Tuesday, December 30

thanks universe!

i just got this email:

Wishes for you in year 2009-Anonymous

Great start for Jan,
Love for Feb,
Peace for march,
No worries for April
Fun for May,
Joy for June to Nov,
Happiness for Dec,
Have a lucky and wonderful 2009.

Making it Mine in 2009

"going anywhere in the new year" asked the lady on the phone. coincidentally, i had just received a postcard from India that same day reminding of my intention to see the beauty of so many places with my own eyes.

naturally, my answer is a resounding YES.

of course i'm traveling in the new year. i love seeing new places. new faces. smelling in new smells and landing my eyes on new visions. attempting to speak a different language. holding hands with a local for no other reason than that they grabbed my hand. smiling at the way everything is so similar and yet so different.

my luggage is already vibrating with excitement.

i'm known to just pack up my bags and pull a disappearing act. or better yet, announce i'm going on a trip the day before i leave and watch the bewilderment float across the faces of my loved so and so's. i don't mean to. i'm just not a plan-a-year-in-advance type of traveller.



opportunities come up. inspiration comes. the universe conspires. and flight prices end up being too cheap to call them just cheap. things happen. and as life moves me, i MOVE. it often provides the means and the way, and so there's nothing for me to do but get on that plane...or that train...and take in the adventure i have invited.

so yes. i'm going to LOTS of places in the new year. 2009 promises adventure. and love. and beauty. and inspiriation. and magic. and a million and one more reasons for me to continue to exclaim that life is beautiful!

why? because i intend and so project it that way. better yet...because i ALLOW it to flow into me and through me that way.

last year i fed a tiger and kissed a dolphin. this year i will tame one and kiss a star.

2009 WILL be divine
and i will Align to "make it all mine"(click on link and listen to Make It Mine)

i will dance. and i will sing.
and i will skip across this planet,
with nothing but joy in my being.

intend it. expect it. and so will it be.

this Life is absolutely Yours to live in the way of your choosing, your focusing, your intending...your allowing.

Thursday, December 25

Wednesday, December 24

she loves a lot



and so do i.

thanks for comin' into my inbox today standing in the hands of...oh, i'm not allowed to say!

Sunday, December 21

Raw Chewy Bars (Vegan Recipe)

Raw Key Lime Coconut Bars



Ingredients

* 1 cup raw cashews
* 1 cup dates
* 1 teaspoon lime zest, Zest before juicing
* 1 Lime, juiced
* 1 cup shredded (dehydrated raw) coconut

Preparation

1. Chop dates to make processing easier. If you don't chop them, they'll likely just spin around whole in your processor. Fun for them, yes. Not helpful for you though.



2. Process the nuts then add dates in a food processor until crumbly. If you want chunky nuts in your chewy bar then process nuts and dates together.

3. Add in lime zest and lime juice to your food processor. Then add the coconut.



4. Press mixture into a glass dish or tightly into plastic wrap in desired shape.

5. Refrigerate for an hour or more to let the flavors combine, and the bars to firm up.

Raw Chocolate Coconut Bars



Ingredients

* 1 1/2 cups raw cashews
* 1 1/2 cups dates
* 1 cup shredded (dehydrated raw) coconut
* 2 Tbs Cocoa powder

Preparation

1 & 2 same as key lime recipe.

3. Add in coconut and process. Then add cocoa powder and process until cocoa fully blends into the mixture.



4. Press mixture into a glass dish or tightly into plastic wrap in desired shape.

5. Refrigerate for an hour or more to let the flavors combine, and the bars to firm up.

Wednesday, December 17

you've got ether-mail

dearest mechanical bull,

of course i get the message! i get all the messages! i have a very reliable answering machine that records every thought, every wonderment, every stir. some call it God. some call it Universal Wireless Service. whatever the name, i always get the message. even if i pretend otherwise for my own entertainment.

we transcend all definitions. we transcend the foreplay of mediocrity. we transcend the customs and practices of a world based on limited ideas of what we are and what we can do.

this is a cosmic affair, wouldn't you know?!

so we're not doing it the way it's been done thousands and thousands of times. our freedom has no need for such constraints. our freedom is as vast as we make it to be, as cosmic as we allow it to be. our freedom is as unlimited as we create it to be.

we are, whatever we create ourselves to be.

be whatever you choose to be in this moment.
express yourself with no strings attached.
apologize not for what comes through you.
reveal yourself for your own enjoyment.
adore your moment because it's yours and yours alone.

move as you will, and move as you may, and let the outcome be whatever it will be.

life is beautiful, and it colors my view with everything that is you.


never not yours,
she who celebrates you

Tuesday, December 16

food for thought


(grapes & nuts = good?) (poutine = bad?)

from a lack-full perspective the world offers many many “truths” and continues to do so. but any "truth" about the conditions of this vibrational environment is only a thought that was once thought by a single individual perspective, a point of view, a point of consciousness, and repeatedly accepted to the point of it becoming a "belief", and then shared with the rest.

whatever truths there are about the body, were first just passing thoughts in the mind of one individual.

whatever conclusions there are about health, were first just passing thoughts in the mind of one individual.

whatever positions are held about bodily processes and needs, were first just passing thoughts in the mind of one individual.

that you need someone outside of you to monitor and determine the health of your body...is a truth in name only. it is a perspective that has been adapted across the board.

so here's another perspective.

everything is vibration first. that is the basis of the physical body. it isn't biology. it isn't genes. all these aspects emerge out of pure vibration.

so if there is dis-ease and disorder, it is a result of the discordance that is going on at the vibrational level of your being. resistance in the form of skewed thoughts.

it's about the thoughts you have thought. it's about the beliefs you have accepted. these are the basis of your physical bodily experiences. for thought is always at the root of everything you experience.

vibration, beliefs, trumps biology.
vibration, beliefs, trumps heredity.
vibration, beliefs, trumps genes.
vibration, beliefs, trumps diagnosis.

it isn't eating habits. it isn't drinking habits. it isn't the type of food you take in or how much you exercise or don't. it isn't about what's contagious. it isn't about vulnerability. it isn't about viruses. it isn't about decay.

