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thanks universe!

i just got this email: Wishes for you in year 2009-Anonymous Great start for Jan, Love for Feb, Peace for march, No worries for April Fun for May, Joy for June to Nov, Happiness for Dec, Have a lucky and wonderful 2009.

Making it Mine in 2009

"going anywhere in the new year" asked the lady on the phone. coincidentally, i had just received a postcard from India that same day reminding of my intention to see the beauty of so many places with my own eyes. naturally, my answer is a resounding YES. of course i'm traveling in the new year. i love seeing new places. new faces. smelling in new smells and landing my eyes on new visions. attempting to speak a different language. holding hands with a local for no other reason than that they grabbed my hand. smiling at the way everything is so similar and yet so different. my luggage is already vibrating with excitement. i'm known to just pack up my bags and pull a disappearing act. or better yet, announce i'm going on a trip the day before i leave and watch the bewilderment float across the faces of my loved so and so's. i don't mean to. i'm just not a plan-a-year-in-advance type of traveller. opportunities come up. inspiration comes. the unive

monkeys in my mailbox?!

now all my keys will be warm for the winter. i am loved.

words on my brain...

Reality is a mental story in the moment, that you keep repeating.

she loves a lot

and so do i. thanks for comin' into my inbox today standing in the hands of...oh, i'm not allowed to say!

Raw Chewy Bars (Vegan Recipe)

Raw Key Lime Coconut Bars Ingredients * 1 cup raw cashews * 1 cup dates * 1 teaspoon lime zest, Zest before juicing * 1 Lime, juiced * 1 cup shredded (dehydrated raw) coconut Preparation 1. Chop dates to make processing easier. If you don't chop them, they'll likely just spin around whole in your processor. Fun for them, yes. Not helpful for you though. 2. Process the nuts then add dates in a food processor until crumbly. If you want chunky nuts in your chewy bar then process nuts and dates together. 3. Add in lime zest and lime juice to your food processor. Then add the coconut. 4. Press mixture into a glass dish or tightly into plastic wrap in desired shape. 5. Refrigerate for an hour or more to let the flavors combine, and the bars to firm up. Raw Chocolate Coconut Bars Ingredients * 1 1/2 cups raw cashews * 1 1/2 cups dates * 1 cup shredded (dehydrated raw) coconut * 2 Tbs Cocoa powder Preparation 1 & 2 same as key lime recipe. 3. Add in coco

you've got ether-mail

dearest mechanical bull, of course i get the message! i get all the messages! i have a very reliable answering machine that records every thought, every wonderment, every stir. some call it God. some call it Universal Wireless Service. whatever the name, i always get the message. even if i pretend otherwise for my own entertainment. we transcend all definitions. we transcend the foreplay of mediocrity. we transcend the customs and practices of a world based on limited ideas of what we are and what we can do. this is a cosmic affair, wouldn't you know?! so we're not doing it the way it's been done thousands and thousands of times. our freedom has no need for such constraints. our freedom is as vast as we make it to be, as cosmic as we allow it to be. our freedom is as unlimited as we create it to be. we are, whatever we create ourselves to be. be whatever you choose to be in this moment. express yourself with no strings attached. apologize not for what comes through yo

food for thought

(grapes & nuts = good?) (poutine = bad?) from a lack-full perspective the world offers many many “truths” and continues to do so. but any "truth" about the conditions of this vibrational environment is only a thought that was once thought by a single individual perspective, a point of view, a point of consciousness, and repeatedly accepted to the point of it becoming a "belief", and then shared with the rest. whatever truths there are about the body, were first just passing thoughts in the mind of one individual. whatever conclusions there are about health, were first just passing thoughts in the mind of one individual. whatever positions are held about bodily processes and needs, were first just passing thoughts in the mind of one individual. that you need someone outside of you to monitor and determine the health of your a truth in name only. it is a perspective that has been adapted across the board. so here's anothe


thou shall not use the F word on a sunday...

