Tuesday, March 31
it will never feel good to see another as separate and apart from you! and that's exactly what you do when you look at them and put them in all sorts of conceptual boxes.
it's unnatural to our being to do anything other than love.
if you ever pay attention to how you feel in the moment you are thinking thoughts contrary to love and appreciation for another being, you will FEEL the discord within yourself. you will FEEL the separation you're creating. you will FEEL the boundaries you are creating within our inherent unity through the thoughts you are thinking.
it's utterly intolerable to not love someone if you're sensitive to your inner environment.
love is the most natural thing there is. it flows ever so freely and abundantly within us and it's only goal is to pour itself out into everything around us.
love is the easiest thing there is to feel.
because it's what we are.
and anytime we think thoughts contrary to it...we limit and constrict the flow of this intoxicating energy.
Monday, March 30
I made a few stops along the way smiling at the words on the magazine cover, and the words in the flyer posted on street lights, knowing full well that I'm always in the company of pure magic.
Things have been going amazingly well, the right words finding me, the right person with the right name coming into view...everything just carries on in an unpredictable way all the while maintaining its magic and warmth.
And lately everything's just been falling into place in the most elegant of ways. Solutions appearing before there's even a problem. Answers coming before I've even formulated the question. A beautiful groove is making itself a part of my moments.
I got to my destination and we did what we usually do when we get together. We laugh. We talk. We share. We play the movies in our heads for one another. Poo flinging Monkey's, stoner movies, hawaii, and dancing animated creatures all made the conversation list.
Then it happened. The loveliest thing I ever get to witness and be a part of in this life. Magic. One of my love shines found out she was the recipient of an unexpected scholarship. Just like that, the tone of the day got even higher than it already was. Her joy and disbelief turned themselves into tears while her words followed up with "it just feels like it's too good to be true".
It's too good NOT to be true!
Everything to me is an affirmation of just how good life is. And when life drives me to walk into scenes like that, scenes that are heart warming to begin with, but end up becoming MORE than anticipated, my heart just reaches new places in appreciation and total love of this beautiful life.
I'm so thankful for these moments.
I'm so thankful that I got to be a part of someone's excitement.
I'm so thankful life gives me so many opportunities to truly feel the magic of everything here.
I'm equally thankful that the volume button on my laptop just decided to work.
Magic happens. ALL the time!
deeply in Love,
Thursday, March 26
i went out for a nice hot cup of goodness with a lovely friend last night, only to look into my saucer of soy goodness and remember my I Am Thriving vegan cream of broccoli experience at Cafe Gratitude.
I can't stop thinking about that place. And it feels really good to think about all the possibilities.
i'd LOVE to open a place like that. i'd LOVE to materialize my knowing into an environment of warmth and plenty serving not only delicious food, but delicious energy. WHOLE service. a place that embodies everything i know and writes it up on the walls.
MY LIFE IS A PICTURE OF MY ATTITUDES.
MY LIFE IS A PICTURE OF MY THOUGHTS.
i spent all of my saturday with someone who lived in San Fransico for 10 years. I spent the majority of last night talking about how I love California and how amazing the energy of that place was. and today I caught myself looking at flights once more.
I can't get you out of my mind San Fransico and the Universe knows it.
Life is so abundant with possibilities and I love riding my dreams all the way to my glorious destinations.
Life IS a JOY ride!
Monday, March 23
i still find the connecting on a certain energy level... fascinating
me: it's the beauty of being vibrational beings
when you think that we are just physical solid matter, the idea of simultaneous thinking doesn't make sense...like having the same thought at the same time
Wendy: as in the concept of simultaneous thinking makes sense on an energy level, not physically
me: but when you think of everything as fluid all-present consciousness, expressing itself through these energetic systems we call "bodies" then the idea that the same thought is expressed at the same time makes sense
Wendy: well.. physically, we're all more or less the same (same working organs etc.) but we're vastly different in our thoughts
me: if you saw us as solid pieces of hardware, it makes no sense
we're very similar in what we think, only the sequence of thoughts is varried
like how we think our thoughts is different, but we all think the same kinds of thoughts in different arrangements
Wendy: true. the sequence of thoughts is enough to give us our each unique experience
me: that's what makes as relate to one another easily
we all have access to the same thoughts, we just access them in different order
even on different energy levels.. you would say we have access to the same thoughts?
me: when you raise your frequency up to a certain level, you access ALL thoughts of that frequency range that have ever been thought
if you still your mind enough, you can access the thoughts Buddha thought
nothing is off limit to you
no thought is hidden from you
what you access is all a matter of what you tune yourself to
Wendy: so essentially it's which frequency we choose to tune to....