these are all thoughts that have been formed into beliefs. and formed thought always manifests. so, it's about what thoughts you think about the various aspects of your physical life.

it is about what you have DECIDED is true.

what thoughts you think about the food you eat.

what thoughts you think about what the body needs.

what thoughts you think about what's good and bad for the body.

what thoughts you think about what health is.


all of these conclusions you've made, all of these beliefs that you've constructed are the reasons why your body is the way it is, and why your body responds to food and exercise the way that it does, and why your body reacts to its environment the way it does, and so on.

if you have repeatedly thought exercise works for you, it does. if you have repeatedly thought exercise won't work for you, it won't. if you hate exercise, guess what? you'll have a really tough time seeing lasting results. if you have concluded that yoga is your life savior, it is. if you have concluded that you are inflexible, you are. if you have repeatedly thought certain foods are bad for the body, they are. if you have repeatedly thought certain foods are best for the body, they are.

your body is not responding to the food. it is responding to what you THINK about the food. your body is ingesting your thoughts. that's the primary digestion that goes on in your being. your body will always conform to the beliefs you set in place on any subject, be it diet, exercise, or disease.

you have a mental story about every food group, about every bite you take, about everything that enters your body, about every physical movement you make, about every environment you come in contact with. there is a story in your mind about everything. and it's on loop. this is where the real shift needs to occur for you to see lasting and satisfying results.

"oh, i can't stand beside someone who is smoking, it will make me sick." and your body says "your thought is my command."


"oh this is going to go straight to my hips." and your body says, "your thought is my command."


"oh too much sugar is just bad for me." and your body says, "your thought is my command."

your thoughts make the condition true, for your body is very obedient to the thoughts you think. you can even say that your body and its conditions is the crystallization of the thoughts you've been thinking.

in reality your body can be, your body can do, and your body can have everything and anything deemed possible in this reality under any and all conditions. because it is pure vibration taking physical form in the likeness of the conditions you've set, and the conditions that you have set is the only commander of how your body manifests.

left alone, the body is unlimited in what it can become and in what it can do. the body is made up of these vibrationally based cells - the body is made up of infinite intelligence. these cells monitor and bring themselves into harmony, they can communicate with one another and with the Broader Unified Field without a single input or direction from this conscious you and all your conclusions. they are always asking for and receiving what they deem is needed directly from the actively flowing life force of this universe. they are always transmitting and receiving certain frequencies. they are constantly expanding and in a state of becoming. they are made of the same substance that brought this vast universe into being. they are made of the genius that formed all universes. so the body can take care of itself. really.

it flows the blood just fine. it distributes oxygen just fine. it communicates within itself and with the environment just fine. it morphed itself from a single cell into the trillions of cells it now stands at without any conscious direction from you and your thought-based conditions. you no more need to drive your body than you need to manually make the earth spin on its axis. these are processes carried forth from a Broader Vantage Point.

your body's natural ability to thrive is only obstructed with your scrutinized diets and tormenting eating habits - with your striving and struggled sweating. for it is the quality of your beliefs that ALLOWS your natural and exaggerated well-being, or that INTERFERES or OBSTRUCTS it. that is the only role your thoughts play - they either allow your innate well-being or they interfere with it - like the presence of gunk interferes with the flow of water through a canal.

your well-being or diminished sense of it has everything to do with the thoughts you've been entertaining and passively digesting, with the resistance you've been building as you continue to argue for your self-created limitations.

there is nothing you cannot think yourself into. there is nothing you cannot think yourself out of.

just food for thought. just another perspective.

Sunday, December 14

thou shall not use the F word on a sunday...

i was mulling over a conversation wondering what this self-diminishing tendency in the human is all about when i decided to forget about it and read my new book only to find these words:

And he said unto them, “within each of us lies the power of our consent to health and to sickness, to riches and to poverty, to freedom and to slavery. It is we who control these, and not another.”

A mill-man spoke and said, “Easy words for you, Master, for you are guided as we are not, and need not toil as we toil. A man has to work for his living in this world.”

excerpted from Illusions by Richard Bach

fine. i'll keep mulling over this nasty habit. oddly enough this "i am less than you" thing is a recurring track – this “you have something I don't have” story that's on loop in many minds.

what the frankincense?!!? that's right. i said the F word.

Existence did not say “go forth and diminish your self.” Reality did not say “go and conceive of yourself as less.”

if you could but see that you are of equal weight and of equal light to the greatness that you observe in all and through all, you will come to live that you are your own savior. you are your only savior.

you are much MUCH more than the greatness you think you see.

lift yourself up. turn the light on in your own mind.

Wednesday, December 10

joy is the key

i was reminding a friend that joy is a moment to moment choice that you make. and that with practice, you'll find it almost unbearable to be anywhere other than in Joy. in Love. in Peace. in Appreciation...in our Light...

i say so because it's what i've experienced. my days are brilliant because i set out to observe them that way. i set the tone and the standard of where my focus will land every day.

upon waking, i open my eyes in a sigh and say "oh life, i love how you love me!" and then i set the intention "today, no matter where i go, no matter what i do, no matter who i am with, i choose to see your endless goodness." it's a continuation of the conversation i was having with the invisible before sleep. i see the gifts of life everywhere. spread across my reality like my peanut butter is spread on my bagel this morning. thickly. and deliciously.



then i stretch ready to vibrate myself further into the best feelings i can find. i breathe to center myself and then i begin to appreciate my bed and my warm blanket and the beings that skip in and out of my life. the food in my fridge. the dog in my heart. the you my heart is sure of. i let my mind look at all the recent scenes that have brought a smile to my face. the words exchanged, the high-fives given, the visions seen, and the wonders uncovered.

before i know it, my heart is thumping river-dance style. i've started my motors with joy as my key. i'm ready for my day.

so if i were to say that i have a practice this would be it. i rev up my heart in joy every morning. i focus my mind deliberately to vibrate and so by the laws of this design to create a particular kind of day. i don't care about the specific scenes...only the feelings i choose to find in them.

and i do. i do find those feelings i so enjoy manifested in scene after scene.

