatever you're making up happened then and there. Drive only in the direction you want to go - mentally, energetically, physically.

Love is Real. Dreams are True. Any other melodrama you want to make up and make believe in, is just idle creation.

You're never not creating.






- kidest

Tuesday, May 25

Yes :)

Your lipstick stains
On the front lobe of my left side brains
I knew I wouldn't forget you
And so I went and let you blow my mind
Your sweet moonbeam
The smell of you in every single dream I dream
I knew when we collided you're the one I have decided
Who's one of my kind

Hey soul sister, hey there mister, mister
On the radio, stereo
The way you move ain't fair you know
Hey soul sister, I don't wanna miss a single thing you do tonight

Hey Hey Hey

Just in time, I'm so glad you have a one track mind like me
You gave my life direction
A game show love connection, we can't deny
I'm so obsessed
My heart is bound to beat right out my untrimmed chest
I believe in you, like a virgin, you're Madonna
And I'm always gonna wanna blow your mind

Hey soul sister, hey there mister, mister
On the radio, stereo
Hey soul sister, I don't wanna miss a single thing you do tonight

Well you can cut a rug
Watching you is the only drug I need
So gangster, I'm so thug
You're the only one I'm dreaming of
You see I can be myself now finally
In fact there's nothing I cant be
I want the world to see you'll be with me

Monday, May 24

Everything Is You

If you play as though "your" desires and "my" desires are separate, you will battle yourself each step of the way, though you may use ever changing masks to keep up the game of two-ness.

Even in the game of two-ness, you are but playing yourself.

You have more power when you move as a unified whole within yourself. Nothing can stop you when everything in view is YOU. Take your steps in oneness, speak and express yourself as oneness.

Everything is You. There is no other.
"In the world of duality, everything is a relationship. In the world of oneness, everything is love."
-Sri Ram Kaa


Saturday, May 22

You Are Perfect

Do you have any idea at all about how brilliantly perfect you are? The flawlessness of everything about you, about everything that conspires and comes together to make you this YOU is so far beyond the stories your mind can make up. Do you know what it took to get you here? Have you any idea at all about all that cooperated across dimensions, universes, across time and all space, to bring you to this point of being? Do you have any concept at all of how big an event that you yourself are in this grand universe? You are such PURE magnificence! YES! YES! YES! 


Thursday, May 20


After a week long immersion into silence and playing in the field of non-sense, I'd love to put together a meaningful stringing of words to describe what the dive deeper down the rabbit hole has been like on this adventurous trip. To every face that's been asking me "how was it, let's hear all the details" I want to form something, anything, stretch out my hands and say HERE!

But I can't. Even referencing time seems odd, weird, incomprehensible.

Words start to form and I start breaking out into laughter. I start TRYING to think about what to say, and I break out into chuckles like...WTF. None of it is what I think it is. None of it is what words can get to. Even these words right here are SO GOD DAMN FAR from everything, the silliness of what we are, the crazyness, the twisted mess, the God-is-a-child-on-LSD-ness of it all. I open my eyes and see things that I don't even know how to talk about. I close my eyes and dream dreams that feel like the waking world. And I don't care that everything is inverted, upside down, and backwards. I can call it multi-dimensional awareness, but that's a pile of made-up bullshit.

What I feel like, what I look like, everything about how I appear, how you appear - all of that's a pile of bullshit too.

You know that part in a relationship where you say to your lover "it got weird didn't it" - well, this so called Universe and "I" are looking at each other like that...where do "we" go from here? I'm hallucinating a Universe and this Universe is hallucinating a "me" - what a productive relationship we have!

Licking imaginary toads is as bad an idea as licking real one's. When imagination and reality blur, you've broken through the illusion that something is happening, that you and this world are happening, that there is anything other than a playful ridiculous kind of Love here. The fabric and fiber of your reality is Love, and it will play with you within whatever rules you set up. Whatever is real to you in whatever way, you are real to IT within that same boundary-construct-limitation.