Wendy: i can access both the most negative to the most positive thought
Wendy: depending on which i bring my attention to, in a way
just like a radio
or a tv
me: all radios and tv's can broadcast the same program
me: just a matter of what channel you turn them to
Wendy: that brings the whole concept of potentiality too.
me: just a matter of where you set the frequency dial to
everything, every possibility is right now streaming for you
which possibility you access is entirely contained in what you're tuned into
me: right now, right where you are
past and future are different frequency streams
meaning, they are thoughts you think
Wendy: (haha.. i'm getting an aha moment)
me: i love those!
that's why your present moment is so powerful
it is the point at which you can access EVERYTHING
Wendy: and present is different from each of those as well?
me: the sense of presence is
meaning the space of right now
this is where you access everything from
Wendy: true.. we live in the present moment.
me: but like everything else, what you access right now can change easily
Wendy: and we interact with the world in the present
me: if you tune yourself to joy right now, the sequences of scenes your experience will be of a different feeling
right now is where you really live and interact and read energy
Wendy: definitely. i've experienced that myself too.
me: just right here and right now. that's all that's ever on your plate
every possibility is here
and you can check it
Wendy: check it?
me: 'cause if in one moment you're in anger and then work your way up to joy, you'll see how everything around you changes exactly according to your own state
make note of how you experience the world and what you evoke in people when you're in a mood
the universe is always mirroring to you your own frequency
Sent at 9:38 AM on Monday
Wendy: i've definitely had days when i started being more difficult, but then made efforts to change my own internal state... and the rest of the day changed
me: so the outcome you experience when you're in joy is simultaneously existing with other outcomes you can possibility experience. just like 101.2 FM is a simultaneous broadcast to 93.9FM
Wendy: timing is playing with me today, so i see interesting things going on the rest of the day... we'l have to see
me: and ti's always like that
you set the tone of your day
but it's not fixed
Wendy: definitely not.
me: you can change your dial at any point deliberately and as a result change what comes to you
Wendy: it's very much fluid.
Wendy: for me, i think it's most difficult to do that when i'm in the company of people that trigger certain sets of emotions.
me: that's why you pre-pave
Wendy: often because of a long history.. ex: friends from high school or family
me: meaning clean that up when you're not around them
Wendy: true. and then it'll become easier to continue that way with them around
me: meaning start practicing better feeling thoughts about them in their absence
yes, you will have tuned yourself to tune into a different aspect of t hem
we're all multi-faceted beings
meaning someone in a bad mood is going to receive you differently than someone in a good mood.
what you're feeling has nothing to do with them
it has everything to do with what thoughts you've practiced about them
so anytime you see them, you see them through the thoughts you've practiced
so naturally that's what you experience - the negative emotion
Sent at 9:43 AM on Monday
Wendy: and if all beings are able to access all thoughts, essentially, then their response to the frequency that i have at that moment with them will change as well
it's the type of interaction you bring to them, in a way...
and the way the universe works
is that you'll never interact with someone who can't match how good you feel about them
meaning if you're having these positive thoughts about someone, and that someone is in a really really negative place, the two of you won't come together
like attracts like
so you'll only see them when they're in your frequency vicinity
ever have people drop out of your life? it's that. you started stabilizing in different frequencies
Wendy: that's really interesting.
me: it's a perfect design
no need to end relationships or try to mend them
when you keep yourself in check
the things that are a match to you show up
and those that are not fall away
i'm experiencing that more and more
and i don't question it
Wendy: and it's that natural aspect of continuing on with your life... there's no emotional attachment (guilt, etc.)
me: 'cause now i know it's all about the energy or frequency i'm constantly tuning into that determines who i'm going to meet
all those practiced patterns
the clinging etc.