this design is precise. frequency begets frequency. happiness begets happiness. joy begets you and your coworker doing a dance in your office to the amusement of another. and it's all about your choice of focus. so the reason why i have a skip in my step and love in my heart, is because i choose to focus on the beauty of this life. consistently. daily. deliberately. it's easy for this endless beauty is in view in every moment, in so many little ways and in so many big ways.

you have the freedom to set the tone, the vibe, of your every moment by consciously putting yourself in the very vibe you want to experience. if you're anchoring joy, nothing contradictory can come to throw you off. you get to choose your focus. you get to choose your reactions. you get to choose your life. you get to choose how you vibrate.

and the free stuff and big squishy hugs i end up getting, that's just the icing on the cake. 'cause at the end of the day...it just feels good to feel good!

in Love,

k.

riding the short waves


you are a brilliant gathering of vibrating intelligent particles in a vast vibrational environment. try saying that a hundred times.

and in this very moment, by the frequencies you are anchoring and cycling in your being, you are molding the life force of this design into the scenes of your tomorrow. you are calling forth more of this life force to manifest in the likeness of what you now cycle, believe, and accept within yourself.

love is a frequency. appreciation is a frequency. peace is a frequency. expectation is a frequency. hope is a frequency. frustration is a frequency. anger is a frequency. doubt is a frequency. criticism is a frequency.


it's all short waves and long waves. a continuum of colors.

there is not a thought-form you entertain, cycle, and hold onto that is not vibrating a certain way. there is not a feeling you hold within yourself that is absent of a specific frequency. there is not a word you utter that is void of vibration.

so sitting smack dab in eternity, this eternal Now, you sculpt your tomorrows, you color your days, through the thoughts you keep and the feelings you have about these thoughts that you keep - through the frequencies you anchor.

whatever you observe, whatever you entertain, whatever you think, whatever you express, in any moment affects or influences your dominant state of being - it affects your vibe. yes this includes TV and music and conversations and the endless lists of tasks you passively and actively participate in.

And it is this dominant state of being, vibe, state of mind that you create within yourself, that serves as the blue-print of what will unfold as your life and all that will come into it.

In any moment, you aren't just anchoring and expressing certain frequencies. You are creating and inviting more like them to come to you and through you also.

so what are you inviting into your life? what vibratory frequencies (thoughts & feelings) are you using to color it?

i just had a thought that said..."my thoughts are like crayons! magic crayons!" (alternate blog title: my thoughts are like magic crayons)

but coming back to you, your scenes, your life...i just want to ask, what waves are you choosing to ride?

just curious.

in Love,
-me

Monday, December 1

a Smile lights the Sky

(Hong kong: photo from hkdigit.blogspot.com)


Venus, Jupiter, and crescent Moon

(photo from: http://snow.gameshogun.ws/3science/the-heaven-smiles-upon-us)

Saturday, November 29

you're just not that into you

what you get has never had anything to do with him, her, or them. it always comes down to you and your relationship with you.

truth be told, it's that...



so though the catchphrase would say that it was another who was in charge of accepting, loving, and appreciating you, it's just not so. the world forever reflects your own vibration back to you. life only mirrors the essence of what you cycle within yourself.

the no-excuse truth to understanding your relationship with others is simple.


come to see the miraculous brilliance that you are, feel good about who you are and what you bring into this world, and the world and everything within it will come to reflect your corrected vision.

life adores you. you should catch up to that...

Thursday, November 27

freedom's seduction


(Art: Rassouli "PILGRIM OF PASSION ")

it is the pangs of this sublime loving
minds that feast on delusions but miss

it glides deep into the marrow of my soul
and unlocks the treasure chest of bliss

it takes me to that high estate
and seals my longings with a kiss

what great love, what rapturous power
the frail and counterfeit dismiss

and this Love abounds
and its might astounds
and it lifts all off unstable grounds

fly freedom.

inherit your Self.

Your Reigning Goddess

A force of light,
Swirling through ready minds
Like a hurricane

A movement of love,
Igniting open hearts
Like lightening
Striking sand

Stunning radiance
Eternal innocence

I am
Your reigning goddess

I am the dancing elements
Underneath your feet
I am the flame
Of that eternal heat
I am your Light
And yours alone
I am a reminder
Of your unchanging home

And we are
A brilliance unmatched by any
The face of eternity
Here collapsing duality
Revealing once and again
It takes No-Time
To live in Love

I'm always Here
I'm always Now
As I forever remain
Your goodness in reign

Wednesday, November 26

unconcealed



no thought is concealed. no thought is private. for all that you believe yourself to be, by nature is expressed in and as your environment. you do not hide yourself. you cannot hide the sequence of thoughts you entertain, identify with, and accept.

for the entirety of your life, your every moment, is the child of the thoughts you keep. the outer is an exact reflection of the inner world you carry everywhere you go. so if you're experiencing scenes that are conflict-ridden know that they are only so because of the conflicting focus within yourself.

nothing that isn't in the likeness of your vibration can come to you.

this world about you is insubstantial, and its apparent realness is only in the thoughts that birthed it.

by the very thoughts you keep or abandon, you can rise beyond the celestial heights of this dream-world, or you can drag yourself down to the torment of your own doing.

it is self-created and self-perpetuated. nothing that is facing you was imposed upon you.

that is the end of it all.

turn the light on for yourself. know your power.

taste your Self.

and then go have some ice scream.

Saturday, November 22

you are here now

i awoke to hear the words "i want to do this right."

my inner ear hears across vast distances.

so i whispered back "you have never done it wrong" knowing full well that the invisible wind will bring the reply on through.

the human mind reactive-ly steeps itself in ideas of rightness and wrongness. but the Greater Life sees no such things. in the eyes of the Great Beginning only your innocence shines bright.

can you see yourself through the eyes of God? can you view your untainted radiance right here and now?

have no regrets for you stand within the heart of a divine unfolding. you have no wrongs to right. you have no mistakes to fix. you have no words to take back. you have no steps to undo. no matter where you think you've been, no matter what you think you've come from, you begin anew in complete innocence right here and right now.

this moment right here is your beginning. nothing came before this. nothing!

the mental stories of past veil the brightness of your true nature. take hold of your power to Be Here and see the greatness that pulses as everything that you are. breathe your Self. cease letting limited thought define this undefinable and unlimited you.

you are much more than your thoughts of past doings allow you to be. let them fall away. stand in the immediate light of your eternal innocence.

you have never gotten it wrong. and you will never get it wrong. move and be with the sureness of your true name.

