Tuesday, September 29

Being Change

Before doing, there is seeing. Before speaking, there is being.

The world of form, the manifested world of outcomes, is responsive to the distance you travel within your own being. The circumstances you create in and as your world are only temporary patterns. What appears right now, isn't "what is". It is a transient fleeting manifestation. See these appearances differently, think differently about them, and they mirror this inward change.

Nothing is as it appears to be in this instant. For as long as you take what appears to be "just the way things are," you keep the transient manifestation in place. For as long as you take the discourse of the times to be "this is just the way it is," you keep the temporary manifestation in place. You are always the change you bring to the table. You are always the perception you contribute to this time-space reality. If your perception is the same as everyone else, then through whom will change come? Through whom will solutions appear? If you see what everyone else is seeing, then through whom will a new world birth itself?

Think differently. See differently. And you'll be the change you wish to see.

In Love,

Monday, September 28

One Two One

We are created as One
And we manifest as One
Fused through and through
Through all the octaves of Love
You are me, as I am you
We are an undivided Unity
In this dance of Two

The Writing's On The Ground

I am blessed in Love. These past scenes of goodbyes and road tripping have been overflowing with love in beautiful and miraculous ways.

Love flows in and as everything in view.

There are moments that I look up to confront a face only to see it aglow, lit up by a surreal type of golden light that bathes and encases the beautiful being before me. Human beings have ceased looking ordinary to me. We're not "only human".

Who told you that you were anything less than magnificent and beautiful? Who made you believe that you are "just human" or "only human"? What does that even mean?

We are each something our senses cannot yet comprehend, and our conditioned mind distorts, but our own Being reveals All when we open into That which we really are.

Love is not a word or an energy you look to receive from something outside of you. Love is and will always be an unconditional offering that first flows through you. You choose your state of being in this one and only instant through the thoughts you think, the beliefs you hold, and the words you express. How open you are is not a matter for what someone else is doing or how someone else is being. You are your own primary source of Love. As within, so without. When you choose to generate and be an opening to Love in this instant, oh the distance you'll go in the world of form.

A love shine said to me: "you raise the energy everywhere you go!"

It may feel that way. Only, I see it as being an opening to show you just how high you can be, how high you truly are. And you are higher than even that. Whatever good you see in me or you feel coming through me, know that you are equally that and so much more.

Oh...all the ways Divine Love lives you.

You are something extraordinary.

In Love,

Monday, September 21

In The Not Too Distant Time Ahead...

There is a way to get it done, without leaving your bed.

Let me introduce you to the Wheel Of Fortune.

You can divide the sections in any way that suits you. For instance, you can do:

Work / Relationships / Health / Leisure

Or whatever floats your fancy!

Use affirmations and affirm to yourself that the Universe/Divine Intelligence or even your subconscious/superconscious mind (whatever paradigm you subscribe to) is on it.

Be creative, use colors, use images. This process is a little more involved than a typical Vision Board that just passively hangs out on your wall. Take some minutes every day (yes, every day), in the morning or before sleep (or both), to feed your mind the images and descriptions that you wholeheartedly want to experience. Your mind is creating images all throughout your day. It is projecting and recollecting events, conversations, and pulling off all sorts of shenanigans all day long. This is your way to tame that mind and direct your energy in the direction of your desired experiences. Do this consistently, and watch events & circumstances conspire to bring it all to pass.

You are magic &  miracles.

Stay tuned for more tidbits!

From Care-a-Lot,
Cousin Kid

Sunday, September 20

My Light House

There are times I forget my name
I forget my face and heart altogether
Still you find me then
Shining brightly and gently
letting me rest In Love again
You are my light house
In the distant shores
Everything you are
Is what my heart adores
You are the sounds and melodies
Of cool nights and summer days
You are the inexplicable reason
Of why I am
The way I am
You are my light house
The formless wonder
The miracle of my life

I've got you

Yeah I've got you
under my water wings
Wide as they are
Moving in the folds
of the space all around you
Waiting to see you smile
When it all unfolds like magic
Before your eyes
I've got you
Yes, oh yes I do

Click Me: There Is A Light That Shines Special For You & Me

Digga-da, digga-da, digga-da, digga-digga-da-da

Thursday, September 17

I Am Guided

People have been exclaiming to me lately how the Universe really does seem to conspire in my life. It does in all lives but the visibility of it in mine keeps me even more steady and sturdy in my movements.

