Friday, February 29

every little thing is alright

friday is a day to quote this for friends: "do not look back. and do not dream about the future, either. it will neither give you back the past, nor satisfy your other daydreams. your duty, your reward-your destiny-are here and now"…let them worries and furies go my dear, and as you let the storm of thoughts settle, you'll see every little thing is alright right here and right now.

this post is brought to you by: hills bros english toffee cappuccino, the reason for my great sparkling cavity free smile and the pep in my skipitty step.

Monday, February 25

you come looky looky, eet eez very cheapy cheapy

"i got the monkey's, monkey see monkey do" sang a merchant on the beach...

i've officially been back for 12 hours and am breaking my 9-day internet absence.

image the south was a symphony of colors. the weather was very loving. the ocean a simple mirror of my inner condition. restless on top but calm and serene in its depths. i promised i'd come see it again. after all, if it wasn't for the Sea, i'd be one dried up pile of dust.

i'm sure i did more than this but...
i practiced my spanish (mainly "no no, estoy canadiense" as the locals assumed i was domincan and attacked me with spanish at 200 miles per hour).
i ran on the seashore.
i swam nakked in the atlantic. image
i did yoga on my balcony overlooking mountains and palm-trees almost every morning.
i read.
i mingled.
i hugged trees.
i fed a tiger.
i star-stared.
i rolled a cigar.
i ate pancakes every day.image

i had some sugarcane.
and i ate some more.
i rode a horse named sandy.
i danced with and hugged a dolphin.
i danced on stage. image
i danced at the "car wash."
i danced in my room...and naturally, i danced with You.
it was awesome.

currently, i look like i ran through a mud shower. my darkness shocked both my brother and my mother. but i'm not all dark. parts of my body now serve as flashlights while i'm in the shower. and with my newly earned stripes, i can only think...SWEET, I'M a zebra!

as my friend excessively complained about having to return this morning and said i ruined the closing video she was shooting with my enthusiasm for returning home (she wanted the more "boohoo" angle)...all i could think about was how it's impossible for me to be sad or miss scenes that have already passed.

those moments were beautiful while they were here and brought out a deep sense of gratitude from within. but that's where their beauty their present-ness. once they pass, all we long for is our memories of them...which is never a true and accurate reflection of what those moments really are.

to honor life is to be here now open to what's at hand. the past is just a light show the mind puts on. how and why we get so caught up in it and choose to cling to the past (whether it's beautiful or miserable) while totally ignoring the true peace and beauty of the moment at hand, is something i don't understand. how can i choose my restless imagination of what has already passed over the loveliness of what's immediately at hand?

Beauty is Present right here and right now. and to find the beauty that the present holds is to have uncovered the open secret that life constantly tries to pull you into. but alas, what can i do but shrug my shoulders and go "huh" when friends insist upon dwelling on their imagination.

just a few of the things i learned/discovered these past days image :

- my camera has some really cool features like "sunset mode"
- having an imaginary boyfriend can get you out of some sticky scenarios. i miss him a lot. i hope he calls soon.
- i love sugar and tea
- coincidences are the ways in which Life winks at you
- trees are awesome!
- i tan fast and burn only under the Southern Sun. in my 18 years in Canada, i've never gotten a sunburn. 7 days down South, and I'm peeling all over!
- i'm more than sure that when you take off your worry-hat, or better yet get rid of it altogether, this conditioned universe will give you everything you need in a very speedy manner. as i said to my friend repeatedly....everything happens for a reason, and everything has it's time. just let go and let Life flow. this vast expanse knows exactly what it's doing with this you...

i got more than i could have ever asked for on this trip. and this only solidifies the view i continue to grow into.

life's a dream yo. y esta vida es solamente el momento presente.

Dios te vendigas

Wednesday, February 13

Forbidden Duality

(Picutre --- Electronic Paintings of Sabin-Corneliu Buraga: "Forbidden Duality")
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when it is only the false
that falls prey to delusion
when it is only the false
that wanders aimlessly
how can anything be said
to be lost or found?

can you sacrifice illusion?
can you surrender a shadow?

selflessness is the only Reality
though your love for duality
makes it appear otherwise.

weapons of nonsense

all words are not else
but weapons of pure nonsense
traps laid
by an assembly of empty symbols
when the spinning reel of words ceases
when it is dropped or abandoned
the stories will dissipate
and it will be clear
that nothing has ever happened
no door has ever closed
and no one was ever left standing

* * * * *
“And when this unfathomable, infinite number of living beings have all been liberated, in truth not even a single being has actually been liberated." – Diamond Sutra

Tuesday, February 12


full of light
we shocked ourselves in the dark
it was then, that the dream shattered
and we realized
we were unbreakable

Monday, February 11

This Lucid Life

* * * * *
blindly sailing through your wakefulness
floating adrift your stream of concepts,
you waste time in darkness.
so it seems,
as time wastes you.

oh this waking-dream,
how it fools you so.

Thursday, February 7

the Great Pretender

(picture: "Triangular" by Sven Geier)
* * * * *

tell me friend
who is on a journey?
who is this "me" you insist upon?
the tellings of thought do not fabricate Truth.

tell me friend
what rests there behind the veil,
untarnished by the dance of these play things?

what will it take for you to be rid of these shadows?
what will it take for you to abandon
all your concepts and theories?

find me and tell me this dear friend.

Baby Smiles as Meditation

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