Friday, November 21

life feels soOo good!

we did it! and we're still doing it!

and it feels so good! it feels so good!



"in the not too distant time ahead
there is a way to get it done
without leaving your bed
there is a way to go to work
by using your head
it's the quirk of the network
of mind intent
just visualize
anything that you want
close your eyes
bring it up to the front
and realize.."

anything that you want can be yours at any time. there is nothing you cannot do. there is nothing you cannot be. there is nothing you cannot have.


you can live your dream. yes, you can.


life is gorgeous

Thursday, November 20

what a beautiful life!

i've been carrying happiness in between my steps and seeing just how contagious it truly is.

it doesn't take much to light a heart and takes even less to spread the light.

my inbox is flooded and my heart is trying to keep up with the ever growing well of goodness in which i exist.

my moments are perfect.

no wait, they're beyond perfect.

and the voice in my head seems to be learning a different kind of language. one of love, one of joy, one of that beginningless bliss...

may it constantly remind me just how much and how deeply i appreciate every fiber of what you are.
may i be reminded of the magnificence that pulses as everything you appear to be.
may i be constantly reminded of the purity of your beginning.
may i be reminded of You and You alone.

i'm given all the space i need, all the hours i request to be the very best version of myself. and when i turn my head, a smile comes to meet me. and then when i turn again, the sweetest wonder confronts me. then when i want to just be alone, everything dissolves again.

i am blessed, and i am loved deeply, not for anything i've done in this life, but for what i am - an offspring of a benevolent kind of love.


i will spend my every moment in deep adoration of this life.

it is the wonder of all wonders and the greatness of the greatest!

in Love,
me

Wednesday, November 19

be as you are

harm cannot come to you. weariness cannot befall you. for in the power of your true nature, such things do not live.

Existence thrives. the Great Reality thrives.

don't you know who you are? don't you know what all this is? you cannot taste the invincibility of your Beginning by subscribing to the manifestations of an insecure idea.

you cannot not let appearances dictate to you what this world and all that is within it is. do not submit to the conclusions of insecurity.

you who rests higher than the highest ideas, Be As You Are. for only then will the errors you perceive melt right before your eyes.

all is well.

Sunday, November 16

forever

It's you, and me
Movin' at the speed of light into eternity
Tonight, is the night
To join me in the middle of ecstasy
Feel the melody and the rhythm of the music around you

...We can go anywhere
Go anywhere
But first, it's your chance
Take my hand
Come with me

...Feels like we're on another level
Feels like our loves intertwined
We can be two rebels
Breakin' the rules
Me and you
You and I

All you gotta do is watch me
Look what I can do with my feet
Feel the beat inside

...It's a long way down
We're so high off the ground
Sendin' for an angel to bring me your heart
Girl where did you come from?
Got me so undone
Gazin' in your eyes got me sayin'
What a beautiful lady
No ifs ands or maybes
I'm releasin' my heart
And it's feelin' amazing
There's no one else that matters
You love me
And I wont let you fall
Let you fall girl (ahh ohh oh oh yeah)
Yeah, I wont let you fall...

Forever ~ C.B. (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X2IExa2A198)

Friday, November 14

your warm december...

this place i'm in...the responses that come to conversations from here...it's something more than my mind imagined.

life blesses me with a steady heart and a patient gaze in knowing that you dwell in wellness...even if you don't yet know this yourself.

it remains...you can only live your dream when you've become that dream. you can't experience your ideals from a place of lack, doubt, and disappointment. you can't meet and revel in all that you've become, when you're fogging up your imagination with worry and self-frustrations.

you defy your Self every time you doubt your dreams...every time you look at the past your mind constructs. you defy all that you have expanded into when you doubt the goodness of what confronts you in your visions and expansive projections.

the beauty of this life and your powerful place in it stands and stares you in the face...but you cannot meet its gaze or recognize it if you're busy looking at the past constructing stories of all that you've done wrong or all that that's gone wrong. you have done no such wrong. relieve yourself of such thoughts. watch the stories you weave in your mind. shift your focus. come into range.

you must always catch up to the ever-expansive Self within. all answers rest there. all satisfaction lives there. and There is where you will know love again...only in a way you have never known. a love that will stay with you until the very end. this is the love of your dreams.

catch up to your Self. forget everything else. forget everyone else. align yourself with your Self. life will floor you. for life has always dreamed a brighter dream for you than can be seen from the view of that misaligned you.

i can't even begin to describe the goodness that's lined up outside my door. ever since i started listening to the call of eternity...the good just gets better...my smiles just get wider...and laughter finds me 'round every corner.

become your dream. be your Self. align.

know that i love you not for what you do or say, but for all that you are. what's truly more though is...God...Existence is in constant adoration of you. and IT is the only thing that deserves your loyalty and attention. IT is the source of your every fulfillment and happiness.

life is magnificent...and snowflakes await my kisses.

kiss yourself for me.

blogged from the future.
your December

Thursday, November 13

i'm a love fern

a great power pulses behind every one of my cells. and i apparently sit amidst the trillions of cells without location. who am i? what's to say what i am? a consciousness, i am, so i'm told. but even this string of letters fails to satisfy. another concept offered. so many concepts offered. human. love. beauty. woman. daughter.

which of them is the real you?

"i am a love fern" is as true as all the rest.