i was mulling over a conversation wondering what this self-diminishing tendency in the human is all about when i decided to forget about it and read my new book only to find these words: And he said unto them, “within each of us lies the power of our consent to health and to sickness, to riches and to poverty, to freedom and to slavery. It is we who control these, and not another.” A mill-man spoke and said, “Easy words for you, Master, for you are guided as we are not, and need not toil as we toil. A man has to work for his living in this world.” excerpted from Illusions by Richard Bach fine. i'll keep mulling over this nasty habit. oddly enough this "i am less than you" thing is a recurring track – this “you have something I don't have” story that's on loop in many minds. what the frankincense?!!? that's right. i said the F word. Existence did not say “go forth and diminish your self.” Reality did not say “go and conceive of yourself as less.” i

joy is the key

i was reminding a friend that joy is a moment to moment choice that you make. and that with practice, you'll find it almost unbearable to be anywhere other than in Joy. in Love. in Peace. in our Light... i say so because it's what i've experienced. my days are brilliant because i set out to observe them that way. i set the tone and the standard of where my focus will land every day. upon waking, i open my eyes in a sigh and say "oh life, i love how you love me!" and then i set the intention "today, no matter where i go, no matter what i do, no matter who i am with, i choose to see your endless goodness." it's a continuation of the conversation i was having with the invisible before sleep. i see the gifts of life everywhere. spread across my reality like my peanut butter is spread on my bagel this morning. thickly. and deliciously. then i stretch ready to vibrate myself further into the best feelings i can find. i breathe to cen

riding the short waves

you are a brilliant gathering of vibrating intelligent particles in a vast vibrational environment. try saying that a hundred times. and in this very moment, by the frequencies you are anchoring and cycling in your being, you are molding the life force of this design into the scenes of your tomorrow. you are calling forth more of this life force to manifest in the likeness of what you now cycle, believe, and accept within yourself. love is a frequency. appreciation is a frequency. peace is a frequency. expectation is a frequency. hope is a frequency. frustration is a frequency. anger is a frequency. doubt is a frequency. criticism is a frequency. it's all short waves and long waves. a continuum of colors. there is not a thought-form you entertain, cycle, and hold onto that is not vibrating a certain way. there is not a feeling you hold within yourself that is absent of a specific frequency. there is not a word you utter that is void of vibration. so sitting smack dab in eter

before i knew the winter...

i was warmed by the fire within. love. is. real.

a Smile lights the Sky

(Hong kong: photo from Venus, Jupiter, and crescent Moon (photo from:

you're just not that into you

what you get has never had anything to do with him, her, or them. it always comes down to you and your relationship with you. truth be told, it's that... so though the catchphrase would say that it was another who was in charge of accepting, loving, and appreciating you, it's just not so. the world forever reflects your own vibration back to you. life only mirrors the essence of what you cycle within yourself. the no-excuse truth to understanding your relationship with others is simple. come to see the miraculous brilliance that you are, feel good about who you are and what you bring into this world, and the world and everything within it will come to reflect your corrected vision. life adores you. you should catch up to that...

freedom's seduction

(Art: Rassouli " PILGRIM OF PASSION ") it is the pangs of this sublime loving minds that feast on delusions but miss it glides deep into the marrow of my soul and unlocks the treasure chest of bliss it takes me to that high estate and seals my longings with a kiss what great love, what rapturous power the frail and counterfeit dismiss and this Love abounds and its might astounds and it lifts all off unstable grounds fly freedom. inherit your Self.

Your Reigning Goddess

A force of light, Swirling through ready minds Like a hurricane A movement of love, Igniting open hearts Like lightening Striking sand Stunning radiance Eternal innocence I am Your reigning goddess I am the dancing elements Underneath your feet I am the flame Of that eternal heat I am your Light And yours alone I am a reminder Of your unchanging home And we are A brilliance unmatched by any The face of eternity Here collapsing duality Revealing once and again It takes No-Time To live in Love I'm always Here I'm always Now As I forever remain Your goodness in reign