all of that is human misunderstanding
Wendy: it's unnecessary
me: it isn't
Wendy: we enjoy making it convoluted
me: everything has a natural rhythm and freedom to it
i was watching a documentary
Wendy: haha.. it does...
ya.. haha. i love documentaries
me: about how this type of chimp where the mother just drops off the baby chimp and takes off after a certain time
there's no attachment
there is no clinging
Wendy: it's just natural
me: there is just a total knowing and trust in the process
and we're a part of that natural knowing
we've only "convoluted" the process with our insecure concepts
"oh how can you leave me" is so utter nonsense
in essence, they've already left..
even if not physically
me: because we are all born so completely whole with all the right equiptments
it's just that, he or she was never yours to begin with
me: beings come together in freedom
as independent and whole beings
there's no clinging or possesiveness in any of it
Wendy: and that's what a true relationship is
me: you don't see that kind of pattern ANYWHERE else in this universe
Wendy: right... it's unnatural. it defies how we're built and how we function
me: that's what ALL spiritual teachings try and point you toward, your freedom to just be and evolve with your natural impulses. you come into this world and you leave this world as a whole individual
it's suffocating to be held as a possession
but that's what we practice
"until death do us part"
what if you grow apart?
me: what if you evolve differently?
Wendy: haha.. i've always had issues with that line too
Wendy: why shouldn't your relationship give you the freedom to evolve...
me: at best you can say "i'd love it if we evolve together"
Wendy: haha.. exactly
but if you don't, then that's ok
me: we have this "if i'm stuck in a rut you have to be stuck in a rut with me" mentality
Wendy: it's so true!
but it's so wrong
me: 'cause love means we suffer together!
Wendy: why would you give someone else a negative experience that's separate from your own?
me: it's an incredibly flawed premise
Wendy: i've always thought that way too!
me: it doesn't encourage growth
everything around you is growth-oriented
me: but the relationships we practice are "let's be like this forever"
EWW LET'S NOT
let's grow! let's change! let's expand!
Wendy: haha! YES
we're constantly adapting.. no single day is the same as the next
Wendy: and we wouldn't want it to be that way
me: no single moment is the same as the next
there's so much to say about it
it taps into the convoluted-ness that we build up.. the possession, suffering, etc.
and i think anyone who sort of stops and asks "does this relationship make me feel free" will find the answer
"oh but relationships are about compromise"
Wendy: it's like a so-called happiness defined by society.. but that doesn't fit with the individual.
me: do you see the air compromising or the ocean or the animals?
Wendy: ooh.. compromise.
me: everything here is true to its nature
to its individual nature
AND THAT'S what creates the harmony
me: harmony comes as a result of the individual being WHOLE and true to its purpose
to its being
me: i can't imagine if the trees compromised themselves or the ocean compromised its true nature to accommodate something else
Wendy: it would be a wacky world.
Sunday, March 22
i have the most amazing beings in my view. incredible beings who are pushing out the boundaries of “physicality” paving the glorious and bright road of things to come. beings challenging the idea of fixed-ness and deliberately embodying new ways of defining this reality and everything that appears within it. beings manifesting the unthinkable! beings doing their voodoo two-point touching magic to your delightful wonderment. beings demonstrating for all eyes that THIS life is NOT as has been taught to be. beings quantum leaping into dimensions of limitlessness eagerly and readily. beings shedding the shackles of limited thought and embracing the expansive beauty of the Infinite within.
marvel at your-Self. you are AH-MAZING! and i am thankful beyond words for what you're unveiling.
we are the rebels jumping off the leading edge!
Tuesday, March 17
i was watching an eight hour presentation that was talking about the planetary shifts (or likely galactic shifts) of current times which are causing Aurora Borealis to be seen by places near the equator.
up until this decade, the light show was concentrated in the north and south poles only. and what's fascinating is, is this display of gaseous artistry occurs on other planets too. rad!
and while i love the idea of Sun spots actually being black holes, hollow planets, tetrahedron power crystals, jupiter igniting into a second sun, and space travel through black-hole-portals, i laughed more at the symbolism.
our world. our universe. our galaxy. our Mind. our making. nothing is as final as it's said to be. so the more you chill out and take it easy, the more you're a part of the smooth transition of the times.
everything is energy. everything is flow. everything is connected at its singularity point. you can relax and be a part of it, or you can do the freak-out dance and disturb your own equilibrium. in any case, it's not personal. what you think and how you take in all vibrational data affects you first and foremost. reality is as you choose to experience/interpret it regardless of the collective movie being scripted.
and funnily enough, as you open yourself up and trust the intelligence of this design, you'll no doubt be flying shotgun in the magic of the times.
right into space. right through this space.
these are amazing times. we're making fantastic fireworks!