(my rendition of a love-fern. my branches are just beginning...)

does it mean something less?

who am i before the conceptual definitions? what am i prior to all the letters we assemble together and sound in our noise making?

the buddha asked "where in your body are you?" in one of the sutras. and you have to wonder...which of these trillions of cells that make up the body carry you? which particle in motion brings to life that apparent sense of self and the story it faithfully unfolds? how are these particles different from the air particles, the earth particles, the sun particles? where in this universe are you?

life gives you no location. the stream of focus that beams out from these bodies has no beginning. try and locate this "me" in every moment and it fails to be found. so "i" and its story is malleable. for life endowed every apparent being with the ability to build this "i" any which desired way.

but no one can build you. no one can vibrate for you. no one can select the thoughts in your particular point of view. the sequence of thoughts you have thought, you have done so alone. no one else is responsible for the heights or the lows. no one can take your steps for you. all of it is your work...this beginningless you that has the power to focus through the trillions of cells...

you are so free in being that you can choose to bring to life whatever conceptual bondage you construct. sitting in this beginningless space, you can construct a past. sitting in this non-local place, you can project a future. sitting in this timeless space we've labeled "nowness" and "presence" you can create yourself.

you are your own greatest creation.

before your troubles always rests the bracket of beliefs, of concepts, you have solidified in your own mind. before your lows rest the string of thoughts you have glowed into life and then expressed.

you can be as free as your concepts allow you to be. you can be as undefined, and so unrestricted, as the thoughts you choose allow you to be.

nothing is final. there is no ending for when "i" arises, it's always just beginning. you're always at your apparent beginning.

in your inherent freedom is found that you can write the story any way you please...any time.

and life will comply.

yours,
love fern

Wednesday, November 12

keep standing tall


mountains are not moved by an attitude of powerlessness. from a standpoint of self-invalidation, self-effacement, you can't achieve what you long to achieve. through uttering words of failure, by accepting thoughts of short-comings, you can't sail through your scenes with ease and experience the very beauty you long to experience.

thought begets experience. there is no other builder of your moments.

so don't submit to the beliefs born of limited thought. born from a lack-full perspective, they can't carry you to the fulfillment of your perfect moments. when an undesired thought demands admission into your mind, turn away. be deliberate in what you allow to take hold of your attention. be deliberate in what you give life to. be deliberate in what you express.

distracted focus yields inconsistent outcomes. expressions of failure can't create the path of success. you can't express limitation in any way and soar into the heights of your indwelling Being. watch the thoughts you keep and accept. watch the words you let light the steps before you. resolve to light the creative and the constructive. let the lightest thought pave the path of your inner dreams. let the creative word go forth to unfold your moments in beauty and in joy.

let the full power of your Being inspire you in every moment in your thoughts, in your words, and in your deeds.

the intelligence within you knows nothing of "i will fail" and "this won't work." the fate of your moments, the fate of your every scene, is your own creation, a result of what thoughts you have given attention to.

the essence of all that you live, is the essence of all that you have thought.

to live high, you must think high thoughts. to live well, you must think thoughts of wellness. in every moment. your life is always manifest in the image and likeness of the thoughts, the energy, you hold and anchor within yourself. there is no other determining factor. all is determined within yourself.

there is no power deciding your steps. you form your own way by the thoughts you entertain, by the vibration you emanate in every scene, in every moment.

the road ahead is as you light it with your own mind. so let your mind stand tall and reach beyond the heavens of this space of limitlessness.

keep standing tall.

in Love,

Saturday, November 8

staying chill: lessons from the snowman


so what's going to be the next thing you focus on to pinch yourself off from the eternally flowing source of wellness?

what excuse are you going to use in this moment to say that this whole expansive universe is not unfolding with perfection and precision?

what person, memory, event, or situation are you going to constrict your focus around, to exclaim that something is wrong with right now?

what problem are you imagining into being now?

what problematic future are you projecting right now?

beings hop from one topic to the next ever reaching for yet the next thing that just isn't working out the way that it should. and this thing becomes the reason, the excuse, to insist that this world of pure vibration is all wrong. that this moment is wrong. that this instant is entrenched with difficulty and discord.

so many causes to fight for. so many injustices to push against. so many wrongs to right. so many broken things to fix.

and yet all of these points of focus stem from the premise that...
...the very intelligence that birthed you,
...that brought you into being,
...the very intelligence that fashioned the entire universe,
...the very intelligence that manifested the trillions of cells that make up your body,
...the very intelligence that formed your brain,
...the very intelligence that made your visual cortex and all other sensory instruments so that you can perceive and participate in this environment
...the very intelligence that arises as the scenes of your life
...the very intelligence that allows you to mold it into whatever you please

...is on holiday, and so it is up to you and only you to solve the very problems you've imagined into being.

who are you without your fights, without your causes?

and what excuses are you right now manufacturing to say that all is not well?

what you resist does persist. whatever you imagine into being will appear real. what you push against remains.

still the river of eternal joy endlessly flows. and nothing is as it appears. and even the wise snowman will melt away.


so, it's no big deal really.

carry on.

Friday, November 7

the stream of happiness...


one of the irreplaceable finds of this physical journey is the fact that there exists a happiness that IS independent of the situations and beings in your life.

this happiness flows when you’re standing bare-feet at the edge of all you know. this happiness flows when you’re standing in the center of this wilderness looking out on what appears to be the senselessness of humanity.

the stream of happiness, it is eternally flowing. even now. right now.

you can be in a state of happiness regardless of what or who stands in front of you. regardless of the apparent state of this vibratory environment you call your world.

and you come into this stream of eternal happiness through the power of your very own mental focus.

it’s always about where your attention lands. it’s always about what thoughts are grabbing hold of your attention. it’s always about where your power of focus is standing.

freedom is realizing the boundless power within yourself and then LIVING it.

freedom is lining up with your Self and experiencing once and for all that the only one responsible for where you are and how you feel, is you. nothing else. no one else.

the only one responsible for your happiness is you.

to go your own way is to steadfastly stand in the power of your Being, to choose your inherent power of focus in every moment and with every breath, and refuse to let the outer appearance of this relative world fool you into thinking that You are other than you are.

you are power. right here and right now. and you have the ability...a remarkable ability to direct your focus.

focus.

revel.

LIVE.

Thursday, November 6

we've been fogged

when the path seems foggy, and you can't see too far ahead...you may wonder what's next. what awaits?

you may look up and down, and turn yourself all around to see still that you can't see clearly what is to come.

relax. take a deep breath. and take one step. just walk yourself one step at a time...


trust. the path is laid. the means are prepared. and the next step will land you on solid ground.

all is well.