no thought is concealed. no thought is private. for all that you believe yourself to be, by nature is expressed in and as your environment. you do not hide yourself. you cannot hide the sequence of thoughts you entertain, identify with, and accept. for the entirety of your life, your every moment, is the child of the thoughts you keep. the outer is an exact reflection of the inner world you carry everywhere you go. so if you're experiencing scenes that are conflict-ridden know that they are only so because of the conflicting focus within yourself. nothing that isn't in the likeness of your vibration can come to you. this world about you is insubstantial, and its apparent realness is only in the thoughts that birthed it. by the very thoughts you keep or abandon, you can rise beyond the celestial heights of this dream-world, or you can drag yourself down to the torment of your own doing. it is self-created and self-perpetuated. nothing that is facing you was imposed upon y

you are here now

i awoke to hear the words "i want to do this right." my inner ear hears across vast distances. so i whispered back "you have never done it wrong" knowing full well that the invisible wind will bring the reply on through. the human mind reactive-ly steeps itself in ideas of rightness and wrongness. but the Greater Life sees no such things. in the eyes of the Great Beginning only your innocence shines bright. can you see yourself through the eyes of God? can you view your untainted radiance right here and now? have no regrets for you stand within the heart of a divine unfolding. you have no wrongs to right. you have no mistakes to fix. you have no words to take back. you have no steps to undo. no matter where you think you've been, no matter what you think you've come from, you begin anew in complete innocence right here and right now. this moment right here is your beginning. nothing came before this. nothing! the mental stories of past veil the bright

life feels soOo good!

we did it! and we're still doing it! and it feels so good! it feels so good! "in the not too distant time ahead there is a way to get it done without leaving your bed there is a way to go to work by using your head it's the quirk of the network of mind intent just visualize anything that you want close your eyes bring it up to the front and realize.." anything that you want can be yours at any time. there is nothing you cannot do. there is nothing you cannot be. there is nothing you cannot have. you can live your dream. yes, you can. life is gorgeous

what a beautiful life!

i've been carrying happiness in between my steps and seeing just how contagious it truly is. it doesn't take much to light a heart and takes even less to spread the light. my inbox is flooded and my heart is trying to keep up with the ever growing well of goodness in which i exist. my moments are perfect. no wait, they're beyond perfect. and the voice in my head seems to be learning a different kind of language. one of love, one of joy, one of that beginningless bliss... may it constantly remind me just how much and how deeply i appreciate every fiber of what you are. may i be reminded of the magnificence that pulses as everything you appear to be. may i be constantly reminded of the purity of your beginning. may i be reminded of You and You alone. i'm given all the space i need, all the hours i request to be the very best version of myself. and when i turn my head, a smile comes to meet me. and then when i turn again, the sweetest wonder confronts me. then when

be as you are

harm cannot come to you. weariness cannot befall you. for in the power of your true nature, such things do not live. Existence thrives. the Great Reality thrives. don't you know who you are? don't you know what all this is? you cannot taste the invincibility of your Beginning by subscribing to the manifestations of an insecure idea. you cannot not let appearances dictate to you what this world and all that is within it is. do not submit to the conclusions of insecurity. you who rests higher than the highest ideas, Be As You Are. for only then will the errors you perceive melt right before your eyes. all is well.


It's you, and me Movin' at the speed of light into eternity Tonight, is the night To join me in the middle of ecstasy Feel the melody and the rhythm of the music around you ...We can go anywhere Go anywhere But first, it's your chance Take my hand Come with me ...Feels like we're on another level Feels like our loves intertwined We can be two rebels Breakin' the rules Me and you You and I All you gotta do is watch me Look what I can do with my feet Feel the beat inside ...It's a long way down We're so high off the ground Sendin' for an angel to bring me your heart Girl where did you come from? Got me so undone Gazin' in your eyes got me sayin' What a beautiful lady No ifs ands or maybes I'm releasin' my heart And it's feelin' amazing There's no one else that matters You love me And I wont let you fall Let you fall girl (ahh ohh oh oh yeah) Yeah, I wont let you fall... Forever ~ C.B. (

that something wonderful...


your warm december...