Sunday, March 15
I offer obeisance to the God and Goddess,
The limitless primal parents of the universe.
They are not entirely the same,
Nor are they not the same.
We cannot say exactly what they are.
How sweet is their union!
The whole world is too small to contain them,
Yet they live happily in the smallest particle.
These two are the only ones
Who dwell in this home called the universe.
When the Master of the house sleeps,
The Mistress stays awake,
And performs the functions of both.
When He awakes, the whole house disappears,
And nothing at all is left.
Two lutes: one note.
Two flowers: one fragrance.
Two lamps: one light.
Two lips: one word.
Two eyes: one sight.
These two: one universe.
In unity there is little to behold;
So She, the mother of abundance,
Brought forth the world as play.
He takes the role of Witness
Out of love of watching Her.
But when Her appearance is withdrawn,
The role of Witness is abandoned as well.
He assumes the form of the universe;
He is left naked.
If night and day were to approach the Sun,
Both would disappear.
In the same way, their duality would vanish
If their essential Unity were seen.
In fact, the duality of Shiva and Shakti
Cannot exist in that primal unitive state
From which AUM emanates.
They are like a stream of knowledge
From which a knower cannot drink
Unless he gives up himself.
Is the sound of AUM divided into three
Simply because it contains three letters?
Or is the letter 'N' divided into three
because of the three lines by which it is formed?
So long as Unity is undisturbed,
And a graceful pleasure is thereby derived,
Why should not the water find delight
In the floral fragrance of its own rippled surface?
It is in this manner I bow
To the inseparable Shiva and Shakti.
A man returns to himself
When he awakens from sleep;
Likewise, I have perceived the God and Goddess
By waking from my ego.
When salt dissolves,
It becomes one with the ocean;
When my ego dissolved,
I became one with Shiva and Shakti.
Jnanadev (1275 - 1296)
Friday, March 13
I've kept them all
I've given a lot of thought of how to write
you back this fall
With every single letter in every single word
There will be a hidden message about a
girl that loves a boy
Tuesday, March 10
Anytime you focus on a thought, you draw more thoughts of that same frequency to yourself. So the story gets bigger. The content gets more elaborate. It gets more complex. It starts to seem like you're finding some deep hidden truth. It starts to seem like you're uncovering some hidden secret. But what you're actually doing is creating a truth.
Anything you focus upon, any thought you repeatedly think, becomes encoded in your being. It becomes part of your way of seeing this pool of neutral vibrational information. There are no facts. There are no truths. There are only thoughts you have repeatedly thought. There are only thoughts you've programmed yourself with. There are only thoughts you've tuned into to the point of creating a network of thoughts of like frequencies that you now look through.
How do I know this to be true? I don't. I don't know anything. Take away thought, and I'm left standing naked. Empty. Unknown. This is only the model of reality that I'm creating. These are the thought-frequencies that I'm gathering around myself. Are they real? Are they pointing to a universal truth? Nope. There are no universal truths. Only thoughts each being thinks into a truth. How do I know? I don't.
But I'm having fun telling the story of reality this way!
Monday, March 9
i want every word that ever comes out of the beings in my view to reveal the wonder of their infinitely glorious being-ness. true story. your ownership of your Light is the most delicious thing to take in. that's true upliftment. that's true empowerment.
it amazes me just how "natural" we've made our tendency to self-depreciate. it's amazing to me just how well we've trained ourselves into tolerating thoughts that diminish the power of our inner light. sometimes it's just a passing phrase, something we've said thousands and thousands of times. some self-effacing thought we've conditioned ourselves to believe is just part of being human. something we say casually and nonchalantly.
but that energy, that frequency, that practiced thought which implies that you are less than, that you are not worthy of, or that you are incapable of or undeserving of, is exactly the very frequency that pinches you off from feeling the full force of the bliss-filled love that you truly are. every dis-empowering belief that lurks is saying something completely untrue, it is saying something that only serves to pinch you off from your Inner Self.