Wednesday, November 5

the cupcake invasion

cupcakes unanimously decided to dance around me last week. now though i've long sworn off all things dairy etc. , i'm still so very appreciative of all the ways we manage to make food such a fun and colorful experience!

viva el cupcake...

my coworker made these for the team!

and a friend sent me the pic below because there is nothing that can make me smile more than something with a monkey on it...

alex is # 1. the cupcakes say so!!!


life is definitely a plate of delicious! enjoy it ~

Thursday, October 30

hey love, where ya runnin' to?


i prefer to save the words for blogs than to speak them when you’re runnin' in your own mind latched to the thoughts in your head.

a single thought is believed in and in that believing a thousand other like-thoughts are invited to flood the mind, taking you into a spiral of imagined suffering. woe is you.

it takes a belief in one arising thought to open the flood-gate of delusion…to bring that personal story back to life…

i call it delusion because often times the mental story has nothing to do with the instant in which you stand. it has nothing to do with the moment in which you draw your breath. it is all about some past event that you’re continuing to react to in the moment at hand… even though that single event has long ago made its appearance and exist, you sit in a fresh scene reacting to things that aren’t at all here…right now.

there are no highs and lows Here apart from thought. ups and downs only live in the unwatched mind, in the mind that is allowed to carry on unrestrained, unobserved, un-managed, undirected...you get the drift.

for mind is the maker of your story. thoughts are the builders of your every experience.

who are you without a past to have come from and a future to go to?

who are you right here and right now beyond the content of the thoughts in your head?

the fullness of your power for and over all things resides in your Now. no where else.

so what is your attention on Now?

Sunday, October 26

leap into love

i heard this quote today:

"love is a leap that cannot be denied"



well..."leap and the net will appear" - John Burroughs

Friday, October 24

yes, you are more

come to know your power. come and touch the power of your true face, and you will never again touch and identify with the thoughts of victim-hood.

nothing is imposed upon you from an outer power. nothing you have not asked for is given to you.

rather, everything that appears is in response to the vibration emanating from you. you set the conditions. you set the standard of experience. you set the parameters of your life by the very thoughts you offer and accept.

the laws of this design are precise. so you only ever receive the essence of that which you send out. life complies to the blueprint in your mind. nothing else. and there are no exceptions.

manage your mind. manage your vibration. abandon thoughts of victim consciousness for they do not serve you.

be still and recognize that your world is always ordered in accord with your thoughts. be still and meet your Self.

you are, always were, and always will be more than words can describe.

to the Self in you ~
-k.

Tuesday, October 21

Ecstatically Here

Made of a joyous living light, this life is pure ecstasy seemingly concealed by the sham of human delusion.

Yet every breath brings an opportunity to withdraw from the stories of limitation readily offered in your conditioned perception, and to step into the sea of seamless unity that pulses at the center of your Being.

This Here right Now, this pure place of relief and ease that lives in you, is Love, a stream of bliss endlessly flowing in and through you. Give IT your attention. Melt away repeated delusions in this immediate instant. Right Here. Right Now.

come away from the collective dreaming of dis-ease and step directly into your Name. FEEL THIS that pulses through you, that looks out from your eyes. Press your heart to This Living Love Here Now and rise above the collective drama of Time, of lack...of sheer insanity.

Give up the mental story. The only limit there is in this design is the one you impose and give life to through the power of your own mind. Come away from this mind.

To glow a reality into life by your own power then to scurry about as though you are powerless, as though there is some outer power, is indeed a very inverted game.

Right here and right now you can choose what gets your attention. You can keep your attention right Here in Love or you can wander into the individual and collective practiced patterns of lack and limitation, of powerlessness and utter insecurity.

That dream of lack is senseless and mistaken. See through it.

You can give your attention to the backless stories that spin in these delusional images or you can remain in the ground of your True Beginning.

this Life longs to show you the vastness and limitlessness of your true face.

Focus on Love.

Wellness abounds so cease giving life to the resistance of this abundant power.

in Love all ways ~

Thursday, October 16

In the Indivisible

* * * * * * *
in the infinite grid of unicity, ideas stir.

why does the restless mind not cease its confused movement?
why does it not once again dissolve confusion into the bliss within which it stirs?

when it is only the indivisible God-consciousness that permeates all of existence, what is this movement of "he" and "she" of "you" and "me"?

and what is this belief in decay when you are eternity itself?

turn attention away from the ideas of a confused environment. cease feasting upon the concepts of mortal delusion.

you are that primordial field, in which all things appear.

* * * * * * *

Wednesday, October 15

we're better than fine ~

you drown your moments with words so as to glide over the unbroken stillness of where we sit. it's a lovely day. why do you fear the divine silence? our philosophies save us from all that never needs saying. we know there is nothing to it and yet we go on pretending. we pause in the middle. yes, it's still all so very still. have you moved at all? here. now.

when uninhabited eyes meet, we say God has met himself.

so how do you do, in Love?

Tuesday, October 14

the Bliss of All Seasons


(Dhira Lawrence: Pele's Slumber)

the surface self is nothing more than shambles and folly
rest on it, and you are slave to the whims and delights of the elements
cling to it, and you are slave to the tides of an unstable environment

is it not better to build your world on the secure ground of eternity?
to draw your life from the wellspring of that everlasting wonder,
is to fasten infallibility around all that comes through you.

to live your life only from the surface mind,
is to wither and decay the boundless potential that came with you.

waste not this moment
waste not this power
waste not the riches of your inner Being
waste not your Self

for in its revealing rests
the joy of all worlds
the love of all times
and the bliss of all seasons

Monday, October 13

now we're certain

i have snapshots saved up in my mind
pearls being pressed
by a dream that churned
your hearts wishes
into a ring around my finger
i whisper my secrets in a smile
i let you find the story
written in between the lines
so many words
and so much time
and how we are pressed together now
this you and i

~

when you laugh
the stars rejoice
and this goddess roars
and all is well
with hearts again

i love it when you laugh
i cannot tell you what happens to my mind

~

i wake and i dream of an ever-same love affair.
it's everywhere in the land of make believe dreaming.
lights on or out, eyes shut or open, this love breathes life into the moments here and now.
and i'm so glad it found me.
and i'm so glad it found you.
and i'm so glad it formed us like two.

~

nameless i traverse
the grounds of this earth
in search of a wordless love
then i found you
a brightened star
among a darkened sky
keeper of my dreams
and lover of my heart
take my heart
nay, this night
take my mind

~

my inner eye feasts upon your every movement. every breath, every sigh, every thought you allow into your mind. my heart knows it all and fiercely swallows you whole. what manner of love is this, you ask. the only kind. a kind not of time or words, but that is of all time and all words. you and i have no beginning nor will we ever have an end.

Tuesday, October 7

clearing concepts

in talking about keeping attention in the present, the question follows: how do i do this in my everyday life?

when the habitually wandering attention is brought back Here, and it is clear that This is all there is, mind immediately projects a future scene in which this can't be done. or goes to past scenes in which this was difficult to do.

i get this now, but what about later?
i can't do this every second?
i try to do this, but it's hard to remember.
okay i see this, but what about in my everyday life?
what about when i'm with the kids?
what about when i'm with family how do i stay present with them?
how do i stray present when i'm with my friends?

immediately a sequence of scenes are imagined, and called "my everyday life."

immediately mind projects future scenarios or recollects memories. and it is with these totally mentally constructed images that the questions now come.

the pointing is always this: there is no everyday life. this is a concept that is being believed in. look at the very idea of "everyday life." what is this? look at it. right from where you sit, yesterday, tomorrow, and what is seen as "my everyday life" is totally and absolutely a psychic projection.

you sit here right now, right where you breathe, and imagine the very scenes you twist over. you twist over your imagination.

you're never not Here. attention wanders into the field of mental concepts, but that they are all just concepts is the beginning and the end.

there is no tomorrow to practice for. there is no everyday life to remember this for. it has nothing to do with memory-work. it is actually withdrawing attention from all of these mental tendencies...these practiced concepts of "tomorrow" "everyday" and the rest.

and that's what they all are. practiced concepts. a mode of thought you have repeatedly entertained. but look at them and locate them. sitting where you are, right where you are, locate these things. find them. put your finger on them.

there is just here. there is just now. recognize that all questions of "tomorrow" "later" come only when the very mind that asks first projects these imagined scenes. the mind projects these imaginary future moments and then asks and worries about what to do in these imaginary scenes. but even this imagining is arising Here. Now.

withdraw attention from such images and find out...are these scenes here right now in any way other than mental imagination? are these questions here in the absence of the arising thoughts? is what i'm seeing as everyday life, is the sequence of scenes i see as my everyday life here in this immediate moment?

the practiced mental tendencies make it appear as though Presence is something that you move in and out of. look closely. for this is not so.

Sunday, October 5

Love...love...LOVE...IS True

strange how the might of Love is misconceived and distorted by humanity's deluded concepts. the love conceived out of insecurity, the egoic striving to find wholeness from some external source is bound to be ridden with disappointment and suffering.

you will never find security from the unstable ground of false identity.

love in its true form is not an emotion of the moment. IT transcends transience. IT is beyond the ever-changing landscape of this mental reality...of fleeting form where bodies come and bodies go.

perhaps, per chance, per...something...the quest for True Love begins only when you understand who it is that is searching for It to begin with. without ever knowing who the "i" is in "i love you," the real meaning of love escapes even you.

the grace of this life is that True Love runs deeper than the ground the conditioned mind plays upon.

and i give a loud amen to that!

holding to a counterfeit identity and operating within its limited boundaries, love is offered as a promise to be kept, as a commodity to be exchanged ("my love" for "your love"), or as something to possess or obsess over.

LOVE. love. lOve. in truth is not a thing that can be lost or found, given or taken away.

IT in its true essence is manifest as the Love of Self alone. but mediocre conceptions of love trouble the human mind and the strangest drama is used to soil the purity of this divine revealing of oneness.

and still it remains ever clear to those who stop to question their tethered patterns of relationship drama...true fulfillment is not found in holding to the idea of separateness and operating within it. imaginary lines are drawn between some “you” to seek and some “i” to be found, some "i" that is lacking and some "you" that will come to fill the void, when all there is in this reality is You in all your diverse forms.

how can you ever experience the truth of that inherent Union, the truth of Love which is the underlying Reality of this fantastic universe, when you hold yourself apart from another? how can you know and allow the flow of Love when your very conception is constricted to say that love is something that could be given or with-held, that can be lost or found as though it is a thing of this temporary world?

holding to deluded concepts, the beauty and the grace of That within which you exist is missed...LOVE in all its splendor and abundance is all that there is...but this is not seen when we are blinded by the concepts born of ignorance.

the truth of the unchanging, the unchanged (which is what True Love is), is that it is always here prior to any seeking, prior to any striving, prior to the endless wanderings into the arenas of your concept-ridden mind...prior to the passing parades of selected faces you attribute to your love.

these faces are not the source of love for the source is within your very being.

if only it could be seen that love is the faceless that looks through all faces!

LOVE lasts where all else does not. Love IS prior to all relationships, all encounters.

Love IS Presence! the unified field in which you sit, stand, play, breathe...right here and right now. and suffering arises ONLY because you look else where.

THIS instant is LOVE. it has no face and yet it is all faces. it has no body and yet it flows through all bodies. it has nothing to do with a you or a me, and yet it does ALL things.

this ever-present field of unfailing fulfillment is what all beings seek to unite with. in search of the Love of Self they knock on all doors and look under all forms, they grasp and cling to temporary things, without ever looking for the Source WITHIN. and on and on they spin and toil for not finding the very thing they carry around with them every where they go.

Love moves through you, yet you look to receive it from some outside source. at the root of all suffering is this very tendency to look for THIS "out there" in some apparent "other."

beings sing of a love lost without ever having stilled to see the bliss in which they exist or the current of fulfillment that courses through their very being. beings dream of forever, when forever is only the instant in which you draw your every breath.

Love IS Presence. LOVE IS right here and right now!

the unconditioned realm of True Love has no use for past, present, or future. it's Here. Now. as the whole of life and all that appears with it. right here. and right now. feel it. keep attention on it.

time is for the conditioned mind and the identity whose sole survival relies on the reeling of this time-bound thought play. and to hold love to this standard, to this shaky and unstable ground, is to have never found the source of true fulfillment...your indwelling Self, the ever-present Self that awaits your recognition. Here. Now.

beings but only come into your experience to inspire you into feeling this ever-present Light of Self. your inner Self. life takes every opportunity to inspire you into seeing Your own face...the face of the Light within you. when something seems to cause you into feeling the expansive life force that courses through your very being, you are in that moment and in those scenes fully allowing the flow of your True Being. you are feeling your very Self. your True Love is never anything or anyone other than This...right Here.

THIS that you feel as love is what you are and it has nothing to do with the apparent other facing you.

instead of appreciating the inner revealing, that moment of recognizing the indwelling Self however, humans grasp at the object, the other person, and forget that the essence of "i love you" really says "your presence is allowing me to feel my Self."

so conditioning, or ego, has you hold these beings as your objects of focus birthing the idea that you must possess and cling to them as though THEY were the source of love. you neglect the true source of all things and attribute power to a changing thing! you expect them to bring you into this place once again as though it is their task to manage where your attention goes. as though it is their responsibility to make you feel WHAT you are. what nonsense! if in any moment you fail to see the current that is flowing through you and all others right in this instant, if in any moment you conceive of another as something other than a form of this Beauty, it simply means your attention has drifted into the judgmental realm of mind...away from Here and into an ever-shifting field of judgment and missed concepts.

a truth awaits our realization. the only thing that is deserving of our attention is our very Self which is Here Now. devote to that and all things are added onto you. let your attention go to that and your heart will expand to hold the entire cosmos. let THAT receive your loyalty, your appreciation...and you will stand on unshakable ground...the ground of True Love.

there is no falling in love or falling out of love. these are the activities of deluded convictions humanity continues to practice and unquestioningly perpetuate. if you know what Love is, if you know that Love IS, you would come to see that you could neither fall into it, out of it, find it or lose it, in any way, shape, or form. for you are IT.

there is only expanding to feel the light of Self. there is only allowing or resisting the current of Love that flows through you. all else is a dying dream you try to make real.

Love flows through you Now. Love moves through you Here.

in the absence of your addiction to limited concepts, True Love stands revealed as all things. and what a feast for your heart it is to feel the power of your very Self surge through your being...unreservedly.

Love's beauty is that it is independent of the forms that come and go, it is your very being, containing all things and always and all ways flowing through you irregardless of what faces and forms stand before you.

you are never without this Love. you could never be!

to sit in this Timeless Love, to live in this Field of Love all ways and always and yet to project realities of lack, separation, and seeking...this is a most peculiar human exercise!

you are inside Love all ways. you carry and flow this Love always.

in Love all ways and always ~

Thursday, October 2

Presence First

entangled with the surface movements of the mind, you think that you are subject to the pendulum swing of contrasts, the negative and positive of this reality. entangled in this ever-changing mental movement you believe and so conceive of life as a bi-polar roller-coaster ride.

but this simply isn’t the case!

you needn’t move with the tide of changing thoughts for the very reason that you are and you rest always prior to all thoughts.

where you are in this design, your primal placement amidst all of these movements secures for you a place of ease, peace, and effortlessness. for as long as you remain where you truly are, for as long as attention is left to rest in the timeless space Here, nothing touches you. nothing can touch you, for Here is always the absence of all mental movement.

when thoughts are seen to be just thoughts, all dissolves. when the flurry of mental thoughts that stir for whatever reason are left alone, that energy dissipates. In the absence of your participation, your identification and entanglement with thought, the appearing train evaporates. not only can you stand in the authority of your direct seeing, but you can stand in the authority of your true Being which rests in the ever-present space of “nowness.”

mind always travels down the path of least resistance. human conditioning has made it so that this path of least resistance, the path so frequently traveled, is that of insecurity, the breeding ground of fear, guilt, and useless patterns that drain the life energy of this design.

when scenes arise, when change appears, mind picks up its bag of thoughts and scurries down the previously defined grooves. and what fun this is for the human being!

so the reminder comes… you needn’t move with the tide of changing thoughts for the very reason that you are and you rest always prior to all thoughts. you are prior to all mental movement. recede attention back to this space. from Here you can create new mental grooves or you can keep your attention anchored in the space where mind has no input. that place is Here. that time is Now.

Monday, September 29

go your way

gentle as a petal on the skin
of your palms,
here i stand
as your world, as your heart
sent from the Gods of Love
and once upon a song
once upon a dreaming
we rise conceived in the depths
of an immaculate Being

and the spaces in our skin
keep a secret hidden from a world
made of thinning visions
and clumsy dreams
with faded colors lined
in the fog of restlessness

so we sit to write
of a tall tale of love
as the soul of this world
so desperately longs
to hear the melody
of a truth it has always known

and we call to this soul
and we ask:

set your sight high
upon the ceaseless flood
of God's ever expanding heart
and go only where it goes
up into the realm of luminosity
outward into that glistening field
of pure radiance
riding the formless back
of a mighty and cosmic force
infinitely reach beyond the lines
and shatter all of the boundaries
of your yester-scenes
release yourself
realize your Self

that time has come
and that time is here
for you to stand clear
in the power of your name
know your name

the message sounds
and the lines repeat

know your name
own your fate
and go your way

the words are sculpted
and the sounds are echoed
to say...

go your own way

Saturday, September 27

a sip of Love

(Artwork: Marcia Snedecor http://www.etherealart.com )

hold this chalice up to your lips
entice your soul
and loose your minds grip
breathe in the eternal fragrance
then demolish the altar
of your sensual addictions
release the Divine Innocence within
to reclaim your highest vision
know the power of your name
stand immersed within it
for the greatness of your being
awaits to flood this world
with the purity of your timeless light

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