this place i'm in...the responses that come to conversations from's something more than my mind imagined. life blesses me with a steady heart and a patient gaze in knowing that you dwell in wellness...even if you don't yet know this yourself. it can only live your dream when you've become that dream. you can't experience your ideals from a place of lack, doubt, and disappointment. you can't meet and revel in all that you've become, when you're fogging up your imagination with worry and self-frustrations. you defy your Self every time you doubt your dreams...every time you look at the past your mind constructs. you defy all that you have expanded into when you doubt the goodness of what confronts you in your visions and expansive projections. the beauty of this life and your powerful place in it stands and stares you in the face...but you cannot meet its gaze or recognize it if you're busy looking at the past constructing s

i'm a love fern

a great power pulses behind every one of my cells. and i apparently sit amidst the trillions of cells without location. who am i? what's to say what i am? a consciousness, i am, so i'm told. but even this string of letters fails to satisfy. another concept offered. so many concepts offered. human. love. beauty. woman. daughter. which of them is the real you? "i am a love fern" is as true as all the rest. (my rendition of a love-fern. my branches are just beginning...) does it mean something less? who am i before the conceptual definitions? what am i prior to all the letters we assemble together and sound in our noise making? the buddha asked "where in your body are you?" in one of the sutras. and you have to wonder...which of these trillions of cells that make up the body carry you? which particle in motion brings to life that apparent sense of self and the story it faithfully unfolds? how are these particles different from the air particles, the earth

keep standing tall

mountains are not moved by an attitude of powerlessness. from a standpoint of self-invalidation, self-effacement, you can't achieve what you long to achieve. through uttering words of failure, by accepting thoughts of short-comings, you can't sail through your scenes with ease and experience the very beauty you long to experience. thought begets experience. there is no other builder of your moments. so don't submit to the beliefs born of limited thought. born from a lack-full perspective, they can't carry you to the fulfillment of your perfect moments. when an undesired thought demands admission into your mind, turn away. be deliberate in what you allow to take hold of your attention. be deliberate in what you give life to. be deliberate in what you express. distracted focus yields inconsistent outcomes. expressions of failure can't create the path of success. you can't express limitation in any way and soar into the heights of your indwelling Being. watch t

staying chill: lessons from the snowman

so what's going to be the next thing you focus on to pinch yourself off from the eternally flowing source of wellness? what excuse are you going to use in this moment to say that this whole expansive universe is not unfolding with perfection and precision? what person, memory, event, or situation are you going to constrict your focus around, to exclaim that something is wrong with right now? what problem are you imagining into being now? what problematic future are you projecting right now? beings hop from one topic to the next ever reaching for yet the next thing that just isn't working out the way that it should. and this thing becomes the reason, the excuse, to insist that this world of pure vibration is all wrong. that this moment is wrong. that this instant is entrenched with difficulty and discord. so many causes to fight for. so many injustices to push against. so many wrongs to right. so many broken things to fix. and yet all of these points of focus stem from t

the stream of happiness...

one of the irreplaceable finds of this physical journey is the fact that there exists a happiness that IS independent of the situations and beings in your life. this happiness flows when you’re standing bare-feet at the edge of all you know. this happiness flows when you’re standing in the center of this wilderness looking out on what appears to be the senselessness of humanity. the stream of happiness, it is eternally flowing. even now. right now. you can be in a state of happiness regardless of what or who stands in front of you. regardless of the apparent state of this vibratory environment you call your world. and you come into this stream of eternal happiness through the power of your very own mental focus. it’s always about where your attention lands. it’s always about what thoughts are grabbing hold of your attention. it’s always about where your power of focus is standing. freedom is realizing the boundless power within yourself and then

we've been fogged

when the path seems foggy, and you can't see too far may wonder what's next. what awaits? you may look up and down, and turn yourself all around to see still that you can't see clearly what is to come. relax. take a deep breath. and take one step. just walk yourself one step at a time... trust. the path is laid. the means are prepared. and the next step will land you on solid ground. all is well.

the cupcake invasion

cupcakes unanimously decided to dance around me last week. now though i've long sworn off all things dairy etc. , i'm still so very appreciative of all the ways we manage to make food such a fun and colorful experience! viva el cupcake... my coworker made these for the team! and a friend sent me the pic below because there is nothing that can make me smile more than something with a monkey on it... alex is # 1. the cupcakes say so!!! life is definitely a plate of delicious! enjoy it ~

hey love, where ya runnin' to?