And everything is happening where your conscious awareness ain't looking. So up your game - rotate around to everything, the billions of data that your contracted conscious sensory awareness can't wrap itself around. The Infinite-ness of all Reality is Here Now. Can ya dig that?

Onward with your hallucinations!

Happy Birthday Richard. 
Your crazy is infectious and beautiful!



Friday, May 14

Monk with a Camera

Things I didn't know I'd get to experience: laughing and waving at a monk as he follows me and my magickal friend with his camera.

Wednesday, May 12

Devon White: A SuperWow Kinda Man

Sexy, right?

Tune in to your genius. Check him out:

When we get good at coordinating our genius, he'll be on the radio with me to talk about all this in his own perfect way. Stay tuned ~

Tuesday, May 11


What I said elsewhere:

THAT’S just it EXACTLY – the default state is incorruptible – it’s the ever-present foundation of perfection. It’s only the transient thought-stuff, the fleeting “stories” of waking consciousness that we practice day in and day out AND have habituated, that veil the perfect singular awareness that is the core of what we are. It’s there, this crisp perfect state of being, and the moment you choose to let go of the overlay of stories about who you are, your true identity as this perfect center shines through. The question to ask is “can I let go of wanting to re-install this story that says I am something that could be damaged” or any other question that asks you whether or not you’re ready to let this story go, to let this program or overlay that is running in the background go.

Ya dig it?



Monday, May 10

Love IS Jon Marro

Dropping into the Heart has never been easier.
Perfectly timed.
Perfectly everything...

Want to hear from the genius behind this amazing design (aka Jon Marro)? Click HERE to listen to us chat. And stay tuned, he'll be on again soon ~
"In the world of duality, everything is a relationship. In the world of oneness, everything is love."
-Sri Ram Kaa

Sunday, May 9

Light Travel

I choose to travel Light.
Through the realms of This Inner Sky.
No past, no story, no history.
No baggage's to carry.
No identity, no self, no "me".
Just Being

Saturday, May 8

Loving Stillness

Fall in LOVE with the Stillness within you. Go to it often, as eagerly as you would go into the arms of a lover. Everything you need is contained within This inside of you, at the center of you.

Be Here Now


Friday, May 7

Slow Motion for Me

“Life is all memory, except for the one present moment that goes by you so quickly you hardly catch it going” - Tennessee Williams
It's amazing really. All of these events come about in just a flicker, big changes and small changes - my being an auntie again, it's already happened. My living on an island, it's old news. Even the things I'm looking forward to, like my trip to Seattle next week, it's already on it's way to passing. It all just goes by so quickly - this moment...and now...and now...and now.

The light show carries on, the story unfolds, yet I feel like with all that's passing...I'm just sitting Here Now watching it slow motion. I appear to be living it, but really I'm watching...

It all seems so far away, the past, the memories, even five minutes ago.

"To me nothing ever happens. There is something changeless, motionless, immovable, rock-like, unassailable; a solid mass of pure being-consciousness-bliss. I am never out of it. Nothing can take me out of it, no torture, no calamity." - Nisargadatta Maharaj
No worldly bliss or story.
"Nothing has ever happened. Nothing has ever existed. The world never came into existence or disappeared from it. That place is my real home. It is where I always am. One can say this with authority only when one abides in that ultimate place." - Papaji
I Am.

Thursday, May 6

Who Cares?

I've been giving out the "who cares" and "so what" mantras to just about everyone I talk to.

When your mind starts to chatter, make excuses, make up all sorts of past based or future based stories,  when it starts to go on and on about what could go wrong or how it's going to be difficult or impossible for you to do X  Y and Z, your reply to it is simple - so what? Who cares? 

I really had to laugh when I walked to the Sea Plane booking front desk and saw a version of this clock on the wall:
Exactly! Who cares?!

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