Love is the Sole Reality, and if in any moment you are feeling anything less than that for your very being and everything that extends thereafter, there is only one reason. it is the very thought you entertain and may have even convinced yourself is normal that is at the root of your seeming disconnection.
You are Love in every way. and it is total ecstasy when you let That flow through you. and your allowing that is the most important part of "being human".
Sunday, March 8
life and the experience of it starts with these bodies...but it's also entirely taking place WITHIN them also.
everything about the human body fascinates me. how did it come to be? this brilliant gathering of cells that register vibration the way that they do...this brilliant gathering of trillions of living cells that first began as just a single cell...this gathering of light that appears as this palpable solid thing...how did all of this bubble into being?
i have these eyes that are so well designed to allow me to see dimensions and depths of colors in such an elegantly constructed way that i forget that what's before me is all vibratory information. that all i'm seeing is a light show of varying degrees. i remember standing at the top of a mountain not long ago, taking in the gorgeous view of the trees that descended below me. i remember looking up at the sky and feeling like i had accomplished something. something big. and in that moment, i wasn't appreciating that i had eyes to see, to take it in. it didn't even occur to me to ponder what it was i was really looking out at.
but right now when i look back at that memory and so many others, that is all i can think of. i HAVE these amazing things called "eyes" on this funny gathering of light called my "head", and it is because i have them, and because they are the brilliance that they are, and because there is this funny gooey thing called a brain inside my head, that i get to take in so much of this delicious life.
all vibration. all frequency. all light. all MAGIC i say!
ears that register a wide range of sounds. tongues that differentiate flavors, a mouth that salivates for all things sweet and sour. teeth that chomp and nibble at all things delicious...including ears.
there is so much that these bodies do, so much that they carry on in such an effortless way that it's easy to forget that the magic of life begins before you even see an outside world. electrical firings. cells communicating. frequency receivers and broadcasters.
what brilliant organic devices are these things?!?
that everything is being constructed the way that it is...that everything is being projected in my own consciousness...the way the brain is assimilating all information...the way fluids are colliding and the way cells are morphing and registering frequencies...the magic starts at home deep within these brilliant temples of light!
life amazes me in ways i can't describe. but the amazement can only arise because there is a body to allow me to process things in such light...
it's all so pretty-full and rad!
quick, gimme a high-five for being as dazzling as you are!
Sunday, March 1
while listening to the moon
as she sings to me
that all to familiar tune
i'm dialed in
i'm turned on
and i'm letting it all come on through
as i watch it crash right into you
i'm getting everywhere with you
there are moments i wonder how it is that love can speak to me and reach me all the ways that it does. sky and stars. words and images. gestures and all the right phrases. endless magic orchestrated and coordinated. all in the details. all telling a story to my eyes.
this thing is such an elegant dance choreographed across unbounded distances. using every body to deliver the sweet comfort-filled message in just the right time and in just the perfect way. it touches me. deeply. it warms me. from the inside.
and the rest of it is so much more than "telepathy". it's so much more than anything i've ever known or witnessed. it's just so much more.
i so love the way it ALL crashes into me...
this design thrills me to no end. i'm thankful to know what i know. i'm thankful to have the ears to hear and the eyes to see. i'm thankful that i'm getting to experience the magic in the way that i am. how it fills my being is beyond words. how it colors my moments is beyond description. the way the littlest things arrange themselves to keep me smiling, the way the right words are spoken from someone else's lips, the way and the precise timing of the many things that show up, often leaves me sighing deeper...and the icing of it all is knowing with certainty it is THIS magical to your eyes also.
this dream is for swooners.
my heart adores That which delights in our joy. my heart adores That which revels in our happiness.
the light of love shines. for you stand in the eternal brightness all ways. you are whole and divine just as you are...where ever you are. and you are adored by That which pours through all.
inside the Love,
You know when you're having a frazzled day and something pops up in your face to get you to slow down, get back to earth, and just remem...
In your light I learn how to love. In your beauty, how to make poems. You dance inside my chest, where no one sees you, but someti...
You know when you're having a frazzled day and something pops up in your face to get you to slow down, get back to earth, and just remem...