i prefer to save the words for blogs than to speak them when you’re runnin' in your own mind latched to the thoughts in your head. a single thought is believed in and in that believing a thousand other like-thoughts are invited to flood the mind, taking you into a spiral of imagined suffering. woe is you. it takes a belief in one arising thought to open the flood-gate of delusion…to bring that personal story back to life… i call it delusion because often times the mental story has nothing to do with the instant in which you stand. it has nothing to do with the moment in which you draw your breath. it is all about some past event that you’re continuing to react to in the moment at hand… even though that single event has long ago made its appearance and exist, you sit in a fresh scene reacting to things that aren’t at all here…right now. there are no highs and lows Here apart from thought. ups and downs only live in the unwatched mind, in the mind that is allowed to carry on unr

it's all heavenly

be still. see. all is divinity.

leap into love

i heard this quote today: "love is a leap that cannot be denied" well... "leap and the net will appear" - John Burroughs

yes, you are more

come to know your power. come and touch the power of your true face, and you will never again touch and identify with the thoughts of victim-hood. nothing is imposed upon you from an outer power. nothing you have not asked for is given to you. rather, everything that appears is in response to the vibration emanating from you. you set the conditions. you set the standard of experience. you set the parameters of your life by the very thoughts you offer and accept. the laws of this design are precise. so you only ever receive the essence of that which you send out. life complies to the blueprint in your mind. nothing else. and there are no exceptions. manage your mind. manage your vibration. abandon thoughts of victim consciousness for they do not serve you. be still and recognize that your world is always ordered in accord with your thoughts. be still and meet your Self. you are, always were, and always will be more than words can describe. to the Self in you ~ -k.

Ecstatically Here

Made of a joyous living light, this life is pure ecstasy seemingly concealed by the sham of human delusion. Yet every breath brings an opportunity to withdraw from the stories of limitation readily offered in your conditioned perception, and to step into the sea of seamless unity that pulses at the center of your Being. This Here right Now, this pure place of relief and ease that lives in you, is Love, a stream of bliss endlessly flowing in and through you. Give IT your attention. Melt away repeated delusions in this immediate instant. Right Here. Right Now. come away from the collective dreaming of dis-ease and step directly into your Name. FEEL THIS that pulses through you, that looks out from your eyes. Press your heart to This Living Love Here Now and rise above the collective drama of Time, of lack...of sheer insanity. Give up the mental story. The only limit there is in this design is the one you impose and give life to through the power of your own mind. Come away from this

In the Indivisible

* * * * * * * in the infinite grid of unicity, ideas stir. why does the restless mind not cease its confused movement? why does it not once again dissolve confusion into the bliss within which it stirs? when it is only the indivisible God-consciousness that permeates all of existence, what is this movement of "he" and "she" of "you" and "me"? and what is this belief in decay when you are eternity itself? turn attention away from the ideas of a confused environment. cease feasting upon the concepts of mortal delusion. you are that primordial field, in which all things appear. * * * * * * *

we're better than fine ~

you drown your moments with words so as to glide over the unbroken stillness of where we sit. it's a lovely day. why do you fear the divine silence? our philosophies save us from all that never needs saying. we know there is nothing to it and yet we go on pretending. we pause in the middle. yes, it's still all so very still. have you moved at all? here. now. when uninhabited eyes meet, we say God has met himself. so how do you do, in Love?

the Bliss of All Seasons

(Dhira Lawrence: Pele's Slumber) the surface self is nothing more than shambles and folly rest on it, and you are slave to the whims and delights of the elements cling to it, and you are slave to the tides of an unstable environment is it not better to build your world on the secure ground of eternity? to draw your life from the wellspring of that everlasting wonder, is to fasten infallibility around all that comes through you. to live your life only from the surface mind, is to wither and decay the boundless potential that came with you. waste not this moment waste not this power waste not the riches of your inner Being waste not your Self for in its revealing rests the joy of all worlds the love of all times and the bliss of all seasons