I go about my days thinking I know what I'm going to do, what steps I'm going to take. This is the way of the "expert" mind we all don. We all believe we know the best routes to get from point A to point B. But really, we only know the routes we know, known paths that have been taken before, we know the past, not the routes that may be even better for us than what we imagine.

So I'm going about my packing getting ready to ship out my three to four boxes of stuff. Then the first suggestion finds me via Sally, the laser hair lady everyone in Ottawa should go see:

1) She says: I shipped 6 boxes to my kids in Vancouver (yes, her kids just so happened to be in Vancouver) through greyhound parcel, you should really send your stuff through them, it's much cheaper.

I checked out the info and sure enough with the price it would cost to send ONE box through Canada post, I can send THREE with greyhound parcel. Tip of the day? Check your local greyhound quotes/rates for shipping packages and documents to anywhere in North America. They're pretty rad-tacular!

Before I move onto the next little tidbit, let me just refresh myself on the boy who came to my door to pick up an organizer I was getting rid of. He had just driven with someone...from Victoria all the way to Ottawa. It just so happens to be the same journey I was planning on making while contemplating if I could make the drive alone. He answered it for me. He told me no. And while I usually rebel against other's telling me what I can and cannot do, when information comes to me through this kind of synchronicity I pay attention. So no road trip to the west coast by myself.

2) Watching me fiddle with the boxes my mom chimes in "can't you use luggage's, it will probably be much more convenient for you to ship out luggage's than these boxes." I call greyhound and sure enough, YES I can send luggage's over. And just like that my packages are simplified and my plane load reduced.

Then I started to wonder about money. I have one credit card. JUST one thank goodness. It's one of the most convenient pieces of plastic with my name on it. I love it. I'm thankful for it. But my goal is to pay all of it off so that the money I have coming in doesn't all go to pay the monthly payment. I sat to write this goal/intention down today: bring VISA balance owing to $0.

3) At 3:22pm today, Chris from my bank CIBC called to touch base with me. Chris and I haven't talked in YEARS. I never go to my branch. Thanks to the internet all my banking needs are done online or at the ABM machine. Chris congratulated me on my move out west then said I should really go into a branch out on the island (note to self, locate a CIBC on Vancouver Island) and get a line of credit. I will likely qualify for a line of credit (yay for kickass credit score) that I can use to pay off my Visa balance and pay back the line of credit at the low interest rate of 4% instead of the 11% that I'm paying right now.

That sounds like a great plan to me Universe. Urrr...I mean Chris.

Of course some magical things can conspire and make my moments to be even more than they are appearing to be right now, but the point is, I Am truly Guided every step of the way within my currently running holographic program. The right information shows up. Guidance shows up in a way that I can recognize it IS guidance from a Beauty that can see so much more than I can.

I won't even talk about Finding Waldo.

I Am Thankful

How are you noticing the guidance that finds you? What information are you thankful to receive and to benefit from?

Mistress of the Bags

Wednesday, September 16

What A Silly Hologram

The conditioned outlook is a funny funny unfolding to witness.

It says: "You have to change who you are for me to be happy. You have to be other than you are, for me to feel full and whole and satisfied in my experience."
It says: "my happiness is YOUR responsibility."
It says: "my happiness is in YOUR hands."

Every thought that puts YOUR happiness in the hands of some perceived "other", a him, a her, a they, a that, "outside" of you, is misplacing ALL your innate power of being. You are giving your own power away each time you look to an apparent "other" to stand on their head just so that you can be happy, just so you can feel at ease about who you are and what this moment is for you.

This conditioned outlook argues incessantly and continuously for why this "other" person has to change and all the ways they have to change. It will go to lengths to make its point. Compromise. Argue. Defend. Attack.

"You're ruining my day" it says.
"You're not treating me right" it says.

This conditioned outlook, or ego if you want to call it that, is a practice in conditional living, conditional love, conditional being, conditional happiness...conditional EVERYTHING.

It's not a bad thing. It's just a pattern of thinking, a lens of perception, that is dis-empowering, that perpetuates insecurity and thickens the veil of separation.

A conditional view can never reveal the play behind the curtains.

So what about it? You are in charge of your thoughts. Not him. You are in charge of what energy you allow to build up within you. Not her. You are 100% responsible for your own unconditional happiness. Not them. You are in charge of how you see and experience this world. It is YOUR view for a reason. It is YOUR perspective for a reason. It is YOUR reality for a reason.

Life has never been about what he, she, they need to think, be, and do in order for YOU to experience happiness. It's always been about YOU. It's always revolved around YOU.

The empowered mind can step in at anytime and say: I'm in charge of my own happiness, you're off the hook!

In Play,

Tuesday, September 15

All My Boyfriends

It's true, all my boyfriends over the past few years have been of the invisible kind. The deep poets and mystics of timelines other than mine. I preferred their company, falling prey to the seductive scents that seep through their words. It moved me in ways no man on this plane did. I laid with them. I breathed them. I consumed them. And I let them consume me. All because they speak in a manner of speaking that leaves me bare...and exposed.

But I miss kissing actual lips. How long am I going to keep up this celibate life of a wandering mystic?

Maybe one of them will incarnate into the physical so I can make babies by day and fall to the arrow of his words by night. Maybe he'll be forceful enough to keep and hold my attention. Oh maybe, just maybe, he's already on his way to piercing my heart.

And maybe, just maybe, I too am a Magi's brilliant trick.


Your Divine Hallucination

Friday, September 11

Here It Comes

I can always feel it when change is in the air. The energy around me and within me changes. A slight shift. A subtle stirring that comes right before something appears either within me or in front of me to shake my world up like a little snow globe. I know this feeling. I have had it each time I was moved in some way to shift the path I'm on. Right before I decided to move to a different city to go to graduate school. Right before I decided to drop out of graduate school. Right before I got my dog Leela. Right before I decided to leave my job. Right before events conspired to give me the push I needed to go out to the west-coast. This stirring comes. It says "there's going to be a change".

It's like we're all built to feel the coming energies and shifts, just like animals can sense a weather change or feel when it's time to move this way or that way. We can feel the tides of our own transition points, for everything in life is connected. A decision that affects you miles and miles away can be felt if you're still enough within your being. There's no movement in this Universe that is hidden.

My left-brain says "but you're already moving across the country, what other change could you possibly experience right now?" I don't know left brain, I can only feel it enough to know it's a-comin' round the mountain. What I'd love to be able to do is see what this change looks like in advance like I can with some things. That would add to my list of super-powers.

Between now and then, whenever this then is, I'm just going to continue to go through my boxes of things and recycle, chuck, donate, or sell the stuff I never use. I'm down to three boxes and two suitcases but the lighter my load, the easier my trek out to the west-coast. I'm still praying for a road-trip buddy so I can enjoy the journey and take it slowly. For some reason, time has slowed down drastically in my world too! I still have three weeks of living out of boxes. Wouldn't it be nice to press the fast-forward button and get to the part where I breathe out the words...Hello, Ocean my old friend!

in Suspended Animation,

Tuesday, September 8

Dare To Believe

We tend to assume that there is one world "out there" outside of us. That we are observing an outside world unfolding, becoming, shifting, transforming, external to where we are and what we are. But there really is only the world we agree upon, the consensus reality we create. There really is only the world we say exists. There are many people who still allow outside information to tell them what the world is, what the state of this world is, what's happening, where it will go and how it will unfold. Most people have given away their power to create the world they'd like to experience. Most people are allowing a selected group of individuals to determine not only what they're going to experience in their economic reality, but what they will experience in their own physical body. All the while they have given their integral power away to allow someone "out there" to decide the shape of their own destiny and path. You cannot feel like you live in a secure and caring Universe when you've given away the power to shape your own life, your own body, your own path.

Each time a being rises to break free of this psychic conformity, we call them enlightened. We specialize them. We say they are one of a kind. But not in this day and age. The world I see and live in is catching fire with Beings taking their power back. Beings who are rejecting information in the recognition that they can within themselves create exactly the kind of world they want to participate in. Not because they pushed against the information being fed through the mediums of psychic control, but because they turned inward and saw first hand that they are and have forever been Giants in physical form.

My destiny is not apart from the world I perceive, and the world I perceive is the world I create. My perception is my contribution, my point of view, one of over 6.9 billion human perspectives. Which world am I paying attention to? The world I'm creating with Beings awake to their power of focus. We don't sit around and talk about what's wrong with the world. Right and wrong are only conditions we create. We sit around and talk about this paradise in which we live. Where beauty, abundance, and spontaneous magic are flooding our paths faster than the speed of light. We are the super heroes of our own Universe waiting on no one and believing no one but our own Inner Giant.

My vision is my leader. Who's yours? Who is your commander?

In each moment of a human's evolution is a decision point to stand in a place of power breaking away from mass consciousness and consensus reality to create and walk the vision born in their hearts. The trail blazers of our Universe are those who say "no, actually that's not the way it is" to every fictious fact offered about the state of this malleable reality.

Plastic is not plastic, it is energy. If we dared to dream, it would evaporate right before our eyes. Space is not space but an idea we've fabricated. The sun is not the sun, nor is the Ocean what we think it is. Water is not water if we'd just look past the appearance of all matter. Laws can change in an instant, in a blink of an eye, in no-time at all. Abundance is the way of the Universe. Nothing ever runs out, it will never run out. If you dare to believe.

I dare.

You cannot bring a vision into a reality by walking the path that everyone else is walking, by allowing other's to tell you what's true and unfolding as this Universe. You are a decision maker in this moment sitting on the throne of your own perspective. You are not only the authority of your life but a contribution to where we go from here. Your choice in each moment is what you're going to let lead you. Your fears implanted by old paradigms? Or your vision of infinite possibility?

Life unfolds based on the feedback and energy each one of us contribute. Which world are you in? Which world are you authoring?

in Space,

Monday, September 7

It's Go TIME

The part I remember CLEARLY is the part where you fall out of the plane and flip so that as you do your eyes catch the belly of the plane flying over you. That part went in slow motion for me. That part is when I realized just how many amazing possibilities there are if you'd just trust and take that step. 10,000 feet felt like magic. Leaping felt more like gliding, sitting back and enjoying swaying to the left and swaying to the right feeling nothing but ease and wonder. I got to spend the day with some of the most amazing beings within my reach. Sky divers are magic!

Sky High,

Love In Total Fusion

Like a Light House
in the distant horizon we stand
One opening to Love
One Song as Two Hearts

I reside in You
You reside in Me
- Kidest M.

Where does the concept of the one true and exact match, the divine unit, the true tonal mate, the twin flame (the blah blah blah) come from? As the scenes pass on, this information has been streaming to me, trying to catch my attention in ever expanding detail. Thank you. I appreciate much of it, and discard the one's based on a dualistic explanation of what relationships are. The illusion of two-ness, of a you and an-other uniting is yet another distortion of dualistic perception, in MY view. But this morning an article found me that's a little more at my speed (despite the Judeo-Christian semantics).

What do I know? What's my speed? That point of fusion with ALL of Life, the true Yoga, the Union births the recognition that the appearance of an-other is a total illusion. It is YOU in that body you perceive belonging to an-other. You are not trying to love another. You are not trying to receive love from another. You are not searching for and seeking a soulmate. You are mating with your own Soul every where. You are indivisible Love appearing in the illusory dance of division. You are the Undivided One. You are me! In MY view.

And knowing the energy vortex this opens up first hand, my desire to understand this concept of MELDING and FUSING with everything,  expanding into the One is a delicious itch at the moment.

The minute I heard my first love story
I started looking for you,
not knowing
how blind I was
Lovers don't finally meet somewhere
They're in each other all along

Lovers are not only in each other all ways, they are each other in every way. In your Singularity through all bodies, You are an Ecstatic Expression of Being Love.

I had a vision of suchness, an incredible image and feeling that I don't know how to illustrate.

A tidbit from the article:

"...Make continual decisions to feel ecstasy, love, and gratitude for if you do nothing else, these decisions will change everything. Give forth, without limit, God's perfect love from the river of life. The "getting" will take care of itself as what you give out multiplies and is returned to you. You need not put any attention at all upon the "getting." 
What a miracle it is to be alive!
Until you live in praise, continual praise for that miracle, you will not be in right relationship to life.
When the light within you becomes as great as this glorious light that God/All That Is continually sends to you, then the Circle of Life is complete. There are worlds within worlds within worlds, within you, every one of which will then be free, free to live the ecstatic expression of giving life.
This is freedom. This is what it means to be home in God, to recognize life and honor it.
You and your Twin Flame are the generators of the substance of Love. You're the heart cells of GOD. You are meant to accept God's living love from the Moment of Creation – a never ending explosive expression of who and what God is. You are meant to accept this love, to take it and feel it and then amplify it – to CREATE MORE LOVE. The Great Love-Making. Then this love pours forth from you to nourish all within your keeping, giving God's love to feed all creation the substance of life."

I'll be first in line to sign up to giving love every which way!

Sunday, September 6

Forever One

You wear your soul as your skin
Bright and beautiful
True and desiring
And I am aspiring
To what we are

One moment in Eternity
One Universe
Enacting the play of the Gods

Skin to skin and palm to palm
We have always been One

Saturday, September 5

You Deserve

You deserve to feel love just because you exist.
You deserve to feel appreciated just for who you are.
You deserve to feel taken care of and provided for.
You deserve to feel completely adored by Life itself.
You deserve to feel like you are valuable.
You deserve to feel like you matter.
You deserve to feel like your existence IS your contribution to this world.
You deserve to feel miraculous.
You deserve to feel magical.
You deserve to feel magnificent.
You deserve to feel that you are worth the entire Universe.
You deserve to feel like the entire Universe will do anything for you.
You deserve to feel like you have power in your life.
You deserve to feel like you are seen and noticed.
You deserve to feel like you have help you can count on.
You deserve to feel relief.
You deserve to feel like everything's okay and will be okay.
You deserve to enjoy being alive in this world.
You deserve to feel spoiled by Life.
You deserve to feel totally fulfilled and satisfied.
You deserve to feel like your worth is measureless.
You deserve to feel like you are meaningful to Life itself.
You deserve to feel like you have loved one's looking out for you and looking after you.
You deserve to feel like you don't have to do it ALL all by yourself.
You deserve to feel like you're doing enough.
You deserve to feel like you ARE enough.

You deserve...

There are times when old conditioning flares up, where contracted consciousness gets stirred and throws you into a fit of insecurity. In those instances reach for thoughts that will help you climb right back into expansiveness, into Love, into security.


Go placidly amid the noise and haste,
and remember what peace there may be in silence.
As far as possible without surrender
be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly;
and listen to others,
even the dull and the ignorant;
they too have their story.

Avoid loud and aggressive persons,
they are vexations to the spirit.
If you compare yourself with others,
you may become vain and bitter;
for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.
Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.

Keep interested in your own career, however humble;
it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.
Exercise caution in your business affairs;
for the world is full of trickery.
But let this not blind you to what virtue there is;
many persons strive for high ideals;
and everywhere life is full of heroism.

Be yourself.
Especially, do not feign affection.
Neither be cynical about love;
for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment
it is as perennial as the grass.

Take kindly the counsel of the years,
gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune.
But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings.
Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.
Beyond a wholesome discipline,
be gentle with yourself.

You are a child of the universe,
no less than the trees and the stars;
you have a right to be here.
And whether or not it is clear to you,
no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.

Therefore be at peace with God,
whatever you conceive Him to be,
and whatever your labors and aspirations,
in the noisy confusion of life keep peace with your soul.

With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams,
it is still a beautiful world.
Be cheerful.
Strive to be happy.

Max Ehrmann, Desiderata, Copyright 1952.

Not only are you a child of the Universe, but you are the Universe itself.

Be Easy,

Tuesday, September 1

True Compassion

Def'n of Compassion: "Deep awareness of the suffering of another coupled with the wish to relieve it."

TRUE compassion is actually seeing through the veil of suffering into WHO this apparent sufferer REALLY is. See through the mask and that sight alone will pierce through the illusion of suffering, and the illusion of the sufferer.

That which appears to suffer and That which relieves the suffering is really One and the same No-Thing.

What lens you look through will always determine who you see. The light that transforms is the Light that knows there is nothing to transform.

I see You.


Baby Smiles as Meditation

You know when you're having a frazzled day and something pops up in your face to get you to slow down, get back to earth, and just remem...