now we're certain

i have snapshots saved up in my mind pearls being pressed by a dream that churned your hearts wishes into a ring around my finger i whisper my secrets in a smile i let you find the story written in between the lines so many words and so much time and how we are pressed together now this you and i ~ when you laugh the stars rejoice and this goddess roars and all is well with hearts again i love it when you laugh i cannot tell you what happens to my mind ~ i wake and i dream of an ever-same love affair. it's everywhere in the land of make believe dreaming. lights on or out, eyes shut or open, this love breathes life into the moments here and now. and i'm so glad it found me. and i'm so glad it found you. and i'm so glad it formed us like two. ~ nameless i traverse the grounds of this earth in search of a wordless love then i found you a brightened star among a darkened sky keeper of my dreams and lover of my heart take my heart nay, this night take my mind ~ my i

clearing concepts

in talking about keeping attention in the present, the question follows: how do i do this in my everyday life? when the habitually wandering attention is brought back Here, and it is clear that This is all there is, mind immediately projects a future scene in which this can't be done. or goes to past scenes in which this was difficult to do. i get this now, but what about later? i can't do this every second? i try to do this, but it's hard to remember. okay i see this, but what about in my everyday life? what about when i'm with the kids? what about when i'm with family how do i stay present with them? how do i stray present when i'm with my friends? immediately a sequence of scenes are imagined, and called "my everyday life." immediately mind projects future scenarios or recollects memories. and it is with these totally mentally constructed images that the questions now come. the pointing is always this: there is no everyday life. this is a conce True

strange how the might of Love is misconceived and distorted by humanity's deluded concepts. the love conceived out of insecurity, the egoic striving to find wholeness from some external source is bound to be ridden with disappointment and suffering. you will never find security from the unstable ground of false identity. love in its true form is not an emotion of the moment. IT transcends transience. IT is beyond the ever-changing landscape of this mental reality...of fleeting form where bodies come and bodies go. perhaps, per chance, per...something...the quest for True Love begins only when you understand who it is that is searching for It to begin with. without ever knowing who the "i" is in "i love you," the real meaning of love escapes even you. the grace of this life is that True Love runs deeper than the ground the conditioned mind plays upon. and i give a loud amen to that! holding to a counterfeit identity and operating within its limited boundar

Presence First

entangled with the surface movements of the mind, you think that you are subject to the pendulum swing of contrasts, the negative and positive of this reality. entangled in this ever-changing mental movement you believe and so conceive of life as a bi-polar roller-coaster ride. but this simply isn’t the case! you needn’t move with the tide of changing thoughts for the very reason that you are and you rest always prior to all thoughts. where you are in this design, your primal placement amidst all of these movements secures for you a place of ease, peace, and effortlessness. for as long as you remain where you truly are, for as long as attention is left to rest in the timeless space Here, nothing touches you. nothing can touch you, for Here is always the absence of all mental movement. when thoughts are seen to be just thoughts, all dissolves. when the flurry of mental thoughts that stir for whatever reason are left alone, that energy dissipates. In the absence of your participation

go your way

gentle as a petal on the skin of your palms, here i stand as your world, as your heart sent from the Gods of Love and once upon a song once upon a dreaming we rise conceived in the depths of an immaculate Being and the spaces in our skin keep a secret hidden from a world made of thinning visions and clumsy dreams with faded colors lined in the fog of restlessness so we sit to write of a tall tale of love as the soul of this world so desperately longs to hear the melody of a truth it has always known and we call to this soul and we ask: set your sight high upon the ceaseless flood of God's ever expanding heart and go only where it goes up into the realm of luminosity outward into that glistening field of pure radiance riding the formless back of a mighty and cosmic force infinitely reach beyond the lines and shatter all of the boundaries of your yester-scenes release yourself realize your Self that time has come and that time is here for you to stand clear in the power of your

a sip of Love

(Artwork: Marcia Snedecor ) hold this chalice up to your lips entice your soul and loose your minds grip breathe in the eternal fragrance then demolish the altar of your sensual addictions release the Divine Innocence within to reclaim your highest vision know the power of your name stand immersed within it for the greatness of your being awaits to flood this world with the purity of